Cannot believe I have 4 more months!

karlimeliss

With me son I LOVED being pregnant. This pregnany is coming after a loss so from the start it felt much different. The first trimester was crappy as to be expected. I was overjoyed to have my 12 week ultrasound showing a healthy pregnancy and be out of then sick and tired months and get my energy back. The excitement was short lived, because that same weekend I ended up in the ER because of significant bleeding. It turned out to be a low lying placenta so I was placed on pelvic rest. Good bye yoga class and nursery projects boohoo. I was good though and followed orders. It was nearing my 20 week ultrasound keeping my finger crossed that my placenta had moved up and my pelvic rest sentence would be lifted. Buuut at 18.5 weeks I had a second massive bleed (again over the weekend landing me yet again in the ER) This time I find out I have a very large hematoma in my uterus and was warned by the dr in the ER that I would most likely miscarry but the good news is that if this is an unwanted pregnancy I still have options.(she is a spawn of the devil and misdiagnosed me to have an ablation). My ob saw me the next day and said that the baby and placenta had not yet been effected but put me on bedrest for the next 4 weeks in hopes of getting the hematoma to stop growing. I bleed every night for 3 weeks straight. It was awful. Finally at 22 weeks the bleeding had turned from red to brown and it didn't appear to be growing on the ultrasound. I am now 23 weeks and have my 3rd ultra sound with the specialist in 3 days. I have had significant amount of brown blood loss and hope and pray there is a noticeable size change in the hematoma. On top of it all I have a 2 vessel cord that is completely unrelated and will still have to be monitored even if my bleed heals. I have yet to buy a single thing for this baby because I have yet to get the green light to get excited. I am so exhausted from the stress of all of this and am so overwhelmed that I still have 4 whole months left (hopefully) anyone else share my pain?

aah1013

I can share a portion of your stress. This pregnancy follows 2 miscarriages and lots of fertility treatments. I also have complete placenta previa. I'm on pelvic rest and light activity restrictions. I fortunately haven't had any bleeding, but I feel very anxious that it could start at any time. I'll have a c-section at 37 weeks and am counting down the days... 12w 2d left. I'm just praying for a healthy baby.

You sound like you've had a lot of stress with this pregnancy and I'm so sorry it's been hard to enjoy each milestone. I hope you will be able to get some good news soon and allow yourself to become fully attached to this pregnancy.

przemosbabe

I have infertility and tried for 8-10 years to get pregnant with this little princes. It's dragging by so slow. I too had bleeding this pregnancy. I think the first fine at 15 weeks and it confined off and on for 3 weeks. It was so nerve wracking. Now I feel my little girl but I still am paranoid during the times I can't feel her. I love her so much and just want her safe out of my body. 4 months seems like an eternity.

sarahmills86

I am 24w5d and also have 3 months 1 week left of this pregnancy. I am currently on bedrest in the hospital and have been for 2 weeks. No idea when I will be released to go home on bedrest or back to normal if at all. I have an abruption and had some bleeding and a clot pass. It's going to be a long 3 more months but if it means I can keep my baby girl safe and in there I'll do whatever it takes! This is the most challenging thing I've had to endure, constantly worrying and not knowing the future. I feel for you!

karlimeliss

Thanks for the responses. I try so hard to not feel stressed, but it is constantly on my mind. Every tiny little pregnacy pain makes me worry. Not to mention the pure discomfort of being pregnant and not being able to strech and exercise to feel a little better. It's crazy belly looks huge because but I'm 23 weeks and only am 8 pounds more than my pre pregnacy weight due to the fact that I have zero muscles left in me! I feel so weak.
I feel my baby girl move often which is such a blessing. Knowing she has been unaffected is so comforting. I don't view myself as a "strong" person, and if it was not for the fact that I have a life growing inside me that needs me to take good care of myself it would be easy some days to say I'm done.
It certainly does make me realize how precious life is. You can't just roll over and poof make a baby.
Good luck to all you ladies. Hope we all have good news to share in the fall and this time of stress will all fade away and be worth each and every long stressful day.

McRad

I can't say I share your worries or your stress but my heart goes out to you and all the other ladies who have had a difficult pregnancy. I hope the best for you all-- a healthy happy baby and many, many joyful memories that outweigh the stress you have been feeling lately.

Cupcakesandquilts

That truly sounds stressful. I'll be hoping for the best for you as the pregnancy progresses!

LLynde5

I am so happy you can feel your little girl. I can't imagine your stress and pray it all gets easier for you.

JamieDubs

@karlimeliss my heart goes out to you and all the other expectant moms dealing with these terribly stressful situations. I couldn't imagine being in your shoes but I encourage you to stay positive knowing you're more than half way there, keep fighting

karlimeliss

JamieDubs said:

@karlimeliss my heart goes out to you and all the other expectant moms dealing with these terribly stressful situations. I couldn't imagine being in your shoes but I encourage you to stay positive knowing you're more than half way there, keep fighting

Thank you for this. I have lots to be thankful for. Luckily I have very supportive family and friends helping me out. My parents in laws and 6 siblings and siblings in-law are all less than 20 minutes away. I feel lucky to live in the Boston area with access to some of the worlds best medical care. In addition my son just turned 3 and is very independent, he gets dressed and puts his shoes on uses the bathroom, climbs in and clips himself into his car seat. I cannot imagine attempting to stay at home with him if he was a year younger and needed more help. He gives me so much love and joy and really brightens my day everyday. I do not let my mind even imagine the worst case scenario, I try to picture a healthy baby in my arms. That being said I know that the love my son and I have for each other is strong enough to get through any thing that may happen.

MamaOwl15

My situation is different, but my last pregnancy also ended in a loss, which has scared me since day 1. I had unexplained bleeding for a few weeks in the first trimester, but at 12 weeks and 20 weeks I got to see baby girl is healthy and growing. Last week she had a nice strong heartbeat and she's moving every day.

But I worry because I keep hearing stories of late-term losses, and I had pre-eclampsia with DS and had to deliver him at 37 weeks. Apparently the risk is higher for pre-e if you had in previously.

To top that off, we keep encountering non-pregnancy stress. Like yesterday, the hood latch on DH's car broke loose and the hood flew up and hit the windshield while he was driving, causing the windshield to shatter. So that's going to be $300 for the windshield plus however much to fix the hood. This is on top of needing something repaired in the engine (not sure yet, maybe the radiator? It overheats when idling but is fine the rest of the time). And we just got the car back from having the rear bumper replaced after I was rear-ended on Mother's Day.

I'll be 25 weeks tomorrow, so I've got 12-15 weeks or so to go before baby arrives. That's 3 months for another major disaster to happen or it could be uneventful. I just want my little girl safe at home in my arms.

Sballerina

@karlimeliss, I want you to know I prayed for you and your baby last night (my DH wondered why I was so quiet!) and I will try to remember to continue to do so. Glad you have your little son!

karlimeliss

Sballerina said:

@karlimeliss, I want you to know I prayed for you and your baby last night (my DH wondered why I was so quiet!) and I will try to remember to continue to do so. Glad you have your little son!

Thank you so very much. This means so much to me.
I hope to recieve good news tomorrow!