TTC After a Loss

IF Check In!!!

megrae12megrae12 member
edited November 2014 in TTC After a Loss

This is the weekly check-in for TTCALers who are also dealing with infertility. If you'd like to join us please feel free to intro with your diagnosis and history. We've had a few extra challenges thrown at us, ladies. Come here for snuggles from people who get what you're dealing with. 

Fill us in, along with any other updates or vents you need to get out, TTCAL or NonTTCAL related.


If you get a BFP, please PM me and let me know.  If you do not PM me I will not mention you in the check-in.  If we haven’t heard from you in a few weeks please come back in with an update; or are new and want to join please post a brief intro with your DX and current/future treatment plans and then you'll be added to next week’s check in!  


@rubysi How are you feeling? Cold gone?

@Frenchteachermama I saw your post on MLL about surgery, how do you feel about it?

@Rachaeleigh How is the 2ww?

@king26 Did you ever confirm O?

@FutureMrsWright2012 When is your u/s? How are you?

@Km380 I'm sorry about your IVF cycle, how are you?

@CandST2014 ((Hugs)) How are you?

@O2girl How are you, hun?

@Rocks526 Did you get your HSG scheduled?

@nikiswimr Did AF ever show?

@bunnybun4 How did your u/s go on Sunday? Any more activity?


QOTW: What are you thankful for this week?


ETA QOTW. 

Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
All Welcome


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  • Hello everyone,

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check in. How are you?

    I am still sick but getting better. This should be the last day of the cycle though no signs of af yet. I have a new protocol for next cycle. They want me to do a medicated iui cycle, I am not sure it will be worth the expense. It will also fall on or around Thanksgiving...

    Hugs for everyone! 

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  • rubysi said:
    Hello everyone,

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check in. How are you?

    I am still sick but getting better. This should be the last day of the cycle though no signs of af yet. I have a new protocol for next cycle. They want me to do a medicated iui cycle, I am not sure it will be worth the expense. It will also fall on or around Thanksgiving...

    Hugs for everyone! 
    @rubysi Hi love, I am sorry you are still sick. I am ok, thanks for asking. Did you test this cycle? I can't remember. I hate you are out this cycle, I know that sucks. Have y'all just being doing TI?
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • megrae12 said:
    rubysi said:
    Hello everyone,

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check in. How are you?

    I am still sick but getting better. This should be the last day of the cycle though no signs of af yet. I have a new protocol for next cycle. They want me to do a medicated iui cycle, I am not sure it will be worth the expense. It will also fall on or around Thanksgiving...

    Hugs for everyone! 
    @rubysi Hi love, I am sorry you are still sick. I am ok, thanks for asking. Did you test this cycle? I can't remember. I hate you are out this cycle, I know that sucks. Have y'all just being doing TI?
    I have been testing too much... another bfn today dpo14. I am getting used to it. I am getting tested for vitamin d deficiency. They want to do it at my monitoring cycle I am going to go in next week. I don't want to bother with the iui cycle if this is something that is preventing sucess.

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  • rubysi said:
    megrae12 said:
    rubysi said:
    Hello everyone,

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check in. How are you?

    I am still sick but getting better. This should be the last day of the cycle though no signs of af yet. I have a new protocol for next cycle. They want me to do a medicated iui cycle, I am not sure it will be worth the expense. It will also fall on or around Thanksgiving...

    Hugs for everyone! 
    @rubysi Hi love, I am sorry you are still sick. I am ok, thanks for asking. Did you test this cycle? I can't remember. I hate you are out this cycle, I know that sucks. Have y'all just being doing TI?
    I have been testing too much... another bfn today dpo14. I am getting used to it. I am getting tested for vitamin d deficiency. They want to do it at my monitoring cycle I am going to go in next week. I don't want to bother with the iui cycle if this is something that is preventing sucess.
    I have a slight vit D deficiency. I take 3400ius/day. Hopefully they can get you a good plan moving forward. ((Hugs)) for the bfns. I hate that. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Hello, ladies. I hope everyone is doing well. 

    AFM: We are taking these two cycles off treatment. I just needed a break and some time. I talked to my nurse about the severe cramps I had and she says my endo may be coming back. Cue the panic. I dunno what that will mean for us treatment wise, but I do know they do not want to do surgery if they can help it. I have had to many laps (IMO) and they do not want to damage Lefty. Bleh. I feel like we are stuck between a rock and hard place. 

    On another note, I have an intestinal virus. It is not fun. I have barely been able to eat the last two days and I am completely wiped out. Who knew that it would give me a fever and make so tired I can barely keep my eyes open? Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • megrae12 said:
    Hello, ladies. I hope everyone is doing well. 

    AFM: We are taking these two cycles off treatment. I just needed a break and some time. I talked to my nurse about the severe cramps I had and she says my endo may be coming back. Cue the panic. I dunno what that will mean for us treatment wise, but I do know they do not want to do surgery if they can help it. I have had to many laps (IMO) and they do not want to damage Lefty. Bleh. I feel like we are stuck between a rock and hard place. 

    On another note, I have an intestinal virus. It is not fun. I have barely been able to eat the last two days and I am completely wiped out. Who knew that it would give me a fever and make so tired I can barely keep my eyes open? Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 
    We have a running joke that a black cloud keeps following my family... are we related? I really hope something good happens for you soon. Lots of hugs coming your way...

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  • @megrae12 - thanks for the checkin.

    it has been a rollercoaster of a week.  US on sunday went poorly...he was only seeing 2 good follies and told me he didn't expect to see anymore...however my levels were good.  He said to be hopeful for the two.  I was just shocked that i responded so poorly to the medicine given my prior pregnancy history.

    then yesterday i go in and there are four.  the two from sunday are looking the best but there are 2 others trailing on...they told me I would likely trigger today.

    I go in today and the two big ones didn't grow much at all today but one of the smaller ones took off.  now I am set to trigger tomorrow (if my us goes ok in the morning).  I'm thrilled that the third one is doing really well but I don't like that the 2 nice ones didn't grow much.  my RE said that it was just a wait and see type of thing.  ugh.  so ready to be past this!!!

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • @rubysi - sorry you have been sick.  gl deciding how you want to move forward this cycle.

    @megrae12- sorry you have been sick.  big ((hugs)) while you take some time off and deal with all of this bs.  none of it is fair. 

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • bunnybun4 said:

    @megrae12 - thanks for the checkin.

    it has been a rollercoaster of a week.  US on sunday went poorly...he was only seeing 2 good follies and told me he didn't expect to see anymore...however my levels were good.  He said to be hopeful for the two.  I was just shocked that i responded so poorly to the medicine given my prior pregnancy history.

    then yesterday i go in and there are four.  the two from sunday are looking the best but there are 2 others trailing on...they told me I would likely trigger today.

    I go in today and the two big ones didn't grow much at all today but one of the smaller ones took off.  now I am set to trigger tomorrow (if my us goes ok in the morning).  I'm thrilled that the third one is doing really well but I don't like that the 2 nice ones didn't grow much.  my RE said that it was just a wait and see type of thing.  ugh.  so ready to be past this!!!

    @bunnybun4 Ugh! What a MF!! I am so sorry for the craziness! I couldn't imagine. Are you doing an IUI this cycle or TI? I cannot remember for the life of me. ((Hugs)) and FX for trigger tomorrow. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • megrae12 said:
    bunnybun4 said:

    @megrae12 - thanks for the checkin.

    it has been a rollercoaster of a week.  US on sunday went poorly...he was only seeing 2 good follies and told me he didn't expect to see anymore...however my levels were good.  He said to be hopeful for the two.  I was just shocked that i responded so poorly to the medicine given my prior pregnancy history.

    then yesterday i go in and there are four.  the two from sunday are looking the best but there are 2 others trailing on...they told me I would likely trigger today.

    I go in today and the two big ones didn't grow much at all today but one of the smaller ones took off.  now I am set to trigger tomorrow (if my us goes ok in the morning).  I'm thrilled that the third one is doing really well but I don't like that the 2 nice ones didn't grow much.  my RE said that it was just a wait and see type of thing.  ugh.  so ready to be past this!!!

    @bunnybun4 Ugh! What a MF!! I am so sorry for the craziness! I couldn't imagine. Are you doing an IUI this cycle or TI? I cannot remember for the life of me. ((Hugs)) and FX for trigger tomorrow. 
    This is IVF #1 for us because i got slammed with low amh in august.  we were supposed to be doing pgd but with so few follies we prob. won't. 

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • @bunnybun4 good luck with tomorrow's scan. It sounds like your RE is taking care of you.

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  • bunnybun4 said:
    megrae12 said:
    bunnybun4 said:

    @megrae12 - thanks for the checkin.

    it has been a rollercoaster of a week.  US on sunday went poorly...he was only seeing 2 good follies and told me he didn't expect to see anymore...however my levels were good.  He said to be hopeful for the two.  I was just shocked that i responded so poorly to the medicine given my prior pregnancy history.

    then yesterday i go in and there are four.  the two from sunday are looking the best but there are 2 others trailing on...they told me I would likely trigger today.

    I go in today and the two big ones didn't grow much at all today but one of the smaller ones took off.  now I am set to trigger tomorrow (if my us goes ok in the morning).  I'm thrilled that the third one is doing really well but I don't like that the 2 nice ones didn't grow much.  my RE said that it was just a wait and see type of thing.  ugh.  so ready to be past this!!!

    @bunnybun4 Ugh! What a MF!! I am so sorry for the craziness! I couldn't imagine. Are you doing an IUI this cycle or TI? I cannot remember for the life of me. ((Hugs)) and FX for trigger tomorrow. 
    This is IVF #1 for us because i got slammed with low amh in august.  we were supposed to be doing pgd but with so few follies we prob. won't. 
    Oh. I dunno how didn't know that. I am sorry I got that all kinds of wrong. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Thanks @megrae12 for the check-in. 

    I'm doing ok. Just waiting to meet with a new RE next week. In the meantime there isn't much I can do so I'm trying to just relax and not think about it. Easier said than done! 

    Hope everyone else is doing well... I will probably not be around for a little bit, I just need a break!
  • @megrae12 ugh I hope you get better soon!

    (((Hugs))) ladies


    AFM I have an appt tomorrow to check my cyst and also check ovulation. I'm cd14 and still getting neg OPKs which is unusual for me. I'm supposed to start a med after O but the cyst really determines my next move. I'm really frustrated. And to top it off mh decided to get mad at me last night. He asked when the cyst would go away, I told him I don't know. Could be now, could be weeks. So he got mad at me for not "answering" him.
    Am I the only one with a SO that does not understand I have no answers?

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498

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  • Thanks for the check in @megrae12‌ . I hope that your treatment break treats you well

    @rubysi‌ I'm glad that you're feeling at least alittle better

    @bunnybun4‌ fx for the u/s tomorrow!

    @CandST2014‌ I hope the week goes quickly for you

    AFM: I'm about 9dpo. Test was pretty much negative today being that trigger is out of mysystem for the most part. I'm not feeling too hopeful this cycle

    4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
    All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal

    5 IUIs = BFN

    All AL are welcome
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  • @CandST2014 I hope the break treats you well.

    @Km380 I think your DH chose the wrong moment to be frustrated. He probably doesn't have a community like our to vent. FX that cyst goes/has gone away.

    @Rachaeleigh I am sorry you have lost hope so early.... FX you are wrong. 

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  • @rubysi  I'm sending you healthy healing vibes over the internet!!!!!

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check-in!  I am sorry you are sick too!  It's that time of year isn't it?  I hope you find some good distractions over the next two months.

    @bunnybun4  I only have 3 good looking follies and 2 small ones and they got 9 eggs!  So anything can happen!  FX that all goes well!!!  Please keep us posted

    AFM:  I feel a bit conflicted about the surgery.  I don't want to sound jaded and negative but I'm so over all of the false hopes that arise with IF.  Oh, IUIs will definitely work, no they didn't!  Oh IVF is your ticket, nope something else is wrong.  So now on to a surgery...I hope this is what is wrong and I'm not subjecting my body to this for no reason :(  Surgery is scheduled for 12/12.



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    My FF Chart:
    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/490dd7
    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14

    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
    MOVING TO ADOPTION!  


  • CandST2014  I hope you like your new RE!  

    @KM380 DH's are annoying sometimes...I'm sorry!  I'm sorry this cyst is there and giving you such trouble!

    @Racheleigh  I hope that 9dpo is just too early!!!!!!!!



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    My FF Chart:
    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/490dd7
    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14

    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
    MOVING TO ADOPTION!  


  • @rubysi sorry for the bfn. (((Hugs)))

    @Frenchteachermama‌ I hope the surgery goes well and you don't have any more setbacks.

    @racheleigh fx 9dpo is too early!

    @bunnybun4‌ I hope it goes well, fx!

    @CandST2014‌ I hope you like the new RE. Enjoy your break

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498

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  • @rubysi‌ I'm glad you're starting to feel better. Sorry about the BFN :(

    @megrae12‌ thanks for the check in. Sorry you're having an all around crummy week. Hope the intestinal bug is over ASAP

    @bunnybun4‌ I hope the two good follies continue to mature and you get a good egg retrieval!

    @CandST2014‌ good luck with the new RE next week! I'm also meeting with a new RE next week, I feel like I'll feel so much better once we have a definite plan.

    @Km380‌ I hope the cyst is gone tomorrow!

    @Rachaeleigh‌ I agree with everyone, hopefully 9DPO is too early and that this cycle ends up working out.

    @Frenchteachermama‌ good luck with surgery! Sorry it's been one thing after another.
    Me: 32 DH: 32
    Met: 4/25/2004, Married 8/14/2010
    Off BC 1/2013 TTC (actively) since 5/2013
    5/2014 started testing with RE, me:  HSG normal, normal AMH, no cysts; DH: great sperm
    Unexplained IF + unexplained anovulation (post-pill vs hypothalamic)

    7/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFN
    8/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFP #1: 9/12/2014, EDD 5/22/2015, MMC 10/11/2014 8w1d
    11/2014 Clomid + Novarel + IUI 12/5/14: BFFN
    12/2014 Comid + Novarel + IUI 1/3/15: ???

    **PgAL/PAL welcome**

  • So no AF for me. I was all pumped up because I thought I actually O'd on my own but am now "16DPO" and no AF in sight. Which would normally be exciting except for the zero chance we're pg as we were TTA and using condoms.

    Sooo I definitely didn't O whenever FF thought I did and looking at my chart, it looks pretty unlikely if I didn't O on that date that I O'd at all. Hoping my new RE will just let me take progesterone to bring on a cycle so we can move on. I pretty much always need progesterone to bring on AF so waiting the 60 days seems sort of pointless.

    Appt with the new RE is a week from tomorrow.
    Me: 32 DH: 32
    Met: 4/25/2004, Married 8/14/2010
    Off BC 1/2013 TTC (actively) since 5/2013
    5/2014 started testing with RE, me:  HSG normal, normal AMH, no cysts; DH: great sperm
    Unexplained IF + unexplained anovulation (post-pill vs hypothalamic)

    7/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFN
    8/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFP #1: 9/12/2014, EDD 5/22/2015, MMC 10/11/2014 8w1d
    11/2014 Clomid + Novarel + IUI 12/5/14: BFFN
    12/2014 Comid + Novarel + IUI 1/3/15: ???

    **PgAL/PAL welcome**

  • @rubysi  I'm sending you healthy healing vibes over the internet!!!!!

    @megrae12 Thanks for the check-in!  I am sorry you are sick too!  It's that time of year isn't it?  I hope you find some good distractions over the next two months.

    @bunnybun4  I only have 3 good looking follies and 2 small ones and they got 9 eggs!  So anything can happen!  FX that all goes well!!!  Please keep us posted

    AFM:  I feel a bit conflicted about the surgery.  I don't want to sound jaded and negative but I'm so over all of the false hopes that arise with IF.  Oh, IUIs will definitely work, no they didn't!  Oh IVF is your ticket, nope something else is wrong.  So now on to a surgery...I hope this is what is wrong and I'm not subjecting my body to this for no reason :(  Surgery is scheduled for 12/12.

    that is so encouraging to me!!!  I just got my e2 back and it went from 677 to 1123 overnight...I am waiting from my message from the RE but that has to be a good sign (I hope).

    it always seems like whatever could go wrong does with if...esp. when you throw losses in there.  big ((hugs)) as you wait this all out.  I would be so frustrated if I was in your shoes too.

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • @megrae12- Thanks for running the check in.  AF should be here this weekend, so I will call next week to schedule my HSG. Hopefully I can get it schedule this cycle. 

    Sorry I can't respond to everyone this week. Hugs to those who need it.
  • Hey,
       FF confirmed O so we had good timing  this month.   As I said, I'm not too hopeful since this is an unmedicated, non-treatment cycle but you never know.  I also got my karyotype testing back and everything was normal so that makes me feel so much better.  I'm totally ready for my Dec. 12 appointment so we can get back to treatment and get this show on the road!

    @rubysi I hope your new protcol works for you.  Will you be doing Clomid or injections or both?

    @megrae12 I hope you feel better soon!   We are also taking 2 months off treatment and sometimes I think it's great while others I think it sucks.   How many Laps have you had?   My doctor really wants me to have one because I show a lot of symptoms of endo but I'm not sure it's worth it if we're just going to do IVF again.

    @bunnybun4 FX that your trigger goes well and they are able to get all the eggs out for IVF. 

    @KM380 I hope your cyst is shrinking.  You are not the only one.  My favorite is when DH asks when my monitoring appointment are for the week so he can plan his week...if I knew I'd tell you but I won't know until the US.  We've been through this 5 cycles now, you think he'd have a clue.

    @frenchteachermama I'm so sorry you are going through this.  What type of surgery are you going through?  I feel like I am where you are.  Failed IUI's and IVF now they want to do a lap but I don't want to do it.  I'm tired of surgeries and screwing with my body. 



  • @king26 fx, you never know right?

    Ugh YH does the same? Mh also asks when do I start injects and when is ER. I don't know - just like I didn't know anything for the IUIs. I'm sorry yours does this too but thanks for sharing, makes me feel a little more normal you know

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498

    image imageimage

    image


  • @megrae12 - Thanks for the check-in, chica. I am sorry that you're sick and about your cramping. I hope so hard that your nurse is wrong and that it's not endo coming back. Hugs to you. 

    @rubysi - Glad your feeling better. Hope AF makes her appearance soon and you figure out your vitamin D stuff so you can move onto your new protocol. 

    @bunnybun4 -  Is your RE still doing an ER or will he/she convert to IUI? Either way, FX for a good U/S tomorrow and hooray for your e2 jump!

    @CandST2014 - GL with new RE next week!

    @Km380 - Hugs to you. Sorry YH got upset with you. IF sucks. :( 

    @Rachaeleigh - Hoping that you just tested too soon. FX for good news soon for you. 

    @Frenchteachermama - False hopes are so hard with every step of IF. It seriously is so unfair. Is the surgery something you should have for you regardless of whether or not you did IVF?

    @nikisimr - Sorry FF was off on your O day. GL with your new RE next week!

    @Rocks526 - Hope you can get your HSG scheduled soon!

    @king26 - You never know! ;) FX and yay for normal karyotype results. 


    AFM - Finally got in for that U/S, and guess what... My non-stop bleeding for the past 6 weeks is NOT actually normal. I have quite a bit of retained tissue that is going to need treatment. They want to schedule me for a D&C late next week, but I've asked to at least try with Cytotec. That's what fun I'll be up to this weekend. :( Hoping it does the trick though, and I can avoid the D&C. 

    QOTW/AW - Big changes coming to my world, and today, I received a lot of love and support for that decision, and our counter offer on selling our house was accepted. 
     
    TTCAL December Siggy Challenge: Autocorrect Fails
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    ***siggy warning*** 

    TTC since 3/2012 
    DH - 34; nml swimmers; Me - 34; sinking AMH (now 0.55), low AFC, nml FSH/LH 
    Clomid + IUI #1 (6/2013) - BFN; #2 (7/2013) - BFFN 
    Bonus info: me - low TNF, low vitamin D, borderline low IGF (all improving) 
    IVF (May/June2014) 5R/5F/2T (ET 6/11) - no frosties. 
    + HPT 8dp5dt. Beta #1 - 71(6/20). Beta #2 381 (6/24) 
    U/S 7/11 (one perfect little bean, HB 150's). EDD 3/1/2015
    Baby boy Lincoln Alexander's HB stopped at 18w and was delivered at 19w (10/3/2014)
    All testing normal/negative including normal chromosomes - no answers... D&C 11/20/2014
    IVF#2 coming in Spring 2015
  • @Frenchteachermama I do hope the surgery is the solution. Hugs.

    @nikiswimr hugs... I hope your RE appointment goes well.

    @king26 FX for this cycle anyway. We are doing Letrozole and a trigger shot.

    @FutureMrsWright2012 I am so sorry I hope the cytotec does the trick. Congrats on the house sale.

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                ***TTCAL January siggy challenge ***
  • Thanks @megrae12 for the check-in. 

    I'm doing ok. Just waiting to meet with a new RE next week. In the meantime there isn't much I can do so I'm trying to just relax and not think about it. Easier said than done! 

    Hope everyone else is doing well... I will probably not be around for a little bit, I just need a break!
    @CandST2014 I am so sorry you need a break. We will miss you, but I totally understand. Take some time for you and I hope it treats well. I will be thinking of you next week. Do you want me to take you off the check in for a while?
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Km380 said:
    @megrae12 ugh I hope you get better soon! (((Hugs))) ladies AFM I have an appt tomorrow to check my cyst and also check ovulation. I'm cd14 and still getting neg OPKs which is unusual for me. I'm supposed to start a med after O but the cyst really determines my next move. I'm really frustrated. And to top it off mh decided to get mad at me last night. He asked when the cyst would go away, I told him I don't know. Could be now, could be weeks. So he got mad at me for not "answering" him. Am I the only one with a SO that does not understand I have no answers?
    @Km380 I hope you appointment goes well today and that the cyst is gone!! I hate that you and YH were squabbly. I know that is frustrating from both sides. I can say that it may be he is feeling helpless b/c most men are fixers. He can't "fix" this at all and it's frustrating. H and I talk about it a lot and he hates that he can't fix this for me. So it boils over to frustration and just crap. Does that make sense? I know it's not a lot of help, but maybe y'all can sit down and talk about why he got upset? I bet you will see that it's just frustration about the situation. ((Hugs)) sweetie. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • **snip**

     AFM: I'm about 9dpo. Test was pretty much negative today being that trigger is out of mysystem for the most part. I'm not feeling too hopeful this cycle
    @Rachaeleigh I am keeping my FX for you, love!! I know how the not hopeful cycle goes. I will be hopeful for you, it's easy for me to do. When will you test or do you go in for betas?
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • *snip*

    AFM:  I feel a bit conflicted about the surgery.  I don't want to sound jaded and negative but I'm so over all of the false hopes that arise with IF.  Oh, IUIs will definitely work, no they didn't!  Oh IVF is your ticket, nope something else is wrong.  So now on to a surgery...I hope this is what is wrong and I'm not subjecting my body to this for no reason :(  Surgery is scheduled for 12/12.
    @Frenchteachermama ((Hugs)) I am so sorry you are feeling so conflicted. I get that. I do. IF is suck a MF and it's not fair. We are given so much extra to deal with and it's hard to process. Take some time and process this, ok? Don't keep pushing aside and "deal with it later". You know it will only get worse. Write it out if you need to, or yell it out, or punch it out, whatever. You need to get that release. Ok? So much love for you and I am here if you need anything!! Even venting!!
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • nikiswimr said:
    So no AF for me. I was all pumped up because I thought I actually O'd on my own but am now "16DPO" and no AF in sight. Which would normally be exciting except for the zero chance we're pg as we were TTA and using condoms. Sooo I definitely didn't O whenever FF thought I did and looking at my chart, it looks pretty unlikely if I didn't O on that date that I O'd at all. Hoping my new RE will just let me take progesterone to bring on a cycle so we can move on. I pretty much always need progesterone to bring on AF so waiting the 60 days seems sort of pointless. Appt with the new RE is a week from tomorrow.
    @nikiswimr Is this your first cycle post loss? I looked at your chart, and you are right, I would be surprised of you O'd. I am gonna bet your new RE will want to bring on AF so they can get started with treatment. Are you going to have to a whole new set of tests again? Do you know what your plan will be moving forward? 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Rocks526 said:
    @megrae12- Thanks for running the check in.  AF should be here this weekend, so I will call next week to schedule my HSG. Hopefully I can get it schedule this cycle. 

    Sorry I can't respond to everyone this week. Hugs to those who need it.
    @Rocks526 FX you can get the HSG scheduled. I hope it's a fast and easy procedure for you. ((Hugs)) hun
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • king26 said:
    Hey,
       FF confirmed O so we had good timing  this month.   As I said, I'm not too hopeful since this is an unmedicated, non-treatment cycle but you never know.  I also got my karyotype testing back and everything was normal so that makes me feel so much better.  I'm totally ready for my Dec. 12 appointment so we can get back to treatment and get this show on the road!

    @rubysi I hope your new protcol works for you.  Will you be doing Clomid or injections or both?

    @megrae12 I hope you feel better soon!   We are also taking 2 months off treatment and sometimes I think it's great while others I think it sucks.   How many Laps have you had?   My doctor really wants me to have one because I show a lot of symptoms of endo but I'm not sure it's worth it if we're just going to do IVF again.

    @bunnybun4 FX that your trigger goes well and they are able to get all the eggs out for IVF. 

    @KM380 I hope your cyst is shrinking.  You are not the only one.  My favorite is when DH asks when my monitoring appointment are for the week so he can plan his week...if I knew I'd tell you but I won't know until the US.  We've been through this 5 cycles now, you think he'd have a clue.

    @frenchteachermama I'm so sorry you are going through this.  What type of surgery are you going through?  I feel like I am where you are.  Failed IUI's and IVF now they want to do a lap but I don't want to do it.  I'm tired of surgeries and screwing with my body. 



    @king26 Yay for good timing! I hope this is your cycle. I have had two laps, one in 2012 to remove a dermoid tumor out of my right ovary and that is when they found the endo. They blasted it out. Then I had another in 2013 (less than a year later) to removed my right tube b/c of ectopic. I will say that overall they are not a terrible way to have surgery. It really depends on what you are getting done. Feel free to PM me if you want the good, the bad, and the straight ugly. ((Hugs))
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • *snip*

    AFM - Finally got in for that U/S, and guess what... My non-stop bleeding for the past 6 weeks is NOT actually normal. I have quite a bit of retained tissue that is going to need treatment. They want to schedule me for a D&C late next week, but I've asked to at least try with Cytotec. That's what fun I'll be up to this weekend. :( Hoping it does the trick though, and I can avoid the D&C. 

    QOTW/AW - Big changes coming to my world, and today, I received a lot of love and support for that decision, and our counter offer on selling our house was accepted. 
     
    @FutureMrsWright2012 I am so sorry. I know that has to suck so much. I hope the cyctec does the job for you. When will you go back to the doc to see if it worked? I hate you are dealing with this. ((Hugs)) sweetie. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • megrae12 said:


    Km380 said:

    @megrae12 ugh I hope you get better soon!

    (((Hugs))) ladies


    AFM I have an appt tomorrow to check my cyst and also check ovulation. I'm cd14 and still getting neg OPKs which is unusual for me. I'm supposed to start a med after O but the cyst really determines my next move. I'm really frustrated. And to top it off mh decided to get mad at me last night. He asked when the cyst would go away, I told him I don't know. Could be now, could be weeks. So he got mad at me for not "answering" him.
    Am I the only one with a SO that does not understand I have no answers?

    @Km380 I hope you appointment goes well today and that the cyst is gone!! I hate that you and YH were squabbly. I know that is frustrating from both sides. I can say that it may be he is feeling helpless b/c most men are fixers. He can't "fix" this at all and it's frustrating. H and I talk about it a lot and he hates that he can't fix this for me. So it boils over to frustration and just crap. Does that make sense? I know it's not a lot of help, but maybe y'all can sit down and talk about why he got upset? I bet you will see that it's just frustration about the situation. ((Hugs)) sweetie. 


    Thanks sweetie. I'm sure most of it is just frustration and that is pretty much the talk we will have.
    In other news my cyst is gone! How rarely do we leave the RE with good news. It also looks like I should O soon, it's just late this month.

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498

    image imageimage

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  • @Km380 YAY!!  \:D/ So happy that cyst is gone!! FX for O soon!! 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • @futuremrswright2012 - we are going ahead with an egg retrieval...it is set for sunday...triggering tonight.  eeeek.

    so sorry about the retained tissue..I hope the cytotec does the trick and you can avoid surgery.  ((hugs))

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • @king26 my doctor thinks that I might have a condition where your c-section scar doesn't heal on the inside which allows fluid/blood to constantly be flowing into my uterus and making it a toxic environment.  @FutureMrsWright2012 I'm not sure if this is something that I would need to have done if we weren't TTC.  It does cause me to spot almost constantly but I'm not sure if it's dangerous, except to embryos...

    @megrae12 the best thing I did for myself over the past year was to seek out the help of a therapist who specializes in women's infertility and grief.  She actually rotated with my RE practice when she was in school so she has wonderful insight into the inner workings of the office.  That and wine, lots and lots of wine.



    imageimageimage
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    My FF Chart:
    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/490dd7
    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14

    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
    MOVING TO ADOPTION!  


  • @megrae12‌ I'm really hoping all the testing doesn't need to be repeated. I had all my old records sent to my new REs office so that he can review them prior to my appointment. He did say he was going to potentially repeat some bloodwork and do a transvaginal ultrasound but hopefully not another HSG. The plan with my last RE was to do Clomid + trigger + IUI so I'm guessing plan will be similar unless something new turns up? I hope you're right and we just do progesterone to start a new cycle. Looking definitely anovulatory at this point. I know that can be normal post loss.
    Me: 32 DH: 32
    Met: 4/25/2004, Married 8/14/2010
    Off BC 1/2013 TTC (actively) since 5/2013
    5/2014 started testing with RE, me:  HSG normal, normal AMH, no cysts; DH: great sperm
    Unexplained IF + unexplained anovulation (post-pill vs hypothalamic)

    7/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFN
    8/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFP #1: 9/12/2014, EDD 5/22/2015, MMC 10/11/2014 8w1d
    11/2014 Clomid + Novarel + IUI 12/5/14: BFFN
    12/2014 Comid + Novarel + IUI 1/3/15: ???

    **PgAL/PAL welcome**

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