Yesterday, I did not get lunch or dinner. My stomach rebelled at about 11:30 last night, after having gotten everyone fed and put to bed, DH included, I was starving. And so, I ate two slices of apple pie for dinner. That's not where it ends though. I ate them without a fork, or even a plate... Over the dogs food bowl. Because God forbid I burn those extra calories bending over to pick up my mess... Yeah, not a proud moment.
I have been totally obsessed with Lunchables lately for no apparent reason, some days eating more than one. At first I thought people would think I was weird for loading up my cart with them at the grocery store, but then I realized that I don't care... also they probably assume I'm buying them for my kids
My mom & I witnessed my niece's first steps. We didn't want to tell my sister because we wanted her to enjoy all the firsts... she ended up finding out though because we were asked point blank if she had taken any steps before. Sad sigh.
My confession: I can't stand our child care arrangement. I promised I'd try it. I hate it. I'm waiting for the day to change it ... but it's only been two weeks. Ugh. Maybe it'll get better...
I know a certain level of anxiety & depression is normal during the transition back to work, but I feel like maybe I've pushed this beyond the limits of normal... so maybe I'd feel this way in any situation? I'm just not sure. I really should make another appointment with my doctor. I've just been waiting until my regularly scheduled follow up to talk with her about it, but that's still a month away.
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Thanks for asking & for the support! I'll keep y'all posted.
@NunyaBennis I'm so sorry you're dealing with that. Going back to work is hard enough. You don't need that added stress. Do they HAVE to stay over? I don't think you're strange at all for feeling anxiety over that. I would feel the same way.
I think it's pretty common to feel like a stranger in your house when il's are there. I also think it's more of a woman thing on this. If my ILs were here, I'd be on eggshells (for no good reason really).
My parents are here a lot and my mom will be doing some overnights and dh could care less.
It's like I feel the need to entertain, my parents included, but dh will just go about his business as usual. He will watch tv instead of being in the dining room talking, etc. It takes a lot for me to take a nap or leave to do errands when my help is here with me, dh, not so much.
I think seeing if your appt can be moved up is a good idea, the crying Needs to be addressed. ((Hugs))
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@NunyaBennis - I hope all works out! I didn't see what your arrangement was but if it's making you feel uncomfortable you definitely should address it! Your own comfort levels should take high priority considering you're responsible for your LO and stress never makes that responsibility easier.
My FFFC: my OB moved away so I have my family doc taking care of me and LO. She first saw LO at 10 days old (hasn't seen her since), couldn't get me in for my 6 week pp appt until almost 8 weeks pp, told me that not having gotten my period yet (even though I'm EBF) is very odd and wants me to go on meds to get it soon, and cancelled LO's 2 month vaccination appt on Monday (even tho she's already over 2 months) and pushed it to the very end of January. I know it isn't THAT big of a deal, but I'm so frustrated!!
I'm looking for a new doc, but I'm in Canada and the waiting lists are ridiculously long.
Re: FFFC
My confession: I can't stand our child care arrangement. I promised I'd try it. I hate it. I'm waiting for the day to change it ... but it's only been two weeks. Ugh. Maybe it'll get better...
etd: personal info.
Thanks for asking & for the support! I'll keep y'all posted.
My parents are here a lot and my mom will be doing some overnights and dh could care less.
It's like I feel the need to entertain, my parents included, but dh will just go about his business as usual. He will watch tv instead of being in the dining room talking, etc. It takes a lot for me to take a nap or leave to do errands when my help is here with me, dh, not so much.
I think seeing if your appt can be moved up is a good idea, the crying Needs to be addressed. ((Hugs))
-didn't tag or QFP for anonymous purposes.
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
I hope you can move up the appointment. Maybe ILs don't have to stay over if it makes you feel that way?
My FFFC: my OB moved away so I have my family doc taking care of me and LO. She first saw LO at 10 days old (hasn't seen her since), couldn't get me in for my 6 week pp appt until almost 8 weeks pp, told me that not having gotten my period yet (even though I'm EBF) is very odd and wants me to go on meds to get it soon, and cancelled LO's 2 month vaccination appt on Monday (even tho she's already over 2 months) and pushed it to the very end of January. I know it isn't THAT big of a deal, but I'm so frustrated!!
I'm looking for a new doc, but I'm in Canada and the waiting lists are ridiculously long.