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Leaving you (loss mentioned)

GuennieGuennie member
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Thank you everyone for your very kind words and support. My ultrasound today showed that I lost my baby last night. I have to have a D and C in the morning because I didn't pass everything.

I'm done. I can't ever go through this again. My heart is broken again. I'm going to be thankful for my one miracle and try to work through this grief. I'm permanently saying goodbye to any thought of giving her a sibling. I don't know why life had to put me through this again.

I wish you all the very best. xoxo
Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
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    BostonchelleBostonchelle member
    So sorry you are going through this.
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    MCH77MCH77 member
    ((Hugs)) please be kind to yourself

    BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010

    BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011

    BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013

    BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy.  Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)    

                                  <3 We love and miss you Timothy <3

    BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014

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    Lady2010Lady2010 member
    I am so incredibly sorry to hear this. Sending you hugs during this difficult time. Will be thinking of you.
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    Me:37 DH:39
    TTC#1 since 3/2012

    Diagnosis : Unexplained Infertility

    3 BFN rounds Clomid + IUI
    IVF 1 - BFN, 1 Frozen
    IVF 2 - BFN, 5 Frozen
    FET 1 - BFP!!! EDD 1/24/15 Beta 1: 700, Beta 2: 2,156; 1st U/S 6w3d: HB 118bpm, 2nd U/S 9w3d: HB 171bpm

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    anonymousmotleyanonymousmotley member
    Awww...I am sooo, sooo sorry!  Take care of yourself! ...hugs...
    1/1997 - DS
    9/1998 - Ectopic :: 4/2001 - M/C :: 8/2006 - Ectopic :: 4/2007 - M/C :: 8/2008 - Ectopic
    4/2010 - DD
    4/2012 - M/C
    6/2014 - Surprise Pregnancy at 42 yrs old! EDD 2/16/2015
    6/9 +HPT :: 6/10 hCG 383 :: 6/12 hCG 1190 :: 6/17 hCG 8224, Prog 26.4
    6/24 U/S #1 showing 6w2d CRL .43cm w/HB! :: 7/7 U/S #2 CRL 1.73cm w/strong HB!!
    7/31 NT Scan U/S #3 CRL 49mm, HB160 | MaterniT21 - Negative!!     TEAM PINK
    9/2 - AFP Panel - Negative | U/S #4 HB150
    10/1 Anatomy U/S #5 | HB 134 | CPCs found, Trisomy 18 ruled out w/Mat21 on 7/31 | all other development normal!
    11/24 - Glucose was normal at 94
    12/23 - BPP U/S #6 HB 138 :: 12/30 - BPP U/S #7 HB 159 :: 1/5 - BPP U/S #8 HB 154
    1/12 BPP/Growth U/S #9 HB 129, weighs 5lb 12oz already w/ 4 weeks to go!!
    1/20 BPP/Growth U/S#10 HB 155, weight 6lb 9oz :: 1/26 BPP U/S#11 HB153 :: 2/2 BPP U/S #12 HB 137 :: 2/9 BPP U/S #13 HB 150
    :::::::::: 2/12 - INDUCTION DAY!! ::::::::::
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    mum2lanabellizmum2lanabelliz member
    So very sorry to hear this. Thinking of you.
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    jjshrevejjshreve member
    I can't imagine your pain...please take care of yourself and ask for help if needed. I'll be thinking of you. *hugs*
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    AASykesAASykes member
    Hugs. Take care dear
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    NeonNoonNeonNoon member
    I'm very sorry about your loss. *hugs* 
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    KateLouiseKateLouise member
    I'm so sorry Guennie. My thoughts, prayers and hugs are with you as you work through this.


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    URMySunshine77URMySunshine77 member
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    So much love to you. I'm so sorry that you had to experience this heartbreak. 

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    supersarah77supersarah77 member
    No, my heart breaks for you. Sending you light and love and strength as you trudge through this indescibable loss. My most sincere condolences.
    Me: 38, DH: 35
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    superlowamhsuperlowamh member
    Read it in the middle of the night and cried. Can'f find words..... I am so very sorry...
    Me: 41; DH: 49
    Married in 2010. 
    Laparoscopy for endometriosis - July 2010.
    BFP#1: Jan 2011; MMC March 2011
    BFP#2: Nov 2011; Blighted Ovum December 2011
    Diagnosed with high FSH and DOR - January 2012
    BFP#3: (Gonal-F, Trigger + TI) - May 2012; DD born Jan 2013 (c-section because of partial placental abruption)

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    December 2013: FSH 27, AMH < 0.03
    A few medicated TI cycles in 2014.
    BFP#4: (Gonal-F, Trigger +TI) - Nov 2014; DS born July 2015

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    marijaa333marijaa333 member
    So, so sorry for your loss. Try to take things one day at a time and get some rest and time for yourself. Big hugs.
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    niknak1208niknak1208 member
    I am so so sorry.  :( I know the pain you're feeling and it's awful.  Be kind to yourself and let your daughter give you strength.  When we lost our baby girl in 2011.. I swear my son saved my life. He gave me a reason to be strong and to smile. He helped me through more than anything else did.  Lots of prayers and hugs to you and your family.  
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    Regan1976Regan1976 member
    (hugs)
    *bfp mentioned*
    Me: 38. Diagnosed PCOs 09, took 'em long enough. Low Thyroid 13.
    SO: 41. Diabetic. We are not married yet in the legal sense. 
    Together since Feb 09. TTC since Jan 11.
    6 Clomid cycles. Mostly BFN one BFP but chemical Aug 12.
    IUI #1-3 Menopur and Ovidrel BFN. 
    IUI #4 Gonal-F and Ovidrel BFN.
    IUI #5 Gonal-F and Ovidrel BFP 9/15 
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    jerseygirl227jerseygirl227 member
    Oh, Guennie.  I cried when I read this this morning.   I am so very sorry for your loss.  I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  So very, very sorry.
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    NicoleWINicoleWI member
    I'm so very sorry! I was really pulling for you. It seemed meant to be. I'm so sorry.
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    mindaamindaa member
    There are no words... so sorry
    Me-37, DH-38
    Married in 2006, TTC #1 since Jan 2012

    Baby Boy born June 1, 2015

    He settles her in her home as a happy mother of children, praise the Lord! (Psalms 113:9)
    And the peace of God, which surpasses all understand, will guard your heart and mind in Jesus Christ (Philippians 4:7)

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    happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member
    I am so sorry for you loss.
    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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    sidey1sidey1 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss, big hugs to you and your family..

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    Me 43 DH 48 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test.  *5th cycle after loss 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
    ** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy born 5/6/2013!

    TTC #2, bpf 1/15/15 Baby Girl due Oct 1! She's here, 9/26/2015! 

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    GASuzukiGASuzuki member
    @Guennie I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Hold you DD close and love her; she will help you through this. Thank you for being such a kind friend to me on our online community. Take care.

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    BeckyP005BeckyP005 member
    Sending many hugs your way. I am so very sorry :(

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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    cneidingcneiding member
    I am very sorry.  I felt very similar to how you are feeling when I had a miscarriage after my 2nd child.  I was sort of ignorant then and never imagined I could ever have a miscarriage.  When I did it completely crushed me.  I blamed myself.  I hated myself for a long time.  I swore up and down I would never get pregnant again because I didn't want to go through a possible loss.   And to be honest I wanted to punish myself for losing that baby.  A few months went by and I was able to admit to myself I really really wanted another child and I figured that once I had a baby in my arms it would make the road, no matter how rough, to get there all worth it.  And I was right too.  So take some time and let yourself grieve your loss for a while.  Then keep yourself open to changing your mind.  I am so glad I did
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    tlc35tlc35 member
    I'm so sorry.  This makes me angry at the universe.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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    GuennieGuennie member
    Thank you, you are all so kind. I know it's going to take some time to work through this. I am holding my daughter extra close. I've had a lot of tears, I don't understand why I had to go through this again. I will never have any answers.

    I truly wish you all the best and I hope you will come join us in Parenting 35 when your little ones arrive. Take good care of yourselves.
    Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
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    MySallyGirlMySallyGirl member
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  Take care of yourself.
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    mattandloramattandlora member
    I'm so terribly sorry to hear about this. I've lost 2 and couldn't imagine doing it again. Sending hugs your way.

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    Current Age 35, DH 33

    Married 9/2011

    BFP 8/2012, Miscarried 9/2012

    BFP 9/2012, DS 6/2013

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    OnWayto3OnWayto3 member
    While none of us can say why this has happened (let alone, again), I can sincerely say that I empathize and wish you the best-- whatever your decisions are in the future.

    Hugs!
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    ewennerewenner member
    I am so sorry to hear this.  Take care of yourself, and I hope that you and your family find some peace.  
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    jessyluscious77jessyluscious77 member
    So sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Take gentle care of yourself.
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    wtbratcherwtbratcher member
    My condolences; thoughts and prayers for you and your family. 
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    nyc2015nyc2015 member
    I am so very, very sorry for your loss.  Really there are no words.  I had a miscarriage 3 years ago at 40.  I know what you mean by not going through it again. Please take good care of yourself and know prayers and healing wishes are with you.   You will get through this. 
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