My first loss @ 13 weeks (Long story alert)

sls0501

hi ladies,

My husband and I were ttc for 3 months and then became pregnant in May! I was ecstatic and so was he! Finally!

I have always been a follower of the bump and my heart aches for everyone's losses. Some days I wake up angry and wonder why me? Other days I try to distract myself and try to be positive. I finally found some courage to speak out so here it goes.

I was 13 weeks and going in for my second u/s. We were so thrilled to see our baby and hopefully hear the heart beat for the first time. Plus we were going to take the blood test to determine gender.

We go in and the tech shows us our baby and we hear the heartbeat a strong 163 Bpm and so excited. The baby was moving a lot and it was hard for her to take measurements but it was so nice to see our angel baby moving and growing.

Toward the end the tech told us that she saw a cyst on the umbilical cord and that she was going to run it by doctor. Of course our first response was everything okay??

She proceeds to tell us that she's no doctor and that doctor would tell us everything however we had some risk factors for chromosomal disorders. Long sorry short my doctor comes in and says this is severe and that we need to go to a high risk doctor immediately. . We go to the doctor and they fit us in the same day. The high risk specialist says our baby has a rare disorder where she has only seen it 6 times in her 19 years. Our healthy baby's stomach did not close and its internal organs were exposed. It's called body stalk anomaly. The baby would not survive.

I will never forget those words. My DH and I are so deeply saddened and just want to be normal again and try again. My DH is on board and we are anxious to try again. My hormones are so so wacky and waiting on AF to come.

I just want to say to all of you, your stories are helping me and reassuring me that I am not alone. I'm praying for myself and all you for a rainbow baby soon.

Much love to all of you!
Sommer

Angel baby 7/3/15- we love and miss you everyday

GhanimaAtreides

I am so sorry for your loss. I really have no words because I think being told your baby won't make it when you know you can still detect a heartbeat is so much harder than just finding baby without a heartbeat. Did that make sense? I hope I didn't offend. My heart is breaking for you and your family

sls0501

It sure does. It's really hard to comprehend but thank you so much for replying. ❤️

vintagevice

@sls0501 I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story broke my heart. This community has been extremely helpful during the grieving and healing process. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband. Xo

queenklau

Dear sls, I am so sorry about what happened to your angel. That is heartbreaking. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and to your DH. Why does this happen!!! Take care of yourself.

sls0501

Thank you for your kind words. I feel so strong some days and that I am going to be just fine. Then there are days like today that it hurts. Thank you for replying

whit3183

I am so, so sorry for your loss.  That is just heartbreaking - how terrible to go in for an ultrasound thinking everything is ok and then find out you're a one in a million case  Thinking of you.