I need to vent

ljalmeida

I just feel so drained and broken down by constantly feeling like absolute garbage! I'm trying so hard to keep my eyes on the prize (second trimester) but I have hit my melting point tonight and I just need to vent. My boss is on me at work (I'm a field sales rep so I basically drive most of my days) because my activity is low, I'm puking day and night with no relief in sight, my house looks and smells horrific because I can't keep up with the housework and my hubs just started a new job that has kept him away (thankfully he'll be back tomorrow to help me). I feel like I'm not me, like I want to crawl out of my skin, and for f***'s sake I want to take a walk without feeling like I'm going to pass out or puke everywhere. And what's worse is I feel like I can't tell anyone how absolutely shitty I feel because I should be elated and overjoyed and lucky to be here. I am beyond excited for baby, and I can't wait until he/she is here, but I'm have a really hard time seeing the forest through the trees ATM. Thanks for listening, it feels a little better even just writing it out. :-&

marianamarcki

I feel you sister. Stay strong

kimmy0723

Thinking of you... Hang in there

cazza22

I feel exactly the same if it helps. I'm a kitchen designer and everything that could go wrong at work at the minute is. I just don't want to be there. My boss is trying his hardest to be supportive but I just feel like I can't cope! I want to sleep constantly, I have never felt tiredness like this and my partner is just not getting it! He thinks I'm using this pregnancy as an excuse for anything especially being lazy but I'm just finding it so physically and emotionally draining. I'm trying my hardest not to moan because I want this more than I've wanted anything in my life but I'm finding it hard, it's making me feel a bit like a failure =((

nanamp

This would be so much easier if we could tell people!

lemonpie8

I'm with you too. It's been a lot harder than I was expecting! I feel like I can't exercise, fruits and vegetables aren't appealing, and I just feel downright uncomfortable. I keep hoping once this first trimester is over in 2 weeks things will be better... I guess we just have to keep our eyes on the prize we will get at the very end!

willashbaby

One day at a time. You CAN tell people if you are OK with it. I told my principal right away so she would understand if I was "off" one day and so I could leave early for appointments when needed. It has made my life much easier.

ljalmeida

Thanks ladies for all of the support and advice. I'm feeling slightly better this morning (emotionally) as I had a really good cry last night and I think sometimes that's what we need. Also I think I may just tell my boss today. I think if he gets off my back, I may feel a huge sense of relief. Here's to hoping the second trimester brings energy, and end to nausea, and a bit of myself back again! 9 weeks 5 days so hopefully not too much longer.

NenaB54

I'm glad you feel a little better today. I know exactly how you feel though - I am the same way. I am pretty much useless at work although I try to push through, and my house is a mess. We keep ordering out because I am too tired and sick to cook. My boss and assistant principals ( I work in a school) know, but I still feel like they don't really know how bad it is, and probably wouldn't fully understand. One of my AP's is expecting his 4th child and his wife's pregnancies have always been super smooth. I feel like I am complaining all the time. 

BUT YES I am beyond thrilled to be pregnant. I am just looking forward to feeling better. I hope its soon for all of us !

Karenin

Totally hear you! Hoping you feel better soon!

NenaB54

I will add to the venting. Felt miserable all morning. Kept eating crackers to try to help the nausea. Finally decided to eat lunch. 5 minutes later I am in the bathroom throwing it all up. In a gross school bathroom. EW 

amargaret24

Today is the 2nd day of feeling good and I'm so thankful. Ive been super ill for weeks. Last weekend was my breaking point....I cried many times.

laurenmichaels

I feel you girl but just know that 2nd trimester is coming and it gets soooooooo much better! ❤️

TinyDancer51510

I feel the same way. Fortunately I'll be 11 wks on Sat and we are telling our families this weekend so I can start telling everyone else and stop pretending like I feel fine. If the second trimester doesn't bring relief, I will cry until January. :-P

l4rk

I would tell your boss for sure! I decided to tell my boss after 12 weeks OR when pregnancy began impacting my work/performance. You have a very legitimate reason for the way you are feeling and pelple will be more supportive and probably even relieved. I'm in charge of hiring/firing decisions in my dept and you would be on my radar right now (and sounds like your boss has noticed too)--having an explanation would actually be to your advantage.

Being pregnant protects you to an extent but only if you disclose it. It's not discrimination to fire you for poor performance if they aren't aware of your pregnancy. (The discrimination part actually only covers being fired for being pregnant, but employers don't want to deal with that gray area, so they will let a lot of other stuff slide...)