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smfeurosmfeuro member
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Hi everyone...

So I'm finally ready to jump back into the bump community after suffering a loss with my first BFP ever back in August. I was having light spotting throughout the whole pregnancy, I was told spotting was normal and after seeing the heartbeat on an early ultrasound (7 weeks) I felt better but at 10 weeks my husband and I spent the night in the emergency room and I was deffinitely miscarrying naturally. There was no need for a D&C. We have passed the two cycle mark even though AF was really weird (only 21 days apart and 3 days long) and were given the go-ahead to start trying again but I think DH is scared that itll happen again and frankly so am I. 
The worst thing about it is one of my really good friends that I work with is also pregnant and she was only a month ahead of me. I see her all the time and she tells me all the things about her pregnancy and I'm very happy for her and at the same time I want her to shut up, and I've told her that once. I don't think people know how to be sensitive to things like that. She even told me once "at least you didnt see the heartbeat before you lost it..." uh yes I did. Thanks. But at the same time I'm watching her through her pregnancy and where we work (standing all day 10 hours a day sometimes) and as much as I want to be pregnant again and have a baby I don't want to do it where I work. Its a big conundrum. 

Wow, thats a long intro sorry. Nice to meet you all!!! See you around the boards

Me: 30
Hubs: 31
Married: 05/04/2013
BFP#1: Natural Loss; 8/12/14
BFP#2: D&C 3/7/15
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  • Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    Welcome and I'm so sorry for your loss. I think it's pretty normal to be cautious and a bit nervous when trying again when you have a loss, especially a recent one.

    It must be hard to work with your good friend thats pregnant. If she's your good friend she should understand to watch what she says after you tell her once. If she continues than I am not quite sure she's a "good" friend.

    I hope you get the support you need here but I hope you don't have to stay here long!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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  • TashaCNTashaCN member
    So sorry for you loss. I also am a newbie here. I hate the "at least...(whatever they say in an attempt to make you feel better)" comments. No "at least..." makes the very real experience and emotional pain any less. 

    I hope you feel comforted by joining in this board. Take care. 
     Me: 30, DH: 30. Dating since 2007- Married: 5/18/13. 
    BFP: 9/3/14, Found out we had triplets 10/10/14,  EDD: 5/14/15, Confirmed MMC: 10/14/14. D&C: 10/16/14.
    Formerly TashaCN and wonderigwhatmyfutureholds

    All AL welcome. 
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  • ImJessesGirlImJessesGirl member
    First, welcome aboard and so sorry for your loss. I think we all can relate to the feelings you described. I also have friends and acquaintances that are pregnant, one due right around the time I was. It is so hard watching them experience the things we were so looking forward to. It has nothing to do with her, so much, but just the reminder of what I won't have. Hugs!
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    Me: 33 DH: 31
    DD: 10 (born August 2004)
    Married 03/01/14
    TTC#2
    BFP: 05/17/2014 EDD: 1/25/15 MMC: 06/30/2014
    BFP: 01/31/15 MMC: 02/25/15 





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  • ctk181ctk181 member
    Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Married: 4/28/12
    BFP: 7/2/14 ;  1st US 7/21/14 Baby measuring 7w5d, HB of 138;  Discovered MMC 8/18/14 at 11w2d, baby measuring 8w5d, no hb ; 8/19/14 D&C
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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    Welcome to the board. I am sorry for your loss.
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • FutureMrsWright2012FutureMrsWright2012 member
    Sorry for your loss and that you find yourself here. I hope things get better with your friend. My SIL is due 6 weeks before I should have had my little boy. I haven't even been able to talk to (let alone see her) since my loss a few weeks ago, so I completely understand your mixed feelings. GL to you moving forward. 
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    TTC since 3/2012 
    DH - 34; nml swimmers; Me - 34; sinking AMH (now 0.55), low AFC, nml FSH/LH 
    Clomid + IUI #1 (6/2013) - BFN; #2 (7/2013) - BFFN 
    Bonus info: me - low TNF, low vitamin D, borderline low IGF (all improving) 
    IVF (May/June2014) 5R/5F/2T (ET 6/11) - no frosties. 
    + HPT 8dp5dt. Beta #1 - 71(6/20). Beta #2 381 (6/24) 
    U/S 7/11 (one perfect little bean, HB 150's). EDD 3/1/2015
    Baby boy Lincoln Alexander's HB stopped at 18w and was delivered at 19w (10/3/2014)
    All testing normal/negative including normal chromosomes - no answers... D&C 11/20/2014
    IVF#2 coming in Spring 2015
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  • rubysirubysi member
    Welcome I am sorry for your loss. I got to watch a coworker complete her pregnancy and she had it 3 days before my due date...it was not fun.

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  • Elliecat17Elliecat17 member
    Welcome to the board and I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Me: 24 
    DH: 25
    BFP: 1/12/14       EDD: 9/18/14     MC: 1/15/14
    BFP: 5/6/14         EDD: 1/5/15       MC: 5/10/14
    BFP: 12/29/14      EDD: 9/12/15      MC: 1/5/15
    Dx: PCOS - 8/20/14, Hashimoto's - 10/10/14, Gluten Allergy 10/10/14


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  • meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    Welcome. I am sorry for your loss. It does sound like your friend is being insensitive. Don't feel badly about setting boundaries (i.e "please don't discuss anything pregnancy related with me for the moment, I am finding it very difficult right now"). If she cannot respect that then she is not being a good friend. What is your profession that you are standing 10 hours a day? Mine (chef) has me on my feet quite a bit, too.
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • uromysuromys member
    Welcome. I'm sorry for your loss.

    DH & I are both 28    Together: 12 years    Married: 09/24/2011

    BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012

    Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12

    BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20

    BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15

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  • MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d      
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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  • AnnaInmanAnnaInman member
    So sorry for your loss. I would be so upset if my friend said that to me about the heartbeat. I know it's really hard having a friend that is pregnant around and hearing her talk about it.Welcome to the board.
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  • jjbmstincojjbmstinco member
    I am sorry for your loss.  Welcome to the board.

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    Married-1/2012
    TTC-8/2013   BFP-4/18/14  EDD: 12/29/12 MC-5/17/14 @ 7w4d
    BFP #2-11/13/14  EDD: 7/26/14  Beta #1: 11/14/13 (135 progesterone: 19.5)   Beta #2" 11/17/14 (733 ) 
    Hoping for good news!

    Everyone Welcome

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  • mustlovedogs63mustlovedogs63 member
    I am so sorry for your loss. Welcome
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  • lovemybellaglovemybellag member
    I'm sorry for your loss. It's hard when we have others close to us who are pregnant. I hope she can be more understanding of the situation.

    me = 32  DH = 33

    TFAS  

    BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!

    Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility

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  • kyliehopefulkyliehopeful member
    I'm sorry for your loss. It must be so hard hearing her stories. I'm still finding it hard myself being around other pregnant friends, family. The jealousy is horrible and I hate myself for feeling it.
    Married to a wonderful man

    TTC since 2001

    4 losses - last one in september 2014 (9 weeks - male trisomy 15)

    High FSH and low ovarian reserve

    Ever hopeful that one day my dreams will come true
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  • stephy1221stephy1221 member
    Welcome, i am sorry for your loss,
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    BFP 1/17/15 * EDD 9/30/15

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  • rmpar29rmpar29 member
    I'm very sorry for your loss and for your friend's insensitivity.  Welcome to the board and I hope that you find the comfort and support that you are looking for here.   ((((HUGS))))
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS     6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
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  • welly01welly01 member
    I'm sorry for your loss.  I'm dealing with a coworker who was 1 week ahead of me.  It sucks.
                                                                                              BFP #1 3/2/12, T born 11/7/12
                                                                                                 BFP #2  7/2/14, CP 7/6/14
                                 BFP #3 8/28/14, MMC 10/2/14 @ 9wks - misoprostol 10/6/14, D&C 11/3/14 for retained tissue
                                       BFP #4 12/25/14, EDD 9/7/15 - please stick baby, you are so loved and wanted!!!!!                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                   
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