Hello, I'm 36 and TTC for about 18 months. My story is a little different from what I've been reading here so I'll share a bit of background.
DH and I have been married 13 years and I have been firmly in the "no baby" camp for most of that time. DH got a vasectomy after my failed attempt at sterilization (low pain tolerance) five years ago. Fast forward to Feb 2013 and DH tells me he's still thinking about children and has never stopped. So I spend 8 months in therapy and soul-searching and we decide to move forward. Reversal in Nov 2013, 6 months of natural trying and getting his levels back to normal, then I started Clomid, and just this month added HCG shot. I was feeling good until today and now just "not feeling it." I'm worried that somewhere deep deep in my heart, I don't want this enough and my body is responding to that. I've tried yoga and thinking happy thoughts and I'm hoping having this group to talk to will help. I had not told anyone we are trying except two close friends; recently I've told a couple others and so has DH and maybe that will help too.
I'm looking forward to hearing your stories and trying to help any way I can!