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jmicole1005

My husband and I lost our baby on October 17th, I was 7 weeks along. I had already started spotting the week before and the doctor started closely monitoring my HCG levels but they were going up and the doctor never acted concerned. On the 17th I had excruciating pain in my lower right ovary location and we went to the hospital.  I was bleeding more and they did an ultrasound and other tests but nothing came back alarming to them, at that point they just said it was a "threatened miscarriage". I went to the doctor last Tuesday, they did another ultrasound and there was nothing there. In my right ovary there was a cyst that they are concerned about.  I have been going back to get my blood tested until it goes all the way back down and I have to get another ultrasound to check on the cyst. I'm very frustrated because I found out after the fact that the doctor thought my progesterone levels were low the entire time.  Before we got pregnant I had to take clomid for low progesterone so I don't understand why that wasn't more closely monitored. My family has tried to be supportive but they are just missing the point or don't mention it at all. I just want to get involved in a group of women who support each other that I can relate with. I'm not sure when we'll start trying but I know it will be sooner rather than later because I am anxious to have a baby, but terrified at the same time.  

meredithcarole

I am sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board. Allow yourself time to heal, it can be very hard emotionally to walk this road and it sounds like you are missing a little support IRL. Have you been seeing an RE or an OB?

getnauti

Welcome.  So sorry for your loss.

flyoffeve

Welcome. I am so sorry for your loss. (Hugs)

kittymeowbark

I'm so sorry for your loss.Welcome to the board.

Elliecat17

Welcome and I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a great group of women!

ctk181

Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss.

rmpar29

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I would definitely question your doc and switch practices if you don't feel confidant with him.  ((((HUGS))))

lycih

So sorry for your loss; welcome

uromys

I'm sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.

welly01

I'm sorry for your loss.

Km380

I'm sorry for your loss. This is a great community to find support especially when irl is lacking. Welcome to the best place no one wants to be

tlc35

Welcome to the board. I am sorry for your loss.

Nikolie93

I'm sorry for your loss and welcome. I hope you find the support you are looking for here, I know I have.

rslh10

Welcome to the board. I am so sorry for your loss. 

jmicole1005

I am just seeing my OB now, but I've been very displeased with the practice so far.  Today when I got home I got a letter in the mail congratulating me on my pregnancy.... WTF?????? I confirmed with the dr three weeks ago and then confirmed a miscarriage last week.  I have an apt to check HCG in the morning so I'll definitely be taking that letter in and having words with them. 

My progesterone before getting pregnant was .6 and the highest during pregnancy was 7 and I was 6 weeks pregnant at the time.  It was taken the day of my miscarriage but before it happened. 

We haven't been trying long but I knew that I had a history of hypothyroidism and that's the only way we found out before getting pregnant about the low progesterone. I also have longer cycles which causes me to ovulate later than normal. 

This was a very stressful process from the second I got pregnant because I became worried about every little thing I ate or did. I already had issues with anxiety, depression and ADD so this just magnified everything for me. 

Does anyone else have any of these issues? I've already started taking my adderall mostly out of anger/frustration that this happened to me but also because I needed to get my brain to focus on something else.  I'm terrified of getting pregnant again and not being able to be on medication. 

Ok I think my vent/rant is over, thanks y'all!  

jjbmstinco

I am sorry for your loss.  Welcome to the board.

jmicole1005

Oh yeah that's another thing, I was taking melatonin to help me sleep but I had to stop that as well.... I haven't been sleeping well at all since the miscarriage... It's sometimes impossible to slow down my mind. 

stephy1221

I am sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board.

ellebelle2384

I'm sorry for your loss.  I hope you are able to have a good discussion with your doctor and come up with a plan for low progesterone.  FWIW I have been struggling with depression and worked with my therapist to find something that was safe for TTC and (hopefully one day) pregnancy.  I have been on Zoloft for the past month and a half and it has made a huge difference for me.  I would definitely recommend talking to your doctor or therapist about medication management to find something that helps your anxiety and ADD and is safe for TTC/pregnancy.

sfazar

Hi friend,

       I am sorry for your loss. My story is very similar--3 weeks of bleeding that began week 8. I knew something was wrong, but there were perfect heartbeats, and then a very painful loss. My doctor didn't monitor my progesterone levels at all, and I felt so helpless, although I was reporting the problems all along.  I said "never again" and left that practice.

      Since then, I have connected with an RE, who says that I have subclinical hypothyroidism (levels that are ok for people not TTC but potentially a problem for people who are).  I would really encourage you to find a doctor who is more proactive about your health, too.  Also, if you are in a big group, you might want to try a small or single doctor practice.  That's what mine is, and I don't feel like I get lost in the shuffle.

         As far as the emotional pain, I have been talking with a counselor and that has helped quite a bit. I also threw myself into activities that made me feel good (took ceramics, worked on my garden, started running again).  Just a few ideas

Sending good vibes!

alm288

I'm very sorry for your loss and lack of support. I do hope you find the support you are looking for here. Give yourself time to heal and start processing everything you have been through. Have you thought about using exercise, meditation, yoga - or something like that to help you sleep and slow down your racing mind? I've found them to be very helpful. Welcome

mustlovedogs63

I am so sorry for your loss. Mine is very recent too and I have had some issues with my Dr office as well. I think I will be looking for a new one and I hope you do too. Take care of yourself.

AnnaInman

So sorry for your loss.

bakerwoman1

Sorry for your loss.  Welcome!

jmicole1005

I got my blood taken again today.... I'm pretty sure I'll have yet another bruise, lol..... 

I haven't heard of that hypothyroidism for normal vs people trying to get pregnant thing, I'll look into it. I'm going to the dr on Thursday and it's one of the dr's I've met and liked so hopefully good will come of it or I'll have to start looking for another practice. According to her bio at the office she does deal with high risk pregnancy's and while I'm not there yet I want a dr who's going to be more aware and sensitive to all of this with me.

I also have an apt with my trainer on Thursday to get back into working out more, I want to get back into that habit of working out because it does help me deal with anxiety etc, and I'm still a little overweight and I know that will also help when it comes time for me to be pregnant again. 

Thank you all for your support and kind words! 

Cheetara2

Sorry for your loss. Welcome!