I just need to vent I guess ... I've said this somewhere else in the forum but this cycle of TTC (second month trying) was sort of a bust in my mind because my husband was sick for a few weeks and we couldn't BD as much as we should have. I also haven't gotten my basal thermometer yet so haven't temped or charted, or even tried an OPK. I seem to live and die by my period tracking app which i understand can't ever give a really accurate account of what's going on except that when I go back months and months I can see how regular I seem to stay as far as AF goes.
So Last month was my first month trying and I was 10 days late (as far as the app goes) which for me was a 41 day cycle and way late for me! I got all excited, googled until my fingers hurt, and took 8 tests. So this time around especially since I feel like my cycle is "messed up" or "off" now from being so late, I have no idea where I'm at with anything, and us barely doing anything this time, I thought I wouldn't even care this month or think about it, or buy any tests.
Then my boobs got really sore and have stayed that way for about a week now. Until today I just thought "pfft - so what". But all of a sudden today I'm back to googling, you tubing, and obsessing over my calendar app.
. It's so annoying! I tend to get overwhelmed easily and give up on things which is how I'm already feeling. I keep wanting to buy a test now but feel like if it says negative again this cycle it's just not ever going to happen. That's how my mind works it's so all or nothing! And I know people have tried a LOT longer than 2 cycles! I'm just driving myself crazy.
I'll probably pick up a test tonight for tomorrow morning which could either be right on time to test or a week early since I'm not sure if or when I O'd.
I'm just feeling all emotional and kind of overwhelmed by everything today for some reason. Anyone else?
Re: And the obsessing begins...
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
For the first year after my first loss I swore it was pregnant every month because my boobs hurt or I was bloated, I grasped onto any sign I had. Every month I was let down.
Start temping and use opk's so you will give yourself the best shot every month. This way when you are 10days "late" again you will know it's just because you O'd later than usual.
I hope you are successful sooner rather than later but if you do end up ttc for a while my advice will save you a lot of heartache.
Me:39, DH:40
DD born 8/96, DS born 8/04
TTC#3
NTNP since 2006, active trying 1/13
Natural M/C 3/13 at 7 weeks
CP 2/14
All welcome
How are you feeling @hooligans4 ? Sick yet at all or is it too soon?
Me:39, DH:40
DD born 8/96, DS born 8/04
TTC#3
NTNP since 2006, active trying 1/13
Natural M/C 3/13 at 7 weeks
CP 2/14
All welcome
Makes a lot of sense... I'll post it here. It's just that there IS somewhat of a time limit on having babies . And it's hard because I've been in child care my entire working life. So about 20 years now. Preschool teaching, nannying, babysitting, even an in home daycare. I've always wanted it to just be my own kids and to be a mother and now that I'm finally married and can have that, i thought ok I'll just get pregnant! But it's just not that easy I guess.
BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
TTC#2 since May 2017
BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39)
BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
thanks again for all the advice! @jilligan14 how cool that we've both been in child care! I love it but sometimes it's depressing taking care of everyone's kids but my own I have learned a lot tho and definitely feel prepared if it does happen! At least I'm not one of those people who are scared to hold a newborn.
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
BFP- 10-16-14 EDD 6/13/15: MC 12-1-14