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Some days are harder than others...

jlo1019jlo1019 member
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Some days I feel really positive that we will get a chance once again. Other days I feel down and worried that we will lose another baby.

I think I'd feel much better if I could just start a new cycle. It's been 6 weeks since our loss and nothing so far. So I wait...

Right now I'm praying and trying to keep busy at work. I'm trying to hold onto any glimmer of hope I have.

I hope everyone else is feeling fertile and fancy-free. ;-)
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Re: Some days are harder than others...

  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    Sorry you're having a tough time. 

    I got a BFN today.  4th cycle since the d&e.  My pregnancy feels so far away at this point.  Like I dreamed it.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • jlo1019jlo1019 member
    I'm sorry for your loss and your BFN. :-( I hope your cycle starts soon so you can get going on your BFP.

    How long did it take for your cycle to return?
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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I got a light period 5 weeks after the surgery, but I found out I still had hcg well into the second cycle.  So my first AF after the hcg dropped was 9 weeks and 3 days after the surgery.  My bbt chart for the first post-d&e cycle had a relatively normal looking luteal phase.  A little rocky, but it formed the usual arc.  The second post-d&e cycle was completely wonky.  The third and fourth cycles have been normal and returned to my usual cycle lengths.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • happyktmomhappyktmom member
    Did your docs tell you that you were more fertile in the 4 months following a mc?  Mine did.  Not that it helped me at the time.  I really didn't have hope at all.  In March of 2011, I had a mmc and d&c 3/4.  My next AF was 4/7 and I got a BFP 5/7. 
    I guess the positive note I am trying to send is that it can happen.  hugs and prayers for the best!
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    My doctor said "some people say you're more fertile after a miscarriage."  He really wasn't concerned about me, though, because I got pregnant in the second month of trying the first time.  All I know is it's been 4 months since the d&e and nothing so far.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • thistle8677thistle8677 member
    Same for me. 4 months nothing. :-<
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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  • jilligan14jilligan14 member
    My last miscarriage was in November so that's been 9 months with nothing. It sucks.
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    That's awful, @jilligan14. I hope it happens for you soon.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • thistle8677thistle8677 member
    @jilligan14 xoxo
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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  • jlo1019jlo1019 member
    I haven't been able to post anything since I posted this discussion. So I'm sorry I couldn't respond. I still cannot post a new discussion, only respond to posts. Im talking to tech support.

    Anyway, thank you for your advice. I actually started my period last week (the night of this post). It was such a relief to start. I cannot take my script of Clomid this cycle bc we are going on vacation early next week. This would have been my fertile cycle days and bding the whole time we are sharing a house with family would be awkward. However, if we are on vacation and I notice some fertile CM, I make no promises :-)

    I hope that we are the lucky ones whom are more pregnant after loss.
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