Second time moms, help?

alienspaceprincess

My boyfriend and I found out we're expecting our first child with each other, we each have a son from previous relationships. With my first I was head over heels in love with my child the moment I found out I was pregnant. I told all our friends and family, I couldn't wait to have a child. He's now four, and we've been through a lot together. His father passed a week after his first birthday, so up until 2 years ago it was just him and I. He's my best friend, I can't even send him to his dad's family for the weekend without feeling horribly sad that he's not with me. I love him with all of my heart and I know I couldn't love anyone as much as him. Yet that's the problem.

I'm 7w4d pregnant with my second child, yet all I feel is indifference and fear. Yes, I'm excited and happy too, but not like I was with my son. I don't feel as great of a connection this time around, and I don't know why. I love my SO, and all I've dreamt of is having a family together, but now that is happening I kind of just feel nothing. I'm sort of afraid I won't love the baby as much as my son, which makes me feel terrible...I haven't even told anyone I'm pregnant yet because of these feelings..

Any other moms go through this with your second child? Did you get over it? Or am I just horrible?

I know I'll love this baby, because I already do, but I'm afraid I'll love them differently and be more connected to my son than the baby...

CatsAreShady

Short answer: it's normal to feel this way. And you will be surprised at how much you love your next kid. The heart has an infinite amount of love to give for your kids, there's no limit. When the baby gets here, you'll get it.