Conflicted about TTC

lizerspitz

I was very happy to be pregnant, but after my loss, I've gone up and down with the positives and negatives of not being pregnant.  I want to get more professional development and since my energy has returned, I'm thinking more seriously about big travel plans and opportunities.  I feel like I am betraying my pregnancy in a way. I am nervously awaiting my first blood results post mc to hear if I will have to do anything to complete my mc and if we can try again after my next cycle, but I'm also not sure if I want to actively try again or just let what happens happen.  It took us 9 months to get pregnant the first time, but there is absolutely no guarantee that it will take us that amount of time again.  

I will adjust to this eventually.  Looking for similar conflicted feelings and support. What are you doing to get ready to try again? I feel like I am on a roller coaster of what I want.

MamaBish

I am terrified to try again but I also feel like I should do it as soon as medically safe just to get it over with. Plus, I'm not getting any younger. It's a very hard decision.

bntfroggie

I too am scared to get on the roller coaster again not knowing what is ahead of me. But then I think what if what is ahead of you is the life you had wanted and you had shut the door because you were scared. We are going to be more relaxed about trying this time around. We also have a big trip to Poland (husband's native country)planned this summer that we bailed on because I was pregnant and are now deciding on going because im not.

Wow I think I just rambled a whole bunch. I hope it helped.

cchenal07

I feel the same. We planned for years when we would get pregnant and in just two months we were. As soon as we lost the baby my husband started talking about trying again. I just had my period so medically we had the all clear from the doctor. However I decided I wanted to do a weight loss challenge first and enjoy some layed back summer adventures first. We will revisit the topic in a month. I think everyday my mind changes.

lizerspitz

A month has passed (wow!) and I think I just want to NTNP, being open to what happens.  My husband and I are on the same page, though he is leaning more towards trying (without learning too much about fertility windows). I got my AF last weekend and just want to live life.  I've got some commitments I am making to my career that keep holding me back from full on tracking my ovulation time, but my priority has always been family and I want to grow my family. It is amazing  how many different opinions I can have about this.