I was so saddened and ashamed when my husband and I were told that we would never conceive naturally. I had no idea how common infertility actually was.
After many tears and many injections we became pregnant and our daughter is now eleven weeks old.
I am compiling a collection of stories and am looking for other moms and dads (or those hoping to be) to share their personal stories in writing.
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Re: Share your infertility story
I'm 34 years old, diagnosed with PCOS when I was in my mid twenties. After nursing school I gained quite a bit of weight and my periods were quite irregular. Needed progesterone pills every 3-4 months to induce AF. I met my husband in 2001, we have been together for 14 years, married for almost 6. We first sought out help from a RE right after we married. It led to frustration due to being diagnosed with DM II and depression and anxiety. I was told my Ha1c had to be <6% to attempt treatments. At the time it was 6.7% but I was very discouraged and I kind of went into denial and I wanted to stop trying. During that time, my husband's semenalysis showed a low count several times in a row (now looking back, we attribute it to him having been febrile due to flu around that time and poor eating habits). We were devastated. It's one thing as a woman, to try and accept that you are having a hard time conceiving because of YOU, it is another to realize that you and your partner are both dealing with infertility factors. Makes you think maybe this becoming a parent thing really isn't meant to be. It was an extremely difficult time.
About 3 years ago, I noticed my periods would come on their own about every couple months, or every other month. For a short while
I did acupuncture, became quite costly. Still irregular, but I was happy because I didn't need to take progesterone to get my periods. My DM II was still less than desirably controlled and I just figured I would stop wanting children. I ate terribly, and I did not exercise. My job as an RN was physically demanding, but I was not taking care of myself, and neither was my husband. Towards the end of 2013, my DH underwent kidney stone removal, and he swore off soda and fast foods and started exercising.
To this day, I'm still confused as to how we were able to achieve a surprise BFP in December of 2013. I was floored. Probably bought about $300 in HPTs just to keep seeing positives every morning. It was totally unplanned. We think it may have been due to just relaxing and not trying too hard. I was very concerned about my blood sugars (still uncontrolled), but we were elated to bring in 2014 sitting in our MD's office looking at our ultrasound of our baby's heartbeat, and then at our next appt to listen to the baby's heartbeat, we learned that there was no more heartbeat. I did not bleed or have any pain. I was going through a missed miscarriage. It was the best 7 weeks and 5 days to be able to feel that little life in me. I would have gladly kept the nausea and sore swollen breasts. I did not want the D&C or to go home and wait it out. I took misoprostol and it was the longest 4 days of my life. They say mc's happen to women all the time, and that they do not know why...but I knew it was probably my fault for not taking better care of myself and my blood sugars.
So in June of last year I made a commitment to myself, my husband and our future to revamp my health. I wanted to kick PCOS and DM II in the butt. My husband picked up boxing for exercise, and we started going to the gym, jogging...yoga...anything to keep moving. Together we have lost nearly 70 lbs. I gave up beef and pork and I started prepping meals so that I could control my portions and carbs. AF averages out to about 40-45 days now. Most normal I have felt in years!
My DM II is so controlled to the point that I have the blood sugars of a normal person. Last ha1c was 5.8%. I do have to use insulin, but I feel amazing. Not sickly. I was able to cure my fatty liver. I worked with my primary MD, my GYN, a nutritionist, and a high risk perinatal doctor to get better physically. Well enough to get back to the RE specialist who was more than eager to start helping my husband and I start nudging this infertility bs along towards a healthy rainbow baby. Most current semenalysis showed my husband's count and motility etc are fantastic! Left the appt feeling so much relief. For if we could get pregnant at our unhealthiest, how much more at our healthiest?! All of our parts are normal and working but my ovulation is still hard for me to track.
So last week we began with our first Femara cycle (I had terrible side effects). 5mg cd 3-7. Possible false pos OPK on day 10, but BD'd every other day and then on cd 13 came in for an u/s and saw one good folliclle. That night performed an hcg trigger shot and BD'd that day, the day after and the morning after as instructed. Now, just waiting. And hoping. Trying to restrain myself from using a left over hpt just to see the false BFP that will pop up due to the hcg. My OPKs were immediately all pos after the trigger shot. We will see what lays ahead of us in 10 days.
Psychologically, this has taken a toll on me. Especially as I have watched my loved ones get pregnant and move on to their 2nd, and 3rd, even 4th pregnancies. I remain hopeful. I have to give this all I have so in the end, if things don't pan out in our favor, I can say, "I really tried...I did all I could do." I won't give up, but that's my story so far. Good luck to all of you ttc...<3
A few months ago, we found out that we're expecting our second baby. We were completely shocked as we were told we wouldn't be able to conceive without help and I was on birth control when I got pregnant. Our next baby is due December 2015. We find out in less than a month if its a boy or girl!
That is my story that is still being written. . Hold in there ladies
I tried 3 iuis with injectables (gonal f) all bfn. Moved on to IVF and FET. I used gonal f, menopur, and cetrotide with a lupron trigger. I had 37 eggs retrieved and 29 were mature. 27 fertilized and 13 were frozen. I put 1 back on Wednesday and am in my tww. I've never seen a positive test but I'm trying to stay positive and hopeful.
Wishing you ladies all the luck in the world. Thanks for opening this forum for us to talk.
Here's our little one!
Me 39 DH44
1st DE FET 5/16-BFN
2nd DE FET 7/18-BFP
8/17 Baby HR 140/min EDD 4/6/17
DS b. 7/4/2011 via c/s
TTC #2 since 1/2015
8/2015 - "unexplained IF", started Levothyroxine
9/27/15 - IUI #1 (unmedicated) - BFN
10/26/15 - IUI #2 (100mg Clomid + Ovidrel) - BFN
11/21/15 - IUI #3 (100mg Clomid + Ovidrel) - BFN
12/18/15 - IUI #4 (100mg Clomid + Ovidrel) - BFN
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
I would love to know what happens as to I am going thru the same! Good luck!!
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
*** Pregnancy & Miscarriage Mentioned***
ME: 34/DH: 33
TTC (On & Off) Since 2008
Diagnosed DOR August 2013
2009-2013 6 Clomid Rounds which resulted in 3 Cysts/Had to take some time off from TTC
10/2014 ~ BFP (Natural Pregnancy) after 3 months Acupuncture/Miscarriage at 10 wks
7/2015 ~ Med Protocol#1: Failed Cycle/Only 1 Egg/Unable to convert to IUI because thin uterus lining
08/2015 ~ Med Protocol #2: Started stims 09/13
ER 10/9 with 6 Eggs Retrieved/3 SNOWFLAKES!!
10/22/15 ~ AF Showed up, waiting for Fibroid removal.
10/28/15 ~ Saline Ultrasound - Fibroids were gone. FET scheduled for December 3rd!
12/08/15 ~ FET of one hatching Embaby
12/21/15 ~ 13dp5dfet Beta 755! I'M PREGNANT!!!/ 12/23/15 ~15dp5dfet Beta 1539!
01/05/16 ~ 1st Ultrasound - 2 little beans and 2 Heartbeats (120 & 125 bpm)
My Fur Baby: Diva Celeste McClendon
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Hi all! Let's see.. my story..
My husband and were married 6/12/2011. Neither of us wanted kids. When we dated and for most of our engagement we lived an hour away from each other, we only saw each other on weekends and sometimes it was just every other weekend. So obviously when we got married and were living together we just wanted to enjoy our time with each other. Skip forward a couple years. October of 2013 DH asked me if I (and please don't take offense to this, he was just being silly) "decided you wanted to poop a baby out or adopt?" Clearly his way of asking if I was ready to start a family. It's funny because once I found out if I passed the last section of the CPA exam (I did!) I was going to ask him if he was ready. We talked about it and decided to start trying in January. We have been TTC since January of 2014 with no luck.
Come may I still had not seen AF. I called my gynecologist office and got an appointment with an OBGYN there. They did a little blood work and then started me on clomid. They didn't do any sort of check ups while I was on it, aside from blood work two weeks after to see if I ovulated. I didn't ovulate at all. The OBGYN recommended I see a fertility specialist, the people they recommended didn't take my insurance so I had to search around for someone. Finally in September I had an appointment to go see someone. He did an ultrasound and things looked fine. We scheduled an HSG and an MRI. I had both done and things were good. Both my primary care physician and my RE told me that I was underweight (I am 5'2" and weighed 102 at the time). They told me to gain at least 8 pounds and work out less, so that's what I started to do.
We decided to wait on treatment until I switched insurance to a plan that covered more fertility issues. In January I got new insurance and in March we went to a new RE, who is highly recommended in our area. DH had another SA and everything was good. We both had blood work done to check for diseases and other stuff. We found out my iron was very low and my vitamin D was off too, I was anemic. I had to see my primary physician who referred me to a hematologist when my iron level came back at 4% (should be at least 15%). I went an saw the hematologist who would order blood work. In May my iron level was up to 12%. I was taking iron three times a day. I had to have an endoscopy and a colonoscopy to make sure everything was okay. It was. In the beginning of June all my levels were back to normal, I'm not longer anemic.
Come March I had a day and a half of spotting. I thought I just had a cyst burst or something. April I got a period, May I got a period, June I got a period, July I got a period. I think I might be getting semi-normal cycles back! This next cycle we start treatment with Menopur, Ovidrel, and then an IUI. I don't count on it working the first time, but I do hope that we have success with IUI. And that's my story. Sorry this is like a book!
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!littlebeesh - I am keeping my fx for you. What a long, hard journey. I hope you get your BFP soon!
Knottie52312670 - I'm so sorry for the loss. I pray the treatment works and you get your BFP soon. Trying to get pregnant and not being able to is terrible, I can't imagine how much worse it is when you do get pregnant and then lose it.
jcsdigitalbaybee - I so hope this is the one for you! Keep us updated! Also, I can't tell how old this post is.. so maybe the tww is already up. In that case, how did it turn out?!
ShayLatrice - Fx for you!! Good luck.
KaramelKay - I got goosebumps reading your story. Congratulations on your little miracle. I hope the rest of us get our long awaited BFPs soon!
Me: 31
DH: 29, SA - Great
Married: June 12,2011
TTC #1: 1/2014
Diagnosis: Hypothalamic Amenorrhea
Treatment: Clomid: 50mg, 100mg, 150mg - not successful and not monitored
Menopur 75ml (upped to 112.5ml), Ovidrel, & IUI IUI #1 8/31/2015
9/15/2015: BFP HCG - 400, 9/17/2015: HCG - 827, 9/21/2015 - HCG 3,327!