Tired and depressed

LilLambie

I am having a fairly shit time of this whole process. My son was sick and i had a tfmr when i was 16 weeks. I delivered him after a 20 hr labour on the 10th of July. I've been bleeding ever since. So thats 5 weeks of constant wearing pads as of tomorrow. 2 weeks ago they found I had retained tissue and I had to have a d&c. Still bleeding and ridiculous cramps. I had an ultrasound 1 werk ago and I still have retained tissue and a huge hematoma but they didnt want to do anything so soon after a d&c. I lost a full super pad plus more of blood in one rush 3 days ago and have had either a heavy period or barely spotting since. I am just exhausted. Ive been diagnosed with reactive depression because of it all. Im back at work and Im just not coping. I found out my son was sick before I announced and now I feel like I can't talk about the whole situation without seeming like an attention seeker. Due to all of my circumstances I have had a lot of contact with a midwife at my local hospital. She called today to check up on me and she just made me upset. I was telling her how Im still bleeding, both fresh and old, and she just kept saying how bad of a situation I am in but they still dont want to do anything unless it continues for another week. That's 6 weeks of bleeding. This just sucks balls. I'm constantly reminded of it all plus while this is all happening I'm not ovulating so can't move on with trying again. My mental state is getting worse and worse and it is worrying me how bad it is getting. Im worried what will happen if it goes on for much longer.

cyntodd

First of all I am so sorry you are going through all this. I think you need to first of all confide in people and get some support. Second I think you may want to go and talk to a counselor and just get it off your chest. Holding it in will make you feel like you are going crazy. You are going through an aweful situation and you need to not be alone right now. Prayers for you as you go through this. (Hugs)

ceclarlinetlo

I'm so so sorry. That just feels such an inadequate response to such heartbreak. I just don't even have words... I hope you stop bleeding soon and can start to move on, but I second the suggestion for a counselor, but also share about your son and how you are feeling here. You've had an incredibly traumatic experience and I hate for you to feel you are alone with no one to talk to about it.

vintagevice

I have no solid advice, just wanted to pop in to say how sorry I am that you are going through this. The emotional side of miscarriage is heavy enough without all the extra physical healing that has to take place. I also bled for what felt like forever!!!! 6 weeks of bleeding is beyond frustrating. Hang in there, you are not alone and it will get better. Big hugs to you.