TTC after 35

intro (Loss mentioned)

I've been looking at this board here and there for a awhile so I guess I better introduce myself.

Hubby and I have been TTC for 2 and 1/2 years now.  I am 35 and he is 38.   Prior to TTC I was on birth control and when I got off them I noticed that my periods were not normal.  At first I thought it was just my body getting use to being off the pill.   After 6 months of an irregular cycle, I went to my OBGYN for a check up.  After lots of bloodwork and an ultrasound, she diagnosed me as having PCOS.   No one ever anticipates having PCOS, but it was still a shock to hear those words and face the daunting reality of infertility.  I tried one round of clomid to see if that would work, but to no avail.   She recommended I go and see a RE.  

I've been seeing my RE for a little over a year now.  She also tested hubby and he is fine so my issues is only the PCOS.   Back in September She had be take a double dose of Letrozole to get me to ovulate.  It actually worked - I got pregnant.  My husband and I were thrilled.  We immediately told our whole family and close friends the good news.  My RE had be come in for a 7 week ultrasound to make sure everything was ok before releasing me back to my OBGYN.  When looking at the ultrasound she saw no growth from the 5 week one and the heartbeat was barely noticeable.  She told me the words I thought I would never hear: The pregnancy will most likely not continue.  My world came crashing down.  My husband was not there with me, I was all alone.  I cried for days.  I miscarried naturally a few days later and was just numb from it all.  

In January I turned 35 so here I am still TTC.  My RE had me do another HSG test to make sure everything was OK after the miscarriage.  Now I am waiting on another cycle which means I wait until I am late, then go in for more bloodwork, take medication, then I can have a period.  Once I finally get a period I can finally take another round of Letrozole.  This time she is having me take a triple dose of it.  As luck would have it thought, my husband recently found out that he is going to have to travel to Canada for the next three weeks for work.  Of course this would happen right when it is baby making time!  

I am trying to be patient with all of this and relying on God's timing, but it is so hard.  I pray everyday for God to bless me with a child.  This journey has been difficult as I work with children everyday.  I love on them as if they were my own, but my heart is empty and longs for one of my own.  The most difficult part of my job is seeing parents who can easily get pregnant and think nothing of it or parents who don't realize the gift they have in their child.  I find myself angry and questing "why them?"  Why does someone like me who loves children has a difficult time getting pregnant and others who don't have an easier time getting pregnant.  I know I am preaching to the choir here with this one, but it is an everyday struggle.  

Anyway, I look forward to leaning on the ladies of this board for support and advice.  Thank you!   
Me - 35   Hubby - 38 
Married 10/2007 
Baby girl - 2/6/16 




Re: intro (Loss mentioned)

  • welcome! while i hope your stay here is short (I mean that in the nicest way) while you are here everyone here is amazing and all ears. I absolutely empathize with how you feel. this can be a tough journey. but you can find great support here!
  • I'm so sorry for your loss and difficult journey. You are welcome here! There are lots of awesome people with different experiences and lots of support. Sorry DH will be traveling- hopefully that works out ok.
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  • Welcome and good luck.

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    DD born 8/96, DS born 8/04

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    NTNP since 2006, active trying 1/13

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  • So sorry for your loss.. Welcome and good luck
    Me: 40  
    TTC #1: 3 years
    Me: Type II Diabetic
    Started with RE 11/2014
    Going through IUI with Donor Sperm


  • I'm sorry for your loss @FLsquirrel80 . I hope things work out for you. Don't lose hope.



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    Me: 35  DH: 33
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    Me: PCOS
    DH: MFI (low count, motility, morphology)
    Started with RE 10/14
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  • I'm very sorry for your loss.  Welcome to the board and good luck.  

    When you say double and triple doses of Letrozole, I'm confused.  What dose are you taking?  Just wanted to see if I have any basis for comparison with the dosing I took.  :)
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
  • I am very sorry for your loss. It just isn't fair and I don't know why anyone has to go through it. We've all felt the way you're feeling. I hope the next try will work for you!
    Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
  • Welcome! I also had a m/c in oct which was heartbreaking. My dh was not there and I ended up driving myself home from the hospital in rush hour in terrible ( physical & emo ) pain. I felt very alone. I hope talking here helps you feel less so . I'm sure you heard like I did that the small silver lining is knowing you can get pregnant and so your chances are good to get it again. But the wait is so frustrating . I especially hate the resentment I feel sometimes bubbling up for pregnant women/moms who are oblivious to the struggle. I am glad you had the courage to mention those feelings. Good luck and much peace to you!
  • Sorry for the confusion!  I can't remember the mg amount that I will be taking, but I remember last time having to day 2 pills once a day.  I think the pharmacy would give me the lowest mg dose and then have me take more than one pill based on what RE prescribes.  
    Me - 35   Hubby - 38 
    Married 10/2007 
    Baby girl - 2/6/16 




  • That was what I was thinking. You probably were taking 5mg then and will up to 7.5mg (3 pills). Just clarifying. I had an ok response to 7.5 mg of letrozole after no response to 5 mg, so I hope it works for you!
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
  • i am so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board - this is a great place for support. 
    Me (42) w/ partner for 16+ years
    TTC #1: 11/2012 - 9/2013; 6/2014 - present
    Follistim + TI (3x): All BFNs
    Follistim + IUI (1x): BFN 
    IVF #1: 17 retrieved,15 fertilized, Day 3: 15, Day 5/6: 3 biopsied
    Result; 1 frozen blast (inconclusive PGS results)
    IVF #2; ER: 6/22 16 retrieved, 6/25: 5 transferred (CP), 2 frozen
    FET 9/17: BFN
    Current FET -- Transferred 2 day-3 embryos - BFN

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