***December Angels Check-in 12/29***

mflowers929

This check-in is for all mommas who lost a baby due in the month of December (any year), including any late loss mommies who gave birth and lost their babes in the month of December. 

NEW POSTERS: Welcome. I'm so very sorry you are here, but I do hope you find all the love and support you need.  Tell us a little about yourself, where you are in the TTCAL process, and don't forget to include your EDD or birth date, loss date, sex if you knew it and any names you had chosen.

CURRENT MEMBERS: Let me know of any updates to the information below. I only include personal messages to those ladies who participated last week. If you missed last week, please feel free to let us know what is going on with you.  Please PM me with news of BFPs

 

******Be aware I will only post congratulatory messages to those who PM me******

Please note, if I am unable to make the regular check-in date, I will post the check-in the following day, if possible.

THE LIST:

jbasore1123: 12/17/13 

kistyW13 : 12/12/13 

blackbird818 : 12/10/13 

medic7979 : 12/15/14

Lesliem0901 : 12/07/14

O2Girl : 12/5/14

lyndz333 : 12/6/14

mrsjg2013 : 12/25/14

StephieMK : 12/01/14

MSU_Girl1202 : 12/07/13 , 12/02/14

BluvsE: 12/2014

ZoeyH14 : 12/02/14 Caleb

mflowers929 : 12/19/14

jjbmstinco : 12/29/14

Anselser : 12/30/14

PinkCamino : 12/28/13

@MSU_Girl1202 - any signs of AF yet? Any luck on finding a vacation?

@Medic7979 - I'm sorry for your BFNs. Did AF show her ugly face yet?

@Anselser - How are you doing? I hope Christmas was okay for you.

@O2girl - How's everything going for you?

QOTD (I'm going back to day since we're not checking in every week now) - Are you looking forward to 2015? Any resolutions?

O2girl

Hiya! Ladies!

I'm currently on my ski trip...... We skied day one and since (3 days) H and BIL are sick with the stomach flu, so we have been holed up in our cabin
MH is finally starting to feel better (but it is our last day) so we may go night skiing tonight if he is doing well enough. BIL is in his bedroom and we haven't seen him at all today so hopefully he is still alive

I hope everyone's holiday season is going well. Xoxo to you all!

QOTD:
I'm just happy to say farewell to 2014.....

Nikolie93

Hey ladies! *hugs* to you all

I thought I had joined this already but I must not have.

My short story, I'm 39 and 1/2, I married my current husband 2 years ago on January 4th. We started trying shortly before we got married. I've since been pregnant 3 times with 3 MC's.

My Dec EDD is 12-02-2014

MH and I are currently TTA until we see the RE on Jan 21st. It's a hard wait not knowing if we will forever TTA or TTC again.

Thanks for the check in @mflowers929

MSU_Girl1202

@mflowers929: Hi lady! How were your holidays? Any new sewing / crafting projects?

@O2girl: Yay for ski trip, but I hope YH and BIL get better so you can actually get to ski!

@Nikolie93: Welcome (again) to the sign in! Hopefully the wait goes by quickly for you! Have you written down a list of questions for the RE? It can be pretty overwhelming at first...

AFM, nope, no signs of AF or O...starting to get a little irked since I'm at CD41...
Also, we decided to quit looking for vacation this week and see what happens with the FET in Jan/Feb (depending on when AF decides to show her face). I hate that IVF / FET has so much monetary influence on our vacations...

QOTD: I agree with @O2girl...I'm just ready for 2014 to be over!

Nikolie93

@MSU_Girl1202 I have my questions ready! I had them ready for what I thought was my RE appointment on the 17th but my OB referred me to the wrong type of Dr. I'm so ready to get this 1st RE appointment over with!

mflowers929

@O2girl - boo that you missed so much skiing. Better go check on your BIL!

@Nikolie93 - welcome to the check-in hunny. It's a pretty small group of us right now.

@MSU_Girl1202 - aww, I'm sorry that you're not going away.

AFM... Well, I don't like to be a Debbie downer, but I'm probably not in the best mind space right now. I should probably just start a journal or something because I hate hitting you ladies with it over and over again.

Christmas was hard. Like, really hard. Obviously we weren't going to be seeing any of my family, and my in-laws called to say that their EI (what my FIL gets in the off-season) was late coming in this year, so they wouldn't be able to come down either. The stark difference of what it was (working, no family with us) versus what it could have/should have been (new baby, all of our family around us) was really really hard. And the fact that we've decided to TTA until we figure out what's going on with our lives was just another hit.

A big reason for us deciding to TTC in the first place was to start our own family, so it wouldn't be so hard, particularly for me, to be away from my family. While we were TTC, I had that to look forward to. But now that we're TTA, I'm just struck with a deep longing loneliness, and every now and again it just stops me in my tracks and takes my breath away.

And I hate it. I absolutely hate it.

I know that it's not forever. I know logically that in the future there will be family surrounding me, and happy kids tearing open their Christmas packages - mine or not. I know that I'll be able to look back on this time and see that I was able to grow from it. But right now it just hurts.

Nikolie93

@mflowers929 so many *hugs* to you. I feel the same, I don't want to bombard everyone with my down moments but then I realize that you ladies understand. Never hesitate to talk to us and I'm always a PM away!

I was actually thinking of starting a journal as well but I've been hesitating. I'm not used I want to ever relive what I've been through. Some say it helps though.

mflowers929

@Nikolie93 - I find the point of a journal is to write it down and get it out of your head. I don't recommend re-reading them in the future. I made the mistake of doing that once and started reliving the shit that my ex put me through. Was not a pretty time.

Anselser

Hello ladies, hope you are doing well.

@O2girl I'm sorry that YH and BIL got sick, hopefully you don't get it.

@Nikolie93 I'm sorry you're here with us, but I hope you feel welcome.

@MSU_Girl1202 I'm sorry the vacation didn't work out for now.

mflowers929 I understand a lot of your feelings. I always feel bad because I feel like all of my posts since I joined have been negative. If you ever need to talk I am always willing to listen. Feel free to PM me anytime.

AFM: Christmas was alright, like you said @mflowers929 it was hard dealing with the what it is vs. the what it should have been. My EDD is tomorrow and I am dreading this day as the hours get closer. I have some really insensitive co-workers that I think will make the day even more difficult than it is already going to be. Being happy around the little ones will be difficult and I just hope I can keep it together long enough to make it to lunch and hopefully I can look on the bright side after that and make it home. I think I'm most worried about the like 3 hrs by myself (that is usually when my class is napping and my mind starts to wander.)

QOTD: I'm looking forward very much to 2015 in the idea of putting this year and all that it has held behind me. I'm hoping for a more positive outlook to life in 2015 and that maybe all my medical drama is behind me for now.

mflowers929

Big *hugs* @Anselser‌

I'm sorry @medic7979‌ :-(