I have a few different questions... first how can I tell if my son has reflux? Second, what do I do if he does have it? he's 6weeks old today & I've been feeding him 4oz @each feeding (every 3 or so hours) cause that's what he's been taking since he's been 2weeks old. But lately he hasn't been taking the entire bottle, then he's spitting up when he does take the whole thing. (he doesn't spit up every feeding, only a couple times/day & it's usually before or after he burps, not when he burps) So I've dropped down to 3oz just today, haven't started yet. I'm hoping that's the problem& it's not reflux.
Lastly & mainly, I recently ended up getting postpartum depression. I was fine his first month of life, but once he reached a month, it just came outta no where & hit pretty hard. I'm seriously struggling & feel so alone. I've talked to my doctor, they've upped my depression medication (I've struggled w/ depression my whole life so I'm already on medicine) but they just did that like 4 days ago, so of course It hasn't gotten better & wont for about another month. I feel like I'm alone, not that no one else hasn't felt this cause I know moms feel this way all over the world, but I'm physically alone in the struggle cause my man has no idea how I feel & thinks the thoughts I have are ridiculous & I feel ridiculous saying my feelings out loud so I don't feel comfortable talking to my mom or grandmother. I've reached out to my one friend that's a mother of 4, she said what anyone would say & it helped until we stopped talking & I got back into my thought process.
I look around & realize I've been stuck in my house for over a month, taking care of a baby all day. Even after my man gets home, I still have to help him with our son. but when my man feeds him, lays him down to sleep or sits with him or does ANYTHING with him for that matter, our son doesn't act up, doesn't fuss, doesn't give him a hard time at all. I feel like my son doesn't like me & doesn't want to be around me. he use to cuddle with me but wont anymore unless it's time to sleep. I feel like I'm not good enough to be his mother because of what I just mentioned PLUS the fact that I was unable to breastfeed. I know it sounds dumb, but I'm sure every mother wants the BEST for their child.. and I know breast milk is THE BEST I could give him. But my body just didn't really produce it. I mean, I still pump & give him what I can get, but it's literally just a few drops. I had an infected C-section incision so my body wasn't hydrated. (That also helped me gain the depression cause I'm seriously upset with the way my body looks now) My body just couldn't produce enough & I feel like I'm not good enough for my son. He deserves better & I couldn't give it to him. I just don't know how to handle all these feelings: I hate my body now, I feel like an inadequate mother, I feel like my son hates me & that I'm just so alone; physically (with no friends or a life outside of this house) & mentally. How can I handle these feelings without making myself feel worse & if you've experienced anything like this plz tell me how you were able to get through it, any advice helps! Please help me
Re: postpartum depression struggle...plz help