Miscarriage at 17weeks, heartbroken(TMI/TRIGGER).

kelciefreitas

Went Into the ER because or non stop vomiting .
Went to the washroom to notice I had a huge Gus of fluid come out of me.
Was rushed into the ER where I was given two ultrasound by two different doctors. It was confirmed that my baby no longer had a heart beat.
I was given two options d&c or being induced.
I went through only five hours of waiting until the baby and the placenta passed.
I wanted to do this because I wanted to hold my baby just once.
They weren't sure if it was a girl or a boy because it was only measuring at 15weeks but my baby looked so perfect to me.
I glad I did this for the healing process as I feel like seeing an holding my perfect angel would help me grieve.

I am now giving my heart and body some time to get back together and wait for the right time to have my rainbow baby.
After two miscarriages I thought this was the one but god has better plans for my angel baby and myself.

This was such a hard process to have to be going into labour and knowing I can't take my baby home with me but the pain was hardly there and I'm glad I was induced.

Synnovus

I'm so sorry for your loss! ((Hugs))

rachrobertson

I am sorry for your losses. This board has way too many N15 moms. I pray you get your rainbow baby when you are ready to try again.

twointow83

(((HUGS))) so sorry for your loss. Was the genitalia not indicative of gender?

@rachrobertson what is an N15 mom?

rachrobertson

Those that were due in November 2015. I feel like over half of the frequent posters were due in November. I would have been 17 weeks yesterday and was due November 10.

MVCL7788

Praying for you, so sorry for your loss. 

twointow83

@rachrobertson thanks for the explanation

melzmini

I'm so sorry. Big hugs. I was due November 9 and found out today there was nothing wrong with my fetus and it was a girl. Lost her at 12 weeks.

MayBeSomeDay16

I was also an N15 and i noticed quiet a large amount of frequent posters unfortunately ended up here

Worldtraveler85

I too was due on November 9th and just found out this week that I lost my baby. I barely had any symptoms, but had this horrible feeling that something was terribly wrong on Tuesday night, right before my doctor appointment. On Wednesday, I went to the doctor and wanted nothing more than to hear the heartbeat. When the doctor didn't hear it, I was devastated. I had two ultrasounds that finally confirmed that we lost the baby. Yesterday, I had a D&C, and am home recovering today with moments of complete sadness. This was my first pregnancy, and I started feeling all of my maternal instincts kicking in. All of my family and I were beginning to prepare for the nursery, talk child care, and then suddenly that comes to a blinding halt. The other hard thing is to watch my two close friends who are also due in November. The thought of not being able to go through this process with them is wrenching. I am sorry for all of the other moms going through the same pain. Try and stay positive even though that maybe the last thing we want to do right now.

whit3183

I am so, so sorry for your loss.  I have no words -- my heart is broken for you.  I'm glad you were able to see your baby at least once and hopefully start the healing process.  

Sunami88

I was due November 16th. I was 12 weeks pregnant when I was expose to Rubella. At 14 weeks the symptoms showed up and I had to terminate my pregnancy at 15 weeks. I was never vaccinated.