Hi Im 7 weeks preggers with fraternal twins. My ICSI twins! I have a 3,5 yo DS and he is my everything. We are so close and life with him has been a breeze. It took forever to concieve him, 9 treatments so I was completely in love with him from day one, when I saw these beautiful BFP. Never a doubt in my mind that my life was going to be a 10000 times better. We wanted to give him a sibling so we had another ICSI, put two embyos up (never thought both would stick) but were totally prepared for twins, kind of wished it would be twins. I was very exited when I found out, for a day or so, then anxiety panic and regret showed up! Suddenly a family of 3 or 4 seems so perfect and a family of 5 seems like a nightmare! I feel like the worst person in the world and the guilt is killing me. I have no connection to the beans in my belly like I had with my son, didnt even enjoy seeing them on the screen during US. What the hell is happening. I was considering abortion because of my regret but that would make me a disgusting person and I would never forgive my self so obviously that is not an option! Did anyone feel less than happy about their pregnancy but ended up thinking they wouldnt want it any other way? Im afraid I wont love them like I love my DS, and that I will always think "I wish there was only one of them". Horrible I know:(. Is this just panic and normal or is this a bad sign? Does anyone really ever regret having children? I am going to see a psycologist tomorrow to see if this might me some kind of prenatal depression (I have suffered from depression amd anxiety on and off since I was a kid) i live in europe, not in my home country though. I have some family around though (in laws and a sister). I get a paid materniry leave for over a year and my DH gets a couple of months. After that all of my children get free childcare (my DS already goes to kindergarden) school is free and my kids will actually get paid to go to highschool when the time comes so I guess I am lucky in many ways. Still I cant help feeling isolated and worried. I am 29 yo and my DH is 32.