Rolling over in bed is like making a 3-point turn, doing dishes I look like a TRex and it's impossible to wash my face without being drenched. Also, unsightly itchy stretch marks appeared this week for the first time and I'm devastated, (I think bc he dropped).
I feel as if I can not do this anymore. I'm at the end of my rope. My family is so far away..... My DH is just not getting that I need support. I've probably never felt this low in my life..... And that's saying a lot considering I have depression.
You can do this. You have support here on this forum, and you are one toughhhhh cookie! Not too much longer, babe!
I feel as if I can not do this anymore. I'm at the end of my rope. My family is so far away..... My DH is just not getting that I need support. I've probably never felt this low in my life..... And that's saying a lot considering I have depression.
i totally understand how you feel. im not really close with my family, im just too down lately to really feel anything else.
but you are strong, and you can and will get through this.
@klkonwi I have been all rah rah, but today is my due date and I'm feeling the same way. I think it's normal and valid, depression or no, whatever your circumstances! I'm getting through it with my focus on Something Productive, Something Fun, Something Relaxing, each day. This includes naps and movies and walks and laundry. Hang in there, so close!! Eye on the prize, girl. And you got us, always
Thank you for all the nice words and support guys. I just feel so much pressure and anxiety. I really am frustrated that I have had to do pretty much all the cleaning to prepare and my DH is just not the female support I need. I'm being dumb because I'm completely capable and able bodied to do so..... but damn it..... For once I'd like him to say, "put your feet up, I will do that." I'm sore. Fed up. Want one good night of sleep and tonight I am feeling a migraine coming on..... (Grammar police come get me for this post) I know our DH's feel pressure as due dates close in.... They probably just don't express it. And let's be real .... It's not their body so they don't know that kind of anticipation. Mine just keeps saying "we will be fine and think positive." Which is nice but not good at 230 am when I feel like dying! Ok. I'm done. Thank you guys again for listening. You ladies are awesome.
Thank you for all the nice words and support guys. I just feel so much pressure and anxiety. I really am frustrated that I have had to do pretty much all the cleaning to prepare and my DH is just not the female support I need. I'm being dumb because I'm completely capable and able bodied to do so..... but damn it..... For once I'd like him to say, "put your feet up, I will do that." I'm sore. Fed up. Want one good night of sleep and tonight I am feeling a migraine coming on..... (Grammar police come get me for this post) I know our DH's feel pressure as due dates close in.... They probably just don't express it. And let's be real .... It's not their body so they don't know that kind of anticipation. Mine just keeps saying "we will be fine and think positive." Which is nice but not good at 230 am when I feel like dying! Ok. I'm done. Thank you guys again for listening. You ladies are awesome.
I feel this way a lot, too! It's so difficult to have a deadline for baby but at the same time, it could happen any time, and we all have these huge to-do lists. It's great that they reassure with "it'll be fine...", but these hormones and the pressure definitely make me feel like we have to get this done RIGHT NOW. I wish DH shared that urgency, or appreciated it more.
@klkonwi I totally get where you're coming from. I mentioned over on the weekly appt thread that I was freaking out because we have a set induction date for next week (EDD is tomorrow) and that seems to make it "more" realistic knowing that my little guy will be here in less than a week one way or another. I feel like I have this huge list to accomplish and DH and I aren't always on the same page as to what is important to finish first! Just relax and put your feet up and know that you're doing a great job and know that you've got a lot of support and love from us!
@KarasTwin sorry due date buddy!!!! that sucks to be timing and then they disappeared! I would have been excited too! At least you got a good lunch out of the deal?!
It was delicious! It didn't really hit me to be disappointed until I saw how disappointed DH looked. He's not one to show his emotions but I think it made it really real for him and he was bummed it wasn't the real deal.
I feel as if I can not do this anymore. I'm at the end of my rope. My family is so far away..... My DH is just not getting that I need support. I've probably never felt this low in my life..... And that's saying a lot considering I have depression.
I'm sorry you're going through that, my mom was about to drive me crazy yesterday, but I was glad she's only about half an hour away from my work (I have a commute that's well over an hour). DH has been as supportive as he knows how, but I know what you mean when you say you need female support. We live very near his family, but it's not the same. I love my MIL to death and she's been offering for me to come stay with them or for her or DH's sister to stay with me, but it's not the same. I'm really sad about DH being gone. I asked the doc yesterday if they thought I'd be ok to go stay with my family (it could take a couple hours to get from where they live to the hospital) and she said she thought that would be fine. I only feel comfortable doing it for the first week, though, so I know those 2 weeks before EDD are going to be tough. Chin up, though....we'll get through this! All is creepy internet strangers have your back! Hugs!
@klkonwi hang in there! I just don't think they get it. I feel like DH and I have been getting in tons of little arguments lately. The think positive thing also annoys me. I know he's trying to be supportive but I'm the one that has to get the baby out, I'm a FTM, and I'm terrified. Haha. You're almost there!
@klkonwi I know what you mean, too! Here I am up here far away from family, living my little hermit life. I can go 2-3 days without seeing another soul, like I probably will this weekend with DH on duty today thru Monday morning. When DH is home he is also playing the think positive game 'it'll be fine' and that's great, but yes, I don't think they feel the anxiety quite as keenly as we do. They aren't the ones constantly sitting there thinking to themselves 'well, that felt weird! Do I need to be on the lookout for those? Does that + this other thing mean anything?' A lot of times the ladies here are the only I people I 'talk' to at all when DH is gone, so thanks for that ladies.
Just be strong - you ARE strong - the rest of us here know it. You're doing great, and are going to do great. We got your back.
@mellymar@klkonwi I feel isolated all the time... No family, friends, or acquaintances in the same state. FI is the only person I see/interact with for days and days. I never thought I would be the person to find support in an online community of strangers but I truly do love this board and knowing all you ladies are out there feeling the same way. I'm always the one being positive and taking the "I'm just not going to worry about this" approach, but last night I had a breakdown discussing insurance for LO. It is so complicated because our state residency isn't completely clear, ie I changed my mailing address to NJ but FI did not, we both still have PA drivers licenses, his license for selling insurance is a PA, so in order to get LO an insurance policy without committing fraud I have to go get a NJ drivers license and have the policy be in my name, or FI has to change his address to NJ, get an NJ insurance license, change the registration and insurance and plates on our car. And of course EVERYTHING is more expensive in NJ than in PA. And he was talking all this insurance lingo to me as I'm bawling my eyes out because I'm worried we won't get a plan with enough coverage and something will be wrong with LO, and he's saying "so if he has to go to the emergency room than this," and "if he had to have surgery then this" which thinking about that made me cry even more. I just hate it all and must have said a million times I don't know what any of this means please just decide and do it. And I made dinner last night but my taste buds are broken and I put way too much garlic in it and it was basically inedible and just pout.
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Not too much longer, babe!
but you are strong, and you can and will get through this.
I'm sore. Fed up. Want one good night of sleep and tonight I am feeling a migraine coming on..... (Grammar police come get me for this post)
I know our DH's feel pressure as due dates close in.... They probably just don't express it. And let's be real .... It's not their body so they don't know that kind of anticipation. Mine just keeps saying "we will be fine and think positive." Which is nice but not good at 230 am when I feel like dying!
Ok. I'm done.
Thank you guys again for listening. You ladies are awesome.
I feel you. I soooo feel you.
Just be strong - you ARE strong - the rest of us here know it. You're doing great, and are going to do great. We got your back.
I'm always the one being positive and taking the "I'm just not going to worry about this" approach, but last night I had a breakdown discussing insurance for LO. It is so complicated because our state residency isn't completely clear, ie I changed my mailing address to NJ but FI did not, we both still have PA drivers licenses, his license for selling insurance is a PA, so in order to get LO an insurance policy without committing fraud I have to go get a NJ drivers license and have the policy be in my name, or FI has to change his address to NJ, get an NJ insurance license, change the registration and insurance and plates on our car. And of course EVERYTHING is more expensive in NJ than in PA. And he was talking all this insurance lingo to me as I'm bawling my eyes out because I'm worried we won't get a plan with enough coverage and something will be wrong with LO, and he's saying "so if he has to go to the emergency room than this," and "if he had to have surgery then this" which thinking about that made me cry even more. I just hate it all and must have said a million times I don't know what any of this means please just decide and do it. And I made dinner last night but my taste buds are broken and I put way too much garlic in it and it was basically inedible and just pout.