Yeah, it's 8dp5dt, and still stark white BFNs. I think I'm going to go ahead and call this.
Honestly, I think my fertility window has just kind of closed. Score one for basement-dwelling misogynists everywhere: I should have made marriage and children a priority when I was young! I could always have built a career later! Biology doesn't care about feminism! I left it too late, and now I'm sorry! Etc! Etc!
However, I still have three tries at IVF covered by insurance, and even though I'm almost positive my eggs are just done, I know I'll be torturing myself forever if I don't use them. So.
I'm not sure about two things: whether to get a second opinion with a new RE, and whether to get right back in the saddle (stirrups) or take a break and try again in April (my current clinic batches IVFs, so I'd be sitting out the February cycle).
About the RE: nothing she's done has raised red flags or given me concern. I've been well-monitored. The IVF protocol she used seems standard for poor responders (or olds. I'm not really a poor responder. Just old.) I've responded to the IUI and IVF protocols pretty much as she predicted I would, and she's made adjustments after each cycle to tailor them to me. Communication is pretty decent.
I'm just wondering because I didn't do any research at all. She's the RE I was referred to, so she obviously took my insurance, and my OB (who I think is very good) thinks very highly of her. So why not? The one thing that does give me pause is that her clinic doesn't post SART data. Do you think it's worth getting another opinion from someone else? Maybe someone who specializes in old ladies?
About the break: I'm in terrible physical health. I weigh the same as I did the week before I delivered my daughter. My clinic doesn't have a BMI requirement, but I'm pretty sure that if they did, they wouldn't have taken me. Being overweight does effect egg quality, so I feel like two months to work on losing weight and making other lifestyle changes (plus just be without the stress of thinking about fertility, making the long drive to the suburbs, and shooting myself up with anything) might be beneficial. I literally haven't just let my body alone since I got pregnant with DD. I jumped right from breastfeeding (and taking all sorts of hormone-altering crap to do it--I had low supply) to taking all kinds of hormone-altering crap to get pregnant. Maybe my body would appreciate a vacation, too...
The con, of course, is that on the off chance I still do have a good egg left, time is of the essence.
Anyway, if you read all the way through this, well done! I'm grateful just for that! Thoughts?
Me: 41, DH: 45 DD, 6/15/2013 TTC #2 beginning January 2014 AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11