*update* Life's not fair... Ugly post

ktabs

Oh My goodness I am so sorry. I can't imagine what you are feeling right now. Your family is in my thoughts.

HCAMP123

So sorry to hear this, thoughts and prayers for you and your babies

Steph1673

I'm really sorry to hear this and you are in my thoughts and prayers. 

lib1974

Lots of hugs to you!

BabyKsMommy

I'm so sorry to read this. I hope those babies do stay in for a while longer.

This also happened to me with my twins. My situation was a little different as I was 31w2d. I never did develop an infection and even though his water broke baby A never showed signs of distress. I did continue to leak fluid so I just tried to drink as much water as possible to help refill it.

It sounds like they are doing every thing they can for all of you and I really hope those babies continue to stay put.

AMShark

@BabyKsMommy‌ - thank you for your post. I was just worrying about the fact that the leaking hasn't stopped. You've just eased a little of my worries.

BabyKsMommy

@AMShark‌ if you can't sleep in the hospital I would take benadryl to get some sleep. My first night in the hospital I think I slept for an hour. I didn't want to take it at first but after I did I actually slept.

alpCRNA

This is heartbreaking news.  I truly hope that the plan your doctors put in place keeps you and your little fighters safe.  I will definitely be adding your to my prayers.

rella22

You can add me as well!! I kept checking too to see if there was an update!! Thinking of you always!!

AMShark

Thanks for all of the continued support.  It's nice to know there are so many people pulling for us.  (and that's *on top* of my Catholic parents & MiL, who are probably currently taking the shine off of several sets of rosary beads).

The positives for this morning are that there are still no signs of pain, contractions, or cramping, and no signs of infection.  

Plus, I have my laptop now, and the wifi at the hospital is pretty decent. 

rella22

That all sounds great! Power of prayer! Are the babies constantly monitored? Strong heartbeats?!

jessimi06

That's great news! We'll continue sending T&P your way (DH is too!)!

sweetpotato123

Still sending prayers and thoughts your way. Happy to see your update this am

mdiblasi10

@AMShark so happy to hear that things are looking good! Thank you for updating us. I couldn't stop thinking about you guys either. Continuing to send positive thoughts your way!

PurpleDaisy923

I'm am so sorry this is happening to you. I will be sending good thoughts to you and your babies!!

runawaylaurel

Every day is a victory! Thinking of you. 

carrieharry79

This is such a sad and scary post. I'm so, so sorry you're going through this. My T&Ps are with you.

Justone13

I keep popping over to check up on you. Thinking of you often and praying hard for you!

iheartsippycups2

Praying for you & your babies!

Pintobean39

Sounds like good news so far. I pray you continue having no sign of nothing happening.

Carol77B

I'm praying so hard for you and your babies.

Lady2010

Happy to hear that you were stable this morning.  Sending you positive wishes for no more changes.  HUGS!

BeckyP005

Good update! Thinking positive thoughts! Big huge hugs

ajlmom

Thanks for the update. I already commented yesterday but wanted you to know that lots of us are rooting for you and your LOs! I hope we'll have two miracle healthy babies at the end. Sending lots of T & Ps and ((hugs))

Robeano

Glad to see a positive update, I have spend so much time thinking about you and your precious babies. So many prayers being sent your way!!!!

kristyn831

Many thoughts and prayers for you and the babies. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

Saintelizabeth

In glad to hear the babies are still cooking! I'm continuing to keep you and your LOs in my prayers.

Sunny B

Thinking of you and praying for all of you!

gsancho

I wish I could have a running ticker at the top of The Bump, letting me know any updates on you and your babies.  I come and check several times a day!  Not like you owe us tons of updates or anything - I just keep thinking about you.  Update when you can.  Sometimes I think no news is good news.

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turquoisequeen

Still thinking of you! Stay strong! We are all rooting for you so much!!

rox825

I'm so sorry you're going through this, sending T&P that everything works out and both babies stay put and pull through.

southernyankeegirl

What @gsancho‌ said - you and your babies have been in my thoughts! I hope you have good news when you update. Big hugs!

weansworld09

Count me as another one thinking of you and your little ones frequently! I was telling my DH about you today and we are both sending you good thoughts!

ccam

Praying for you and your babies. I'm so sorry that you're going through this.

AMShark

Things are still stable today. I was discharged from the hospital yesterday - which is standard protocol for PPROM before 23w.  (23w5d is the age of viability - and the truth is, if I start labor before 23w, there is nothing they can do to save the babies.  Medication to stop contraction is widely *not* recommended at this early stage).

While I was at the hospital I received fluids and 3 antibiotics via IV.  I was wearing a contraction monitor for the first day and a half, but as things were looking good, they decided to remove it on Friday afternoon.  The nurses took my temperature and blood pressure frequently (about every 3 hours) to look for signs of infection.  They also checked the babies' heartbeats every 8 hours, and each time they were in range (130s to 155).

Now, I'm home and not exactly on bed rest (I can get up, walk within reason, eat at the kitchen table and shower), but I'm pretty much under house arrest.  I'm on 1 oral antibiotic (clindamycin) that I take every 8 hours (hello, 1:30 am alarm for my 3rd dose).  My main job is to rest and watch for signs of infection or early labor.  If we can make it to 23w, the plan now is to check into the hospital with the higher level NICU, and start on steroids and probably magnesium to develop the lungs and protect the brain.  If I can make it another 2 weeks, I believe I'd get a 2nd dose of steroids.... and so on.

On Tuesday, I have a follow up appointment with my MFM.  I expect I'll have another scan then, to look at the amniotic fluid around each baby.  I feel like the leak has really slowed down - I hope that's more than just my imagination.  I haven't seen anything like the volume of fluid that I lost when I woke up soaked to my knees, early Thursday morning.  I know that the body can generate more amniotic fluid, so I'm hoping to see a good build up of fluid on both babies (though, at this point, it looked as though only baby A was leaking  - We believe baby B's sac is still in tact).  I'll also find out if my MFM will allow me to work from home on Tuesday.  I'm hoping the answer is yes.  I completely have a desk job, where I usually work from home about 3x/month already.  The only reason I can see for saying "no" is the idea that I should avoid stress, but frankly I really, really could use the distraction.  Yesterday morning, I had an ugly run-in with Doc Google, that made me decide to spend the rest of the day off of the internet.  I just don't need that much free time to think about the "what ifs."  Besides, there's a certain amount of stress that comes from walking out of work on a Wednesday night, with the full expectation that you'll be back to work daily for several more months, and then finding out at 4:00 am on Thursday that you will be out for an unknown period of time.
We're stilling trying to plan as if we will be taking 2 babies home - whether that's sooner or later.  My husband went out yesterday, and ordered furniture, 2 car seats and a few other important items (checking first to be sure that all was returnable) - to take advantage of December sales.  (And also, being realistic - there is no scenario - good or bad, where it would even be possible for someone to throw me a baby shower - and if someone did, I would cry through the whole thing - so, we're trying to be hopefully practical - preparing for the best - and staying aware of the worst).

I finally started to feel movement while I was in the hospital, and baby B remains active.  I'm trying not to worry too much about why baby A is so much quieter.  My fear is that he's running out of space to move, which is bad for his development - but baby A did sleep through my A/S a little over a week (or maybe a lifetime) ago, while B was moving too much for the tech to finish measurements... assuming they haven't switched places, maybe its just a difference in personalities. 

That's all for now, I suppose.  I'm just watching my Giants limp through the rest of the season (I could really have used them in the playoffs this year), and watching DH decorate the tree (which he deemed somehow, too strenuous for me) - and watching my cats show me how to lay on the couch like a pro (I should really take these tips - I mean, they seem to be absolute experts at relaxing).

Thanks a hundred times for all of your kind words.  I'll keep posting, as long as there are things to post.

Julie21613

Thanks for the update....Will continue to keep you and your lo's in my prayers.  

RunCC37

AMShark, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your babies. I'm praying for the best possible outcome.

Pintobean39

Thanks for the update, I keep looking to see if you have posted one. I'll continue praying for you and the babies. Try to take care of yourself.

pblge

So grateful for the positive update! (((hugs))) I hope you can still work or do something else to make the time pass. Thinking of you and your babies a lot!