So I spent all of yesterday in total panic mode. I lost count of how many times I ugly cried, and I had a few anxiety attacks complete with hyperventilation.
What is the matter with me???
This cycle is NOT the same as IVF #2. These are not my eggs. We have worked hard to address the issues in my uterus. My husband's sperm is not a problem. And yet, I am completely freaking out.
Ever since the doctor called me on Sunday to tell me that our donor was triggering. I swear, I thought he was going to say that it was all over. I flashed back to IVF #2 (when we were canceled on the day of our transfer because all of our embryos arrested... Well, actually, only two made it to two cells before degenerating...).
I am so deeply scarred by that experience. I should be elated right now and focusing on the 11+ mature follicles that will hopefully yield my baby (babies??).
Deep breaths.... C+B on repeat... Someone please talk me off the ledge and tell me that this time is different!!
Me: 32 DH: 35 TTC#1 since March 2012
Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo,
Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome
IUI #1-5: BFN
Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN
IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403