Scared

hmmullen88

As delivery draws near I can't help but worry and be terrified something might happen and I won't be here to see my little man grow up or get to meet this little girl. I know I'm in good hands and the odds are in my favor I just can't help but worry and pray. I've talked with my DH and he's supportive and comforting and thankfully doesn't feel the same way. He says he knows I'll still be here and I appreciate his confidence just can't seen to kick this fear. Anyone else feel/felt like this?

WowHey

I've felt like this the entire pregnancy (my husband as well). It's normal now that you're responsible for someone else who is so vulnerable and dependent on you. You've never had more to lose than now and it's scary but your fear is simply just that:a fear. Just try to remind yourself there is no reason to believe anything bad will happen to you in the near future. This pregnancy has caused me to not only fear something bad will happen to my baby but to me or anyone even slightly close to me. It's exhausting and hard not to worry (especially being so emotional) but we really do need our energy to focus on the good. Delivery soon,that's so exciting! I was due a couple of days ago so I'm beyond ready now ha I think the nerves have evolved into "get this baby out of me!".

kamio92

Yeah I'm worried about that too. It's been a really tough pregnancy for us. We've been so worried about bub and now I'm starting to wear out. I've got a migraine, my heart is having issues and I've always been high risk for a bad bleed post delivery.

It's a really hard fear to shake and I don't think that it is entirely irrational. There are women that don't make it. I know it's the last thing that we should be focusing on... I love my little one so much already the thought of missing out on that first smile or cuddle is terrifying. Not being there to watch them grow and grow with them.

Yeah. Right there with you. Hubbies worried about it too and has told me that I'm not allowed to go first. That he can't do this on his own.

I guess I've just made my piece with that fear. I won't lie and say it doesn't get to me but I know that I'm going to enjoy every moment with my little one , once she is here. Gotta cherish every moment no matter how fleeting or long it is.

Send me an inbox if you need to just let it hang out or have a cry . It's best to go through the emotions than bottle them up. At least that's what I've found

kinnieloo

Yes !!! I am freaking out! I wake up in the middle of the night and I start thinking about it and I just feel sick about it . Ugh I am getting induced tomorrow morning due to preeclampsia and I am so anxious and terrified! I am praying for good health and that things will go smoothly for all of us!

hmmullen88

@Knottie74091607 thank you for the kind words and the offer. I had a really good cry with my husband last night and am feeling a little better. My hardest thing right now it's thinking today could very well be the last time I see my son and that terrifies me. My little girl has IUGR and the cord wrapped around her neck. I'm 38 weeks and the specialist I have been going to said if she drops below 10% in growth they're going to deliver her. Well on Wed I had an u/s at the hospital near me (specialist is an hr drive away) and they said she's about 3-4 weeks behind which is the smallest she's measured so we're really thinking tomorrow could be the day. At the last u/s with the specialist she was already at 10.8% growth and was only measuring 2 weeks behind. I'm trying to concentrate on the good and positive just occasionally I breakdown. Honestly, I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who is feeling like this because I feel like it's so irrational to be this scared of a what if but I am and thankfully have an amazing husband to hold me up and keep me from obsessing on it. And very thankful to have TB and all of you amazing ladies to help, give comfort, and make me feel not so alone in what I'm feeling.

Cimoody

All will be and is well with you and your precious baby. Your little one needs all the positive energy you can muster up. Release the negative thoughts and fear & breathe in positivity and peace. You are blessed no matter what your situation may look like.

aron15

Im not so much worried about me as I am baby, Im worried something will go wrong with her. ..