Need help. Please

niffanie

i have been with a good man for 10 years and honestly I was already battling depression. We now have 2 kids 3 years and 3 months. Since the first one I have not wanted sex, though I was never sexual to begin with. It got worse with this pregnancy....
He'd send me pictures, he would talk dirty to me in text and God, I shut down every advance he threw at me and I hate myself for that. This is the past 6 months. Don't touch me, don't look at me I'm ugly, I have milk constantly dripping from my chest and my vagina is stretched beyond repair, go find someone else...and then why aren't you touching me, who are you talking to?

He finally snapped, told me its a long time coming and then I realized what I did and omg I'm horrible. I immediately stopped breast feeding due to the increased hormones in my body. I know BF is great but not with this attitude. I started sending him pics, wearing makeup and we had sex for a week straight. Ha then one night he didn't come home til 2:30 and when I called he said I know I'm late, I'm on my way...the first thing that came out of my mouth was ' ha good thought you were cheating on me or something'. And now it's down hill. He took his ring off. He doesn't kiss me. Gropes me sometimes. Had sex once this week and I'm dying for him. He says it's over and I don't know how to fix it....I even started sending pictures to him like he has done me and all I get is, your years too late....

agent79@me.com

Whoa, I'm so sorry. All I can say is get counseling. Nobody here is qualified to give you the right advice....

But if I were a friend, I'd advise you to maybe stay with a parent for a while and take a breather? It helps to have some time alone to think. Though, doing that with two little ones is not possible always. I have a 3 year old and a 1 year old, and PPD, so I understand.

I hope you find some peace, momma. 

mindfulmama14

I'm sorry, Hang in there. Definitely therapy/couseling. In mean time, try meditation... happy thoughts. Come to peace with yourself. I know it's easier said than done.