I thought I needed a post after being gone for a month to explain why I've been avoiding TB and apologize for just disappearing with no explanation for anyone.
After my MC in October, something in me broke. When I had my MC in April, I found this board and it was my safe haven. This time though, it happened during a week that a lot of people seemed to be moving to PGAL, and although I was so happy for them, I needed to protect myself and turn off the internet and anything PG or MC-related and take some time to grieve alone. When that didn't work, I started seeing a therapist, and that seemed to help some. I've been starting to feel strong enough to offer others support again and feel like I'm ready to 'come home'.
I'm approaching my April MC EDD next week on my birthday (Tuesday), and although I feel like I'm stronger, I'm not completely back to myself yet.
Just wanted to let you all know that even though I haven't been posting much, I've been stalking all of you and miss you!
Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN