Having a hard time coping

amandaluv5

my papa has always been the person I went to when I felt like this but he passed away a month and a half ago.. Right now he would be telling me to keep my head up to stay positive everything happens for a reason but I'm trying to cope here and it's hard.. My son passed away while I was in labor.. I got to hold him and take pictures and I remember him everyday but mentally idk if I'm ready.. He will be 4 years old this year the fact that I still talk about him as if he is here idk if that's normal.. Idk if I'm mentally ready to be a mom to a newborn.. I have 3 older child 8, soon 7 and 5 1/2.. When my son 1st died I couldn't hold a baby I felt guilty it took me a year before I could hold a baby 3 years to go see any of my friends in the hospital after having their babies.. Now I'm pregnant and I feel guilty.. Idk

lilp2015

So sorry for your loss. Have you thought about maybe seeing a therapist?

amandaluv5

I've been in and out of therapy for years now

PlainJane8350

I had a missed miscarriage, but here's my email if you ever want to talk: plainjane19792001@gmail.com. I have a friend from college who I email back and forth with, and it really helps me. I'm so sorry that happened to you, I can't even imagine how you feel. Don't be hard on yourself for any feelings that you have now. We all just do the best we can! My aunt tells me all the time that we have P.T.S.D. from our experiences, so please don't feel guilty. ❤

MyRainbow

My second child, Nathan died at two days old due to a heart defect. I am now 36 weeks 5 days pregnant with my rainbow and I becoming more and more stressed each day for his arrival. I know how you feel, I decided to try again and am so excited to meet my little rainbow but also feel very guilty like people think because I'm having another baby it erases my loss. It doesn't they are two different babies and I still miss my son everyday. Don't feel bad that you talk about him, it is very normal!!! He will always be your son and It makes me feel good to talk about my son! It doesn't matter how other people feel he is apart of your family always! Stay strong!