I know I should be enjoying my pregnancy and all that but I miss my body ive gained 20 pounds already iam at 19 weeks and my boobs are huge nothing is fitting and I feel fat more then anything

I have two kids already and I was at 236 pounds after I had them and for the past 3 years I finaly was at a happy spot with my body I had got down to 136 and I loved that weight iam just scared of completly lossing everything I have work for any was just wanted to vent and c if anyone was in same boat as me ?
Re: missing my body
I can't fit into ANY of my clothes, my fave jeans, I can't even get over my thighs! My comfy vest tops are tight as hell, my boobs spill out all over the place to the point were I look indecent ha, plus it's too tight on my growing bump.
This is my second, so I'm hoping it will fall off like it did last time, I was back in my normal jeans within days of having our son, however I'm 37 now so my body metabolism will have prob slowed down.
Might have to hit the gym this time round lol.
Don't worry, you'll get your body back, its just temporarily being shared at the moment with your new little life growing inside you :-)
Edited: I didn't like the first part of my post.
Here here!! Me too!