Honest

toriebear12

I just want to see how anyone else feels
I loved having time to myself.
I loved being able to get dolled up,
And hang out with friends or go on dates, I loved having alone time in my room with music and books.
But it's all changed due to my beautiful baby girl.
I forgot what it's like to have privacy, being a mom takes So much out of you. You've gotta make sure your child is taken care of 24/7! You've got pee pee diapers, you've got poopy diapers, you've got massive explosion poopy diapers. You've got breast feeding, and or formula feeding making bottles just the right temperature. Can't make it to hot but it can't be room temperature. It can but warm milk may help sooth your child. You have doctor appointments, baths, play dates, sometimes you get so over whelmed!! But when you sit there and just hold your sweet baby as they sleep or have them learning to crawl, or take their first step, say their first word, you realize that it is so worth it! I never knew how much being a new mom would change me I thought oh it will be easy with the help of my family and friends!! But you don't realize all those "friends" may not be there once you give birth! I have 4 true friends not including my wonderful other half. But those "friends" go away after the 9 months are over if not sooner they say "oh I can't wait to meet your little bundle of joy" or "I'm so excited for you". But you soon realize that they don't care, they stop making time for you or they just completely drop you. I'm just speaking from my experience maybe yours is different. Friendship has nothing on family the ones who are blood and have stuck with you through the morning sickness, the oh so embarrassing peeing on ourself because the baby is on our bladder. The mom brain, the I have cravings I want ice cream but once you get it you don't want it. Let's face it family has your back through everything! I can't say how thankful I am to my mom (Keri F) and my dad (Jim F) for all the love and support any parents can give! And my family who has helped me when I needed it! Especially when dealing with postpartum depression. It was awful I just didn't do anything for myself anymore. I kept taking care of my daughter and got upset when she was upset and I couldn't figure out why. Postpartum stinks I can tell you the but it is beatable! I beat it because of the help and support my friends and family gave me!
I know one day I will be able to have my time and have privacy again but right now, where I am with my child I would NOT change it one bit! She's trying to learn how to crawl I know I'll have my hands full! She's also trying to talk but can only get ba ba ba ba out or she spits with her lips and hums! It is so nice watching your child grow up and making sure they're taken care of! If I could go back in time from the time she was conceived I promise you I would do everything the exact same! I am where I'm meant to be and that is to be a mother of a beautiful 6 month old baby girl!