Harmony (and others like her)

kat.in.the.hat

(By others like her, I mean, those who had a m/c, then got pg and now have #2 or are pg with #2)

Was your second pregnancy easier than the first, in terms of being scared and afraid?  I'm approaching the one year anniversary of when we got PG with Miss M, and when I think back on that day, it wasn't a day of happiness, but a day of terror because I fell instantly in love and was petrified of losing her too.  That feeling never really went away.  I was so convinced I'd lost her at every appointment, they learned to take my BP ten minutes after the h/b check or else it was just insanely high.

Not that we're planning on #2 anytime soon, but I've just been thinking about things and wondering how different it will be the second time around.

CindyandScott

I honestly think that being pg w/ #2 has been a lot different then #1 after m/c for me. I am so busy with Reagan that I haven't had much time to think about everything that could go wrong like I did with her. I did notice that when in the waiting room I would get the same anxiety until I heard the h/b before I could feel her move but other then that I have not thought about it too much. Then again unlike Harmony I have had no real scares this pg.

TexasHarmony

Um, it has been different.  I fully expected to miscarry him and tried to just prepare for that.  Plus, while we weren't doing the best job at preventing, we sure weren't expecting to get pregnant this soon.  Soooo...there has been (and still is) a whole lot of shock.  Once we got past the first couple of ultrasounds (my BP was crazy high the first tri), I was pretty much over the fear of miscarriage.  THEN...I started bleeding like a stuck pig for 2 weeks and it scared the living bejesus out of me.

I had a friend who had a late (19w) loss a couple of weeks ago and that scared me pretty bad.  I wasn't feeling a ton of movement and I broke out the Doppler.  Other than that, I am doing much, much, much better emotionally with this one than I did with Avery's.  I never believed I was bringing her home until she was already there.  When they kept her in the hospital for jaundice for a few days and sent me home, I felt like my heart was wrenched out with a plastic spoon - I was that freaking worried about never getting her home.

Did that make sense?  All in all, it is much easier and it could be because I already have Avery that I felt like if I lost another one, at least I had her even though I knew I would be very sad.