Sorry for the informal check-in, girls. I'm in full on freak out mode. I seriously cannot relax, having some anxiety attacks and am super emotional. Damn hormones and stress!!!
ER is tomorrow. I am so surprised by how badly I'm taking this... I thought it would be easier because I shouldn't have to worry about my egg crapping out. Instead, I find myself crying at every little thing. And having panic attacks. I think I'll feel better once we get the final report on Sunday.
QOTW: I need help here... Which is why I asked! I failed miserably today and spent the whole day in panic mode. What is wrong with me??
@Runcc37 BREATHE!!! The drugs are certainly adding to your hormonal emotions and that is ok, but try to remain calm. Not sure if you every practice Yoga, but perhaps now would be a good time to start. GL with ER.
We find out in 2 days if our surrogate is positive. I am trying hard to not to be too anxious as well. Thankfully my job keeps me super busy.
Failed Matches - December 2012, May 2013, December 2013
Moved on to gestational surrogacy with a family friend who is our angel and due 7/23/15
I had my hysteroscopy today and everything is looking good. I will start letrozole (sp?) on day 3 of my next AF. I'm not sure when my transfer will be, but it's looking like sometime in December.
I like to watch baseball or reality tv to relax.
I hope you all have a great week.
TTC #1 since May 2010
OE IVF #1 9/2/13Cancelled- poor response
DE IVF #1 3/12/14- BFP 3/17/14- ectopic, right tube removed 4/11/14 @ 7 weeks
DE FET #1 7/3/14-Transferred 2 5AA 6 day embryos Beta 7/13/14 BFN
DE FET #2 9/5/14-Transferred 2 4BB 5 day embryos Beta 9/15/14 BFN
DE FET #3 in December- Cancelled, didn't respond to meds
DE FET #3 (2nd try) 2/13/15- Transferred 1 4BB and 1 4BA 5 day embryos Beta 2/23/15 BFN again (CP)
DE FET #4 - last 2 frosties....5/22/15- Transferred 1 4BA embryo...only one frostie thawed properly. Beta scheduled for 6/1- BFN (beta 2, 2.81, 6, 23, 49.4) 6/15/15 Discovered ectopic in left tube. Methotrexate given. Moving on to a new donor. Hoping to transfer by the end of the year.
Cant find a donor that is healthy and available. Looking at being happy with just the two of us.
Sorry for the informal check-in, girls. I'm in full on freak out mode. I seriously cannot relax, having some anxiety attacks and am super emotional. Damn hormones and stress!!!
ER is tomorrow. I am so surprised by how badly I'm taking this... I thought it would be easier because I shouldn't have to worry about my egg crapping out. Instead, I find myself crying at every little thing. And having panic attacks. I think I'll feel better once we get the final report on Sunday.
QOTW: I need help here... Which is why I asked! I failed miserably today and spent the whole day in panic mode. What is wrong with me??
Thinking of you! I LOVED Circle and Bloom during cycles. Totally worth the money to me.
I also loved acupuncture, even after ER.
TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own, autoimmune disease 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012)
IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d,
FET #1 December 2012, BFN
FET #2 February 2013, no embies survived thaw
IVF #2, BFP #2, Loss #2 March 2013, Scar tissue discovered, RPL testing,
IVF #3, BFP #3, Loss #3 (twins) September 2013
Hostile ute, moving onto Gestational Carrier!
GC/FET #1 of 1 5AA blast and 1 compacted blast, February 2014, BFP #4 on 3/1/2014!
6w u/s 1 bean with h/b of 145 bpm, 8w u/s 187 bpm
EDD 11/7/14. Please, please, please stick little one!
GL! @RunCC37! Accupuncture really helped me relax, although it did nothing for me fertility wise. AF came last week and I started on delestrogen injections. We are planning a transfer of two blasts sometime during the week of Thanksgiving. I'll als do intralipids this time, and see if this does anything to help.
DOR and AMA
2/12-5/12: 4 IUI cycles = all BFN;
7/12: DE IVF # 1 (with ICSI)- 20R, 16M, 14F, 5DT of 2 blasts; 6 frosties = BFN;
Lupus anticoagulant initially high, then found to be normal on hematology consult;
Follow up testing in September all clear;
Started synthroid for "high normal" TSH;
FET # 1- late October 2012- BFP on FRER; beta # 1- 21(low), beta # 2- 48 (still low), beta # 3- 132, beta # 4- 1,293; beta # 5- 5,606; last beta- over 100,000. First u/s 11/21- heard heartbeat
12/12- Officially an OB patient!
Level 2 ultrasound at 20 weeks shows vasa previa and VCI
Referral to MFM and mandatory c section for delivery
Beautiful baby girl born at 34 weeks
Finally home after 15 day NICU stay!
Trying for sibling: FET # 2- May 2014; beta 5/31, BFN
FET #3, early July 2014; beta 7/14, BFN
DE IVF # 2- August 2014; 14R, 13M, 11F, 5dt of 2 blasts (3 AA), 5 frosties = BFN
FET #4- December 2014, yet another BFN
Dr. KK work up shows borderline uterine blood flow, elevated NK cells, and MTHFR mutation (homozygous for c677t)
Added baby aspirin, prednisone, supplements, Metanx, and intralipids
Switched to large clinic for final attempt; had endometrial receptivity testing in January; FET March 2015 = yet another BFN
Thanks for the tips, girls. @lincoln79 - I do C+B but yesterday I was in a panic mode and completely unreachable by any of my normal methods of calming down. I don't know what is wrong with me!!! I am so badly scarred by my past IVF cycles. Truly. When the doctor called on Sunday to tell me our donor was triggering, my heart dropped. I thought he was calling to tell me it was over. I think it all stems back to December 9th last year... The day that was supposed to be our transfer for IVF #2, but instead we learned that all of our embryos had stopped growing (only two made it to two cells)... I still can't think about it without crying. And it's totally fucking with my head right now during this cycle. I think that day is the reason why I am freaking out so hard right now... I need to get it out of my head and focus on how different this time is compared to the past. Deep breaths.
Good luck to everyone else! And thank you for the support!
Good luck to all of you this week!! I'm sure positive and exciting things are coming your way! As for me, September I had too many follicles, October I got BFN and I found out yesterday that I have two cysts and the estrogen is too high to proceed this month - so I am just focusing on getting house organized and going to start Christmas shopping. Just trying to stay busy.
Qotw: I have a good cry, try to focus on something else or put my head in a book and get carried away to another place.
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
@RunCC37 - so sorry you're so stressed!! I absolutely have some form of PTSD from all of our cycles. It's awful. I'm constantly waiting for something to go horribly wrong and I can't be excited for any of it anymore; it's just torture to go through over and over again. All I can say is that I have a lot of hope for you on this cycle- >:D<
Not too much going on here. My appt with Dr KK was moved up to the beginning of january, which might not work. If I get the job that I've been interviewing for, I would start the 1st week of January and could not realistically ask for time off until maybe March at the earliest.
So while I'm anxious for this appt, we have decided the earliest we could cycle again would be May; for both financial reasons and possibly starting a new job and being able to request time off for transfer. So it might not be a big deal if we need to postpone.
I take bubble baths, cuddle with my kitty, cook and watch the Food Network to unwind.
Me (32) DOR, elevated NK Cells/ 2 copies of MTHFR mutation/ MH (35) azoo/high DFI
(TTC#1 since 2009)
IVFs#1-4: (4/10-2/12) all BFN
Surprise Bfp (9/11) - c/p
DS IUI#1-2 (9/12, 10/12) - BFN
DS IVF: (11/12) - BFN
DE/DS IVF#1: (10/13) - 2 day 3 embies transferred-BFFN
FET of 2 day 6 blasts: (12/13) - c/p
DE/DS IVF #2: (4/14) - 1 day 5 blast transferred...BFFN...again.
FET 5/14: 1 day 5 hatching blast transferred...another BFFN
@RunCC37 - IF PTSD is getting the best of you. ((Huge hugs)) I know you are going to find success this cycle! @refeek1 & @chicagobride_07 - wishing you all of the best on your upcoming transfers!! @Thespis7- ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry about your BFN!! @TRexsMum- I hope your meeting with the OB goes well!
QOTW: I've been listening to mp3's of mindful meditations. I actually find it more helpful than the C&B guided imagery. It is not specific for IF, but I find it helps me with my anxiety.
AFM: Last week I was so hopeful, Saturday went to shit. My embryo did not look good at all, an early blastocyst, graded a C. My WTF appointment went well. We really didn't discussed what went wrong. Frankly don’t care what went wrong, because it will not change my decision to move away from doing a cycle using out OE or OS. We discussed what our best chance of success would be. She was very clear that she is concerned for a shared DE cycle because we only get half the eggs even with the use of donor sperm that will decrease our change for success, but we would have a slightly better chance than donor embryo. She gave us a 65% chance of success for donor embryo with the embryos they have set aside for us as they were created from donor eggs, great quality, and frozen via verification. She actually thinks that traditional Donor egg cycle using donor sperm will give us the greatest changes for success, 75%. I explained that the cost for a traditional donor egg cycle using donor sperm is our biggest obstacle for this route. My RE proposed a discounted cycle for a traditional DE cycle using donor sperm since I am a returning patient. This is why I like this clinic. They are incredibly generous and want us to have the success as much as we want it for ourselves.
DH and I had a discussion our options last night about our plans moving forward. He likes the idea of Donor Embryos, for a few reasons, #1 cost, #2 the embryos are already blastocysts so we do not have to worry about the possibility of poor quality embryos. I’m leaning toward DE/DS, because I cannot bear the thought of another failed cycle, and that 10% difference in success, gives me some comfort. I’m not concerned about getting poor quality embryos if both DE and DS are proven donors. We have a lot to think about and more discussion to get on the same page.
::: Married June 2003::: TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008 Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable IVF# 4= c/p ***CCRM ODWU*** Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally ***New RE*** DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5 Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015
IUI #5 was a success! So far... I'm still holding my breath because I fear losing this one too. I've had three betas drawn so far and a fourth tomorrow, along with an acupuncture session.
QOTW: I do the good-cry thing and brain-dead-reality-tv thing too.
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Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL! DD born July 10, 2015 -------------------------------------------------------- Trying for baby #2! IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
Hi Girls, another crazy day over here. I'm going to post & run, but will be back later to scroll up & read your updates. I hope everyone is doing well. Sending hugs to those who need one, and love/strength/luck to anyone in need!!!
Our donor seems to have hooked us up today at our ER! 19 eggs! DH's sperm sample looked great (56million, 99%motility). Because I'm paranoid and need to sleep at night, we decided to attempt fertilization with conventional IVF with 9 eggs, and ICSI with the remaining 10 eggs. Our fert report should come bright and early tomorrow morning. FX for good news!
Thank you for your support every day, but especially today/this week. I damn near lost my mind yesterday/this morning. Actually... I think it was gone for a while, but it's back now I'm feeling optimistic and ready to go pass out! I'm exhausted!!
It seems that our donor has hooked us up... I am in total disbelief! After all we've been through, I have just been waiting for the other shoe to drop. We're feeling optimistic, and praying that we don't get any surprise phone calls from our clinic between now & Sunday.
I can't believe this is really happening! OMGGGGGGGGG!!!
Check in: We had a false labor incident yesterday...our surrogate called with contractions about 4 minutes apart, so we drove up to where she is (about 2 hours away) and unfortunately she was not actually in labor. DH and I got so excited and thought we'd be bringing our baby home this week...oh well. She's still having contractions but not progressing at all. The doctor still thinks she'll make it to our induction date next Friday.
QOTW: a glass of wine and a nice hot bath in our whirlpool tub always does the trick to relax! A good run is great too
TTC since April 2010
BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
I'm late to this checkin...
Yay RunnCC on your fert report and fx for your ET.
Sammer-- I'm sitting here waiting for induction so I know how anxious you are. Looks like our babies will be days apart !
AFM: induction is to start at 4pm on Wed the 19th. I'm guessing they will be born on the 20th or help me, the 21st... I'm housebound at this point and exhausted. Trying to get last minute stuff done but I can't move too much!
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46 DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!! First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
DOR and AMA
2/12-5/12: 4 IUI cycles = all BFN;
7/12: DE IVF # 1 (with ICSI)- 20R, 16M, 14F, 5DT of 2 blasts; 6 frosties = BFN;
Lupus anticoagulant initially high, then found to be normal on hematology consult;
Follow up testing in September all clear;
Started synthroid for "high normal" TSH;
FET # 1- late October 2012- BFP on FRER; beta # 1- 21(low), beta # 2- 48 (still low), beta # 3- 132, beta # 4- 1,293; beta # 5- 5,606; last beta- over 100,000. First u/s 11/21- heard heartbeat
12/12- Officially an OB patient!
Level 2 ultrasound at 20 weeks shows vasa previa and VCI
Referral to MFM and mandatory c section for delivery
Beautiful baby girl born at 34 weeks
Finally home after 15 day NICU stay!
Trying for sibling: FET # 2- May 2014; beta 5/31, BFN
FET #3, early July 2014; beta 7/14, BFN
DE IVF # 2- August 2014; 14R, 13M, 11F, 5dt of 2 blasts (3 AA), 5 frosties = BFN
FET #4- December 2014, yet another BFN
Dr. KK work up shows borderline uterine blood flow, elevated NK cells, and MTHFR mutation (homozygous for c677t)
Added baby aspirin, prednisone, supplements, Metanx, and intralipids
Switched to large clinic for final attempt; had endometrial receptivity testing in January; FET March 2015 = yet another BFN
@RunCC37 GL today!! Hoping for an uneventful transfer! @IRR yay congrats!! @StephieMK congrats! Thinking positive thoughts for you!! @sammer818 and @Mrs.McIrish so close ladies
AFM not much going on. 26 wks today. Still fighting this terrible cough and overall I just don't feel well. My stomach just hurts. What's going to happen when I'm furthur along lol. Can't wait for my OB appt on Wed to see what can be done
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Today, a dream came true for my family We got our final embryo report and had our transfer. I am officially PUPO!!
We transferred two Grade A blastocysts. We have three blastocysts who are being frozen (Grade A, B, and B- ). There are a few more who may make it to freeze. We will find out by 9:00am tomorrow if there are anymore. We are over the moon!!! So happy and optimistic! Let the 2WW begin Beta is 11/24, and we plan to go beta or bust!!
On a business related note: I'm planning to post the new TPR check-in tomorrow with updates. Thanks for bearing with me these past few weeks, ladies! I had no idea that Dr. KK's protocol was going to be so intense. I literally haven't stopped running around for 7 weeks! If anyone wants to step in and be my back-up, then let me know. It'd be comforting & nice to share the responsibility around here.
Yay RunnCC!! Glad your transfer went well with great blasts!! Fx for beta and a quick wait :-)
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46 DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!! First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
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Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL! DD born July 10, 2015 -------------------------------------------------------- Trying for baby #2! IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
@BeckyP005 - wonderful. I am sort of flipping out a bit if we end up with twins and yet your betas are similar to our surrogate, so I guess the U/S on 12/3 will be the determining factor and for now I won't worry too much about it.
Failed Matches - December 2012, May 2013, December 2013
Moved on to gestational surrogacy with a family friend who is our angel and due 7/23/15
Re: *Third-Party Reproduction Informal Check-in* Nov 10
ER is tomorrow. I am so surprised by how badly I'm taking this... I thought it would be easier because I shouldn't have to worry about my egg crapping out. Instead, I find myself crying at every little thing. And having panic attacks. I think I'll feel better once we get the final report on Sunday.
QOTW: I need help here... Which is why I asked! I failed miserably today and spent the whole day in panic mode. What is wrong with me??
We find out in 2 days if our surrogate is positive. I am trying hard to not to be too anxious as well. Thankfully my job keeps me super busy.
RunCC37 -Good luck with the retrieval tomorrow! I'm sorry you're feeling anxious, hopefully it will pass soon.
IRR-Good luck on a positive test!
I had my hysteroscopy today and everything is looking good. I will start letrozole (sp?) on day 3 of my next AF. I'm not sure when my transfer will be, but it's looking like sometime in December.
I like to watch baseball or reality tv to relax.
I hope you all have a great week.
TTC #1 since May 2010
OE IVF #1 9/2/13 Cancelled- poor response
DE IVF #1 3/12/14- BFP 3/17/14- ectopic, right tube removed 4/11/14 @ 7 weeks
DE FET #1 7/3/14-Transferred 2 5AA 6 day embryos Beta 7/13/14 BFN
DE FET #2 9/5/14-Transferred 2 4BB 5 day embryos Beta 9/15/14 BFN
DE FET #3 in December- Cancelled, didn't respond to meds
DE FET #3 (2nd try) 2/13/15- Transferred 1 4BB and 1 4BA 5 day embryos Beta 2/23/15 BFN again (CP)
DE FET #4 - last 2 frosties....5/22/15- Transferred 1 4BA embryo...only one frostie thawed properly. Beta scheduled for 6/1- BFN (beta 2, 2.81, 6, 23, 49.4) 6/15/15 Discovered ectopic in left tube. Methotrexate given. Moving on to a new donor. Hoping to transfer by the end of the year.
Cant find a donor that is healthy and available. Looking at being happy with just the two of us.
Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!
DOR and AMA
2/12-5/12: 4 IUI cycles = all BFN;
7/12: DE IVF # 1 (with ICSI)- 20R, 16M, 14F, 5DT of 2 blasts; 6 frosties = BFN;
Lupus anticoagulant initially high, then found to be normal on hematology consult;
Follow up testing in September all clear;
Started synthroid for "high normal" TSH;
FET # 1- late October 2012- BFP on FRER; beta # 1- 21(low), beta # 2- 48 (still low), beta # 3- 132, beta # 4- 1,293; beta # 5- 5,606; last beta- over 100,000. First u/s 11/21- heard heartbeat
12/12- Officially an OB patient!
Level 2 ultrasound at 20 weeks shows vasa previa and VCI
Referral to MFM and mandatory c section for delivery
Beautiful baby girl born at 34 weeks
Finally home after 15 day NICU stay!
Trying for sibling: FET # 2- May 2014; beta 5/31, BFN
FET #3, early July 2014; beta 7/14, BFN
DE IVF # 2- August 2014; 14R, 13M, 11F, 5dt of 2 blasts (3 AA), 5 frosties = BFN
FET #4- December 2014, yet another BFN
Dr. KK work up shows borderline uterine blood flow, elevated NK cells, and MTHFR mutation (homozygous for c677t)
Added baby aspirin, prednisone, supplements, Metanx, and intralipids
Switched to large clinic for final attempt; had endometrial receptivity testing in January; FET March 2015 = yet another BFN
Likely OAD- NBC
AF was supposed to start today but nothing so far...not trying to get my hopes up. Beta is Wednesday if AF doesn't start by then
When I get worked up I will usually go clean something or I like to get a magazine and sit in the living room alone and read
Good luck to everyone else! And thank you for the support!
As for me, September I had too many follicles, October I got BFN and I found out yesterday that I have two cysts and the estrogen is too high to proceed this month - so I am just focusing on getting house organized and going to start Christmas shopping. Just trying to stay busy.
Qotw: I have a good cry, try to focus on something else or put my head in a book and get carried away to another place.
Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!
RunCC37 FX for a successful retrieval and calm and peace
IRR-Good luck on a positive test!
@lincoln79 thank you for sharing this site!
FX for you @doodiebug18
we are Team PINK!!
I usually try to relax with exercise, prayer, journal, compulsive list making, being outside in nature.
My heart is as open as the sky.
Read about it on the blog
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
@refeek1 & @chicagobride_07 - wishing you all of the best on your upcoming transfers!!
Not too much going on here. My appt with Dr KK was moved up to the beginning of january, which might not work. If I get the job that I've been interviewing for, I would start the 1st week of January and could not realistically ask for time off until maybe March at the earliest.
So while I'm anxious for this appt, we have decided the earliest we could cycle again would be May; for both financial reasons and possibly starting a new job and being able to request time off for transfer. So it might not be a big deal if we need to postpone.
I take bubble baths, cuddle with my kitty, cook and watch the Food Network to unwind.
Me (32) DOR, elevated NK Cells/ 2 copies of MTHFR mutation/ MH (35) azoo/high DFI (TTC#1 since 2009)
IVFs#1-4: (4/10-2/12) all BFN
Surprise Bfp (9/11) - c/p
DS IUI#1-2 (9/12, 10/12) - BFN
DS IVF: (11/12) - BFN
DE/DS IVF#1: (10/13) - 2 day 3 embies transferred-BFFN
FET of 2 day 6 blasts: (12/13) - c/p
DE/DS IVF #2: (4/14) - 1 day 5 blast transferred...BFFN...again.
FET 5/14: 1 day 5 hatching blast transferred...another BFFN
Repeat SHG 6/14-normal / Endometrial Receptivity Array biopsy 7/14-Receptive Uterus
New RE, additional testing reveals elevated NK Cells
FET of 1 day 5 blast (RE recommends transferring 1 due to elevated NK cells) with lovenox, steroids & intralipids in October
@refeek1 & @chicagobride_07 - wishing you all of the best on your upcoming transfers!!
@Thespis7- ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry about your BFN!!
@TRexsMum- I hope your meeting with the OB goes well!
QOTW: I've been listening to mp3's of mindful meditations. I actually find it more helpful than the C&B guided imagery. It is not specific for IF, but I find it helps me with my anxiety.
AFM: Last week I was so hopeful, Saturday went to shit. My embryo did not look good at all, an early blastocyst, graded a C. My WTF appointment went well. We really didn't discussed what went wrong. Frankly don’t care what went wrong, because it will not change my decision to move away from doing a cycle using out OE or OS. We discussed what our best chance of success would be. She was very clear that she is concerned for a shared DE cycle because we only get half the eggs even with the use of donor sperm that will decrease our change for success, but we would have a slightly better chance than donor embryo. She gave us a 65% chance of success for donor embryo with the embryos they have set aside for us as they were created from donor eggs, great quality, and frozen via verification. She actually thinks that traditional Donor egg cycle using donor sperm will give us the greatest changes for success, 75%. I explained that the cost for a traditional donor egg cycle using donor sperm is our biggest obstacle for this route. My RE proposed a discounted cycle for a traditional DE cycle using donor sperm since I am a returning patient. This is why I like this clinic. They are incredibly generous and want us to have the success as much as we want it for ourselves.
DH and I had a discussion our options last night about our plans moving forward. He likes the idea of Donor Embryos, for a few reasons, #1 cost, #2 the embryos are already blastocysts so we do not have to worry about the possibility of poor quality embryos. I’m leaning toward DE/DS, because I cannot bear the thought of another failed cycle, and that 10% difference in success, gives me some comfort. I’m not concerned about getting poor quality embryos if both DE and DS are proven donors. We have a lot to think about and more discussion to get on the same page.
::: Married June 2003:::
TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
IVF# 4= c/p
***CCRM ODWU***
Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
***New RE***
DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture.
IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015
http://icanhazbabyz.blogspot.com/
IUI #5 was a success! So far... I'm still holding my breath because I fear losing this one too. I've had three betas drawn so far and a fourth tomorrow, along with an acupuncture session.
QOTW: I do the good-cry thing and brain-dead-reality-tv thing too.
Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL!
DD born July 10, 2015
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Trying for baby #2!
IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
Day 1 Fert Report is in: 19R, 17M, 17F
TTC since April 2010
BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
~All AL always welcome~
RunCC37 congrats on all of your embryos. That is fantastic.
Sammer-- I'm sitting here waiting for induction so I know how anxious you are. Looks like our babies will be days apart !
AFM: induction is to start at 4pm on Wed the 19th. I'm guessing they will be born on the 20th or help me, the 21st... I'm housebound at this point and exhausted. Trying to get last minute stuff done but I can't move too much!
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
DOR and AMA
2/12-5/12: 4 IUI cycles = all BFN;
7/12: DE IVF # 1 (with ICSI)- 20R, 16M, 14F, 5DT of 2 blasts; 6 frosties = BFN;
Lupus anticoagulant initially high, then found to be normal on hematology consult;
Follow up testing in September all clear;
Started synthroid for "high normal" TSH;
FET # 1- late October 2012- BFP on FRER; beta # 1- 21(low), beta # 2- 48 (still low), beta # 3- 132, beta # 4- 1,293; beta # 5- 5,606; last beta- over 100,000. First u/s 11/21- heard heartbeat
12/12- Officially an OB patient!
Level 2 ultrasound at 20 weeks shows vasa previa and VCI
Referral to MFM and mandatory c section for delivery
Beautiful baby girl born at 34 weeks
Finally home after 15 day NICU stay!
Trying for sibling: FET # 2- May 2014; beta 5/31, BFN
FET #3, early July 2014; beta 7/14, BFN
DE IVF # 2- August 2014; 14R, 13M, 11F, 5dt of 2 blasts (3 AA), 5 frosties = BFN
FET #4- December 2014, yet another BFN
Dr. KK work up shows borderline uterine blood flow, elevated NK cells, and MTHFR mutation (homozygous for c677t)
Added baby aspirin, prednisone, supplements, Metanx, and intralipids
Switched to large clinic for final attempt; had endometrial receptivity testing in January; FET March 2015 = yet another BFN
Likely OAD- NBC
Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!
@IRR yay congrats!!
@StephieMK congrats! Thinking positive thoughts for you!!
@sammer818 and @Mrs.McIrish so close ladies
AFM not much going on. 26 wks today. Still fighting this terrible cough and overall I just don't feel well. My stomach just hurts. What's going to happen when I'm furthur along lol. Can't wait for my OB appt on Wed to see what can be done
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Today, a dream came true for my family We got our final embryo report and had our transfer. I am officially PUPO!!
We transferred two Grade A blastocysts. We have three blastocysts who are being frozen (Grade A, B, and B- ). There are a few more who may make it to freeze. We will find out by 9:00am tomorrow if there are anymore. We are over the moon!!! So happy and optimistic! Let the 2WW begin Beta is 11/24, and we plan to go beta or bust!!
On a business related note: I'm planning to post the new TPR check-in tomorrow with updates. Thanks for bearing with me these past few weeks, ladies! I had no idea that Dr. KK's protocol was going to be so intense. I literally haven't stopped running around for 7 weeks! If anyone wants to step in and be my back-up, then let me know. It'd be comforting & nice to share the responsibility around here.
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
@RunCC37 Awesome news! Hope your 2ww flies by!
Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL!
DD born July 10, 2015
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Trying for baby #2!
IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!