Today marks the day that we would have found out if we were having a boy or a girl... And to top it off I got on Facebook and 10 posts in a row were about people announcing their pregnancies.... I'm happy for them, but I just can't express my happiness towards them. I feel like I'm letting myself forget our baby by getting excited for others.
I just can't stop bawling and I feel like it's not acceptable to be like this after almost three months or that I'll be judged..
Re: Is it okay to have a breakdown?
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Oh, and as someone else said, you don't have to be all gaga over others announcements. There are times in life you have to think about YOU and this is one of them.
Me: 32 DH: 32
BFP #1: 4/1/2010 DS born: 12/3/10
TTC #2 since 5/2014
BFP # 2 : 6/16/14 EDD: 2/25/15 Missed Miscarriage discovered 7/10/14 D&C 7/17/14 Pathology results normal
BFP #3: 10/21/14 EDD: 7/6/15 11/24/14: Saw heartbeat!
TTCAL January 2015 Siggy Challenge: Animals in the snow
W born September 2020
#3 due November 2022
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
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Take it easy. Allow yourself to grieve just don't let it consume you.
Sending lots of big squishy ((hugs))
I had my loss over 5 months ago and some days I still think about it and don't even want to get out of bed. Before I had my ectopic I was in the best shape of my life, woke up everyday dressed to impress for work, was happy and motivated. Now, I am about 20 lbs heavier, miserable most days, get up 10 min before I need to leave and put on the easiest thing that is laying on my dresser. I know that I cant continue to act like this, however I don't feel guilty or embarrassed or judged. Ill be ready to start the healing process when I am ready, not when other people tell me I should.
I also hid a lot of people on FB including family members because I just couldn't handle their pregnancy updates, or their complaining about being a new mom.
Me: 31 DH:28
BFP: July 6 2014. Ectopic discovered at 7 weeks. TTC since February 2014
There's nothing easy about this road. I'm so sorry you're having a rough day. Sending ((hugs))
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
IUI#3 brought us our dragon baby Z
TTCAL January 2015 Siggy Challenge: Animal Snow Interactions
I feel your pain.
our little angel.