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reginaphilangeereginaphilangee member
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Good morning ladies! I hope you are all enjoying your Sunday's. I am home sick and thought I would spend my time on the Bump and have decided to intro over here. I recently started participating over in TTGP and have slowly started realizing that I never really processed my losses. There was so much going on in our lives that I tried to just get through as best I could. This past month I have been called off the bench (after over a year of NTTCR medical testing/procedures) and we were so excited to be given the green light! The one emotion I did not expect, however, was fear. I am consumed by it. These feelings are so conflicting and my losses happened a few years ago, so it is difficult sometimes to talk through it with DH. While waiting to O or while taking an HPT I feel so ambivalent, and then comes the guilt. So all of that to say I am here to give as much support and to learn from you ladies, though I wish none of us were here. 

I am looking forward to getting to know you all and am open to any and all questions! Lots of info in my siggy. 
Thanks so much for reading!

Oh right! A bit about myself: I am 27 and have CVID which basically means my immune system doesn't work so good. I also was diagnosed with AOE (Adult Onset Epilepsy) which doctors are thinking is a result of an infection in my brain (meningitis) when I was young. So thanks to occasional seizures I can't drive. I used to work as an after school director and taught ESOL in the public schools where I live in NW GA. I grew up over seas and speak three languages. I have 4 furbabies whom I adore. DH is a staff sargeant in the Marine Corps and coaches soccer when he is home. We were both jocks in college but are also both TOTAL nerds (love me some LOTR, Harry Potter). Phew....guess that's it. Thanks for reading! ;)

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(i really can spell but the stupid bump made me change my sn)

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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    I'm sorry for your losses. I think the fear is normal. I know personally I have felt the guilt and fear you speak of. Some days are worse than others. Welcome to the board. ((Hugs))

    Also- I love friends! Good choice.
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • EIsieMaeEIsieMae member
    I'm so sorry for your losses. I have definitely felt the fear and guilt while TTCAL. Its so tough. Welcome to the board :)
    BFP #1: 5-14-2010, DD born 1-22-2011
    BFP #2: 4-20-2012, Natural MC 5-1-2012
    BFP #3: 7-19-2012, DS born 3-27-2013
    BFP #4: 9-13-2014, MMC discovered 10-27-14 at 10w, d&c on 11-6-14 

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  • reginaphilangeereginaphilangee member
    P.S: sorry my siggy is total goatfuck. i'm working on it!

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  • rubysirubysi member
    Welcome I am sorry for your losses.

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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    I am sorry for your losses and medical issues.  The fear and guilt are some of the shitty things that come with TTCAL.  Welcome to this side.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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  • FutureMrsWright2012FutureMrsWright2012 member
    Sorry for your losses... I'm not quite ready to TTC, but I imagine I will have the same fears when I am. Hugs to you!
    TTCAL December Siggy Challenge: Autocorrect Fails
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    TTC since 3/2012 
    DH - 34; nml swimmers; Me - 34; sinking AMH (now 0.55), low AFC, nml FSH/LH 
    Clomid + IUI #1 (6/2013) - BFN; #2 (7/2013) - BFFN 
    Bonus info: me - low TNF, low vitamin D, borderline low IGF (all improving) 
    IVF (May/June2014) 5R/5F/2T (ET 6/11) - no frosties. 
    + HPT 8dp5dt. Beta #1 - 71(6/20). Beta #2 381 (6/24) 
    U/S 7/11 (one perfect little bean, HB 150's). EDD 3/1/2015
    Baby boy Lincoln Alexander's HB stopped at 18w and was delivered at 19w (10/3/2014)
    All testing normal/negative including normal chromosomes - no answers... D&C 11/20/2014
    IVF#2 coming in Spring 2015
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  • ctk181ctk181 member
    I'm so sorry for your losses. Welcome.
    Married: 4/28/12
    BFP: 7/2/14 ;  1st US 7/21/14 Baby measuring 7w5d, HB of 138;  Discovered MMC 8/18/14 at 11w2d, baby measuring 8w5d, no hb ; 8/19/14 D&C
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  • meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    I am sorry for your losses. Welcome.
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • jjbmstincojjbmstinco member
    Welcome to TTCAL!  I am sorry that you find yourself here. 

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    Married-1/2012
    TTC-8/2013   BFP-4/18/14  EDD: 12/29/12 MC-5/17/14 @ 7w4d
    BFP #2-11/13/14  EDD: 7/26/14  Beta #1: 11/14/13 (135 progesterone: 19.5)   Beta #2" 11/17/14 (733 ) 
    Hoping for good news!

    Everyone Welcome

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  • schuebjaschuebja member
    I'm sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.
    Together since April 2004.  Married since June 19th, 2010.
     BFP #1: January 31st 2012: CP. 
     BFP #2: June 1st 2012, Due:2/8/13. Avery was born via unplanned c section on 2/13/13. 
     BFP #3: Sept. 25th, 2014. Due: 6/5/15.  MMC on 10/23/14. Confirmed complete molar pregnancy per D&C 10/29/14, 
    HCG officially negative 12/10/14.  Benched until June 2015.
                                                        
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  • Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    I'm sorry for your losses but welcome!

    Glad to hear you're off the bench after a year. Your fear is pretty normal and it does suck :( FX to you!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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  • lovemybellaglovemybellag member
    Welcome and I'm sorry for your losses. Please don't let fear overcome you. It is very scary but we can't let fear stop us from trying. Good luck to you.

    me = 32  DH = 33

    TFAS  

    BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!

    Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility

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  • rmpar29rmpar29 member
    I'm very sorry for your losses and struggles, but welcome to the board.  (((HUGS)))
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS     6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
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  • mrspippmrspipp member
    I'm sorry for your losses. Welcome to the board. 

    PS. I'm an LSU fan, so good to see another lady from the SEC!
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  • lycihlycih member
    I'm sorry for your losses; welcome to the board


    ::The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar that even the ultimate fullfillment of that hope cannot fully erase:: Thomas Hardy

    BFP #1: 07/08/11  EDD: 03/22/12  Missed miscarriage @ 8w: 08/11/11, stopped growing @ 6w6d
    BFP #2: 03/26/12  EDD: 12/07/12  We have a HB at 7w!! (04/20/12)  CSD born 12/12/12 
    BFP #3: 08/05/14  Chemical Pregnancy at 4w3d 08/06/14
    BFP #4: 10/02/14  EDD: 06/10/15  Miscarriage at 6w6d 10/22/14




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