Need Some Strength *updated*

ARZamora1111

Been in labor since 12:30a Wed. Went in to the hospital about 12p yesterday only to be sent home. Got contractions pumping at 2-3min apart lasting 1:30, so went back in about 9pm. Admitted at 4cm 90% effaced. Labor began slowing, so we talked about induction or sleep. Decided sleep and was given morphine. Cervix checked at 10am this morning and was 3cm 75% effaced. Sent home again.

I'm just totally defeated. Beyond exhausted though i have slept. Contractions are few and far between though still pretty painful and lasting 1min. I just cant find the strength to get these contractions going again. All i want to do is cry and sleep.

Adding to this defeat feeling is guilt of DH "wasting" his leave and my mom missing work to be here for DD when we're in the hospital.

I am pretty sure i have decided to get an epidural when I get admitted next and will opt for pitocin to get things going if offered. This makes me a little sad as i was determined to go unmedicated again. Its not necessarily the pain as its the exhaustion that comes from prolonged pain.

*update* Contractions picked up to 2-3 min apart lasting 1:30-2min. Admitted at 4-5cm and 100% effaced. Epidural on board and feeling good! Can't wait to meet Mr. Niko. Thank you all for support, thoughts and prayers!

sAAmFam

I'm sorry you are going through this. Thoughts and prayers sent to you for some relief and strength.

hiketheworld

You need to do what is best for you. If that means you need an epidural then you get one and don't feel guilty! You are not failing at anything. You are bringing a life into this world. This birth may not be the most convenient for your mom or husband but they love and support you and are there for you. If the situations were reversed you'd be there for them. Let go of the guilt and accept the situation for what it is. You will have a heck of a birth story and more importantly, a beautiful baby at the end. You CAN do this!!

runningmama22

I'm so sorry you're going through that. It truly sounds exhausting, I cannot imagine. Just know that soon you will get to meet your little one, and your body was made to birth your baby. You can do this I also felt guilt about my mom taking off work.. She's been home all week bc my contractions were pretty constant since the weekend... I bet mom and your DH don't mind at all. Try to let that guilt go and channel it into good energy and strength. Might help!! I'm trying to change my own mindset around right now too, about to go in to start induction with a cervix that's "not awful, but not perfect yet" per Dr so I might be in for a long ride too. Hang in there momma!!!

Ineedmorecoffee

I'm sorry you're going through this!!! Do not feel guilty about getting a epi. You do what you need to do to get through the labor. Hope things progress soon and that you get to hold that baby soon!

ssstephanie214

Can't blame yourself for not dilating. I have just been through the same hell. You will get there! Every hour bring you closer! Rest rest until the end!

Snuffy007

I'm sorry, that sounds incredibly frustrating and exhausting! Fingers crossed you get what you need soon, whether that be a break so you can regain strength or some progression so you can be done with labor sooner!

MGM81

Sucks...
Sorry to hear hope things come together this evening.
What about pumping? just an idea to help move things along? May not do anything. Thinking of you

kaimee27

I hope things start going better for you and that the next time is definitely "it" for you!  Hang in there!!

krissykris89

Sending many positive vibes to you and LO.

ARZamora1111

Thank you all for the support!

silverwings72

So glad to see this update! Prayers for you and LO! Come on baby!!

belmont1785

This is exactly how I felt. But you have to realize you have a little baby that's going to wear you out even more when he/she arrives and you are NOT a failure for getting the epidural. Do what is best for you. My epidural helped me relax so much that I went from 5cm to having baby out in 40 minutes. The contractions are better able to do their job if you are relaxed. Best of luck and enjoy that little one!