My never ending miscarriage

elsiefaye

Hi, I've been a member of the bump since October but this is my first post. I was a part of the May 2015 moms.

I had spotting and bleeding since I found out I was pregnant sept 12. I had my first ultrasound at 10 weeks and the baby was perfectly fine and healthy. I continued bleeding so I had another ultrasound Nov 12 where we found out my baby had omphalocele but was still growing and had a good heartbeat. I was devastated until my dr and family/friends said to stay positive and surgery could correct this. Two days later I lost the baby. More devastation and the worst heart break I could ever imagine. I had tried for years to have a baby, I was so happy and kept saying I could not believe I was pregnant quickly turned to I can not believe I am no longer pregnant.

Fast forward to today, over two weeks later I am still bleeding so I had another ultrasound where they saw tissue still in my womb so I have to have a D/C tomorrow.

I feel like this is my never ending miscarriage, I hope after this is done I can finally feel a little better.

Thanks for reading my long post.

flyoffeve

I am so sorry for your loss. (Hugs)

I was in the same situation recently. My mc lasted for 28 days of bleeding and I went through the process of mc twice with it. I am glad that they found your retained tissue and are going through with the d/c so that you do not have to go through it longer.

I hope you have a smooth recovery. You should definitely feel a lot better after tissue is gone.

Nikolie93

I am so sorry that it's taking so long *hug* Good luck with the D&C and I hope that it ends quickly for you so you can start to heal. 

EagleWife

I'm so sorry, @elsiefaye

Emren

I am so sorry for your loss! ((Hugs)) The loss of a child is heartbreaking, I am so sorry. Please know that you are loved by this community. I would encourage you to surround yourself with a loving and supportive network over theses next couple of weeks. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. 

((Hugs and Love))

Emren0316 

elsiefaye

Thank you everyone. No matter how many times I had heard you may miscarry still did not prepare me for it. I thought we were "safe" because I was 14 weeks 3 days.

cherish1986

How are you doing today?

bumpuser10605721

Im very sorry for your loss *big hugs*

I had planned on a natural MC and my body was close but after a week still had retained tissue and I had a D&C. I was so emotional by the time the D&C happened, all I could say was "I want it to be over" stay strong and just know it will be over soon and you will get through this.

elsiefaye

Thank you, the D&C did not happen yesterday or today. They said I have to fast again tomorrow and they might do it then. Other emergencies are coming up and bumping me down the line. I'm not sure I can handle another day of fasting but I have no choice.

LittleMrsW

I'm so sorry about your loss. I hope you are able to get in and get your D&C soon. I know the waiting is torture. Sending you ((hugs)).

elsiefaye

Thanks so much. They finally performed the surgery last night. I feel a bit better in a sense but I did not expect to feel so exhausted and emotional today.

Nikolie93

I am glad the surgery went ok *hug*

FitFighter812

I am sorry.  I had 2 MC's and it was the best decision for me to get a D&C right away.  I just wanted it be over and the D&C went very well, very quick and painless.  If I could recommend to anyone going through this, to just get the D&C so you can move on.  I couldn't imagine bleeding for several days.  Plus you can start trying again after 1-2 periods.

Nikolie93

@FitFighter812‌ first, I am very sorry for you losses.

Please be careful when you talk about how soon people can try again. It's important that people ask and listen to their Dr's. Everyone is different and some have to wait longer for different reasons.

staylucky

I'm glad your D&C went well.

mylittlegemini

I am so sorry to hear you are going through this :-( Breaks my heart because I know how devastating it is. Glad to hear your surgery went well. Sending positive vibes your way! XO

IslandDreamin

I am so sorry for your loss.It's good that you got the D&C over with, being stuck in limbo is tough.

Sending you hugs!

mamadeux19

I am so sorry for your loss and emotional rollercoaster. ::HUGS::

CMDD

I am so sorry that this is so drawn out for you. I had to wait a week from when I made the decision to end the (unviable) pregnancy until my procedure, and just that week was so hard for me. I hope that with this next step you begin to find some peace. 

elsiefaye

Thanks so much for all the support. I'm sorry for all of your losses as well. if I had an option I would have chosen a D&C sooner. I live over 2 hours from the nearest hospital and they only offered after two weeks of bleeding. They did tell me to wait 2-3 periods before trying again. I'm completely terrified to even think about that.

Nikolie93

I am sorry you didn't have that option.  

I can understand being terrified to try again. Ladies on here often say that they know they are ready when wanting a child outweighs the fear. Give yourself time to heal mentally and be kind to yourself *hug*

CMDD

elsiefaye said:

Thanks so much for all the support. I'm sorry for all of your losses as well. if I had an option I would have chosen a D&C sooner. I live over 2 hours from the nearest hospital and they only offered after two weeks of bleeding. They did tell me to wait 2-3 periods before trying again. I'm completely terrified to even think about that.

This may sound silly, and hopefully doesnt hurt anyones feelings...but I keep thinking that the fact that I could get through that week, the d&c and the days that followed has made me stronger and that I can get through anything. One day at a time. Sending so much love, i'm sorry for your struggle.