I can't express how much it's helped me to know I have a safe place to vent/reach out here. Last week, your love and support warmed my heart. Your suggestions helped, and I was able to get the groundwork started for a support group. I'm now in contact with several birthmoms. I often felt guilty posting here, like I prevented you all from having a "safe" place due to my presence. I know the other side is hard and painful, and I respect you all for your strength in what you've been through.
Also, I had an incredible visit Saturday. A wanted me to hold her even though she's now mobile, and laid her head on me and held my hand for over an hour. This relationship is magical. I'm not a second mom, nor have I ever wanted that. It's clear who Mom is, but I know that our relationship will benefit both of us through life- it's obviously already something she wants. Her mom and I talked hours while she napped, and she said how great it was to be able to process everything out loud with someone. It was HARD to get where we are, but we persisted and it paid off. I owe a lot of that to your encouragement.
Ok, enough gushy feelings!
Birthmom to A, 1/8- the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
A Journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. -Lao-Tzu