Almost a year after my miscarriage

smiriah25

My name is Samantha, I was 10 weeks pregnant when I had a routine ultrasound to see if I had a heart shape uterus. The date was January 24, 2014 this is the day that I will never forget my world stood still when the ultrasound tech said she couldn't find a heartbeat. It will be a year in 12 days when I found out from the doctor that I was pregnant. The first couple of months I would hardly talk to anyone about my MC. When anyone would ask how I was doing I would tell them that I'm ok. I realized that I couldn't deal with my MC myself in July. I would get very bad stress headaches when I slowly starting to talk to my husband and mom my headaches started to get less intense. I also started to rethink about every decision that I had made since January. I'm currently going to a therapist to help with all of the emotions I have been dealing with. I'm the kind of person that has to be in control of everything I haven't been in control for almost a year. Ever since the MC I can't make a decision without having to someone give me a strict deadline to have a decision. I would love to hear any advice that anyone has.

CNYBride05

**siggy/ticker warning** I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a board for late pregnancy losses/infant loss/older child loss. You might find more people in similar situations on the Miscarriage board or TTCAL. It is so hard!! Big ((hugs))

Noethola

So very sorry for your loss. I think your pursuit of therapy is a good idea. It is nice to get outside perspective and coping tools. I hope it is able to give you good steps toward your journey of healing. I hate that so many mamas say goodbye to their babies so soon.

I also suggest the misscarriage board as a wonderful resource and great group of ladies.  Big ((hugs)) to you during this time.