*~September Sapphires Check-In~* (Oct. 22)

MyFirstRaspberry

*Warning: BFP below*

This is an open check-in for those with a loss of a LO and/or EDD in September of any year.

~NEW MEMBERS~ If you are new with a recent loss, welcome and (((hugs))). I’m so sorry for your loss and that you find yourself here but I hope you’ll find that this is an amazing place to give & receive love and support. Please introduce yourself and be sure to include your loss/EDD to be added to the list.

~CURRENT MEMBERS~ Happy Wednesday ladies! (((hugs))) to all who need them!

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~RECENT GRADUATES~ If you have gotten your BFP and have graduated, congratulations and have a H&H 9 months! Please PM me the great news as it is sometimes very difficult for me to check PgAL. If you get your BFP after the check-in is posted, then I will add it to next week’s check-in.

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Members:        

anglndsguse44         9/03/2014

zapgurl44                   9/04/2014

QuigleyCat1               9/07/2012

megrae12                  loss 9/09/13

MyFirstRaspberry     9/09/2013

natsfans84                9/10/2013

CallaLily30                 9/18/2013

jenn0021                    9/25/2011

Flowerstar1023         9/26/2014

Graceanne927          9/27/2014

MelissaL124              9/27/2014

ashlee113085            9/28/2014

eliida                         9/29/2014

LauraO11                   9/2014

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If you don’t see your name below, it just means that we missed you last week. No worries, just give us an update.

@CallaLily30  - ((hugs)) How are you doing lady?

@eliida –  I’m glad you have an appt with the new Doc in Nov. Are you compiling a list of questions for the new Doctor?  Any leads on the job front?

@LauraO11  -  Another week until your OB appt to discuss surgical options for the fibroid, right? How is the fibroid shrinking meds treating you?

@ashlee113085  - Did you have the u/s done to check on the fibroids this week? How is the 2ww treating you? How is the program at work shaping up?

@megrae12 – Looks like you are a couple of DPO ahead of me! Sending calming 2ww vibes to the both of us. How is the family situation treating you?

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UPDATE: Update us on appointments, cycle days, struggles, successes, non-TTCAL news and everything else in between.
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QOTW In the name of Halloween, would you rather walk through a graveyard at midnight or spend the night in a spooky, abandoned house? *********************************************************************

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Congrats and best wishes to @superwife425       

eliida

Hi @MyFirstRaspberry, thanks for the check-in. Hope everyone is doing well this week.

I'm actually getting pretty excited to see the new doctor. My list hasn't gotten too obnoxious yet, but I have plenty of time.

As far as the job hunt goes, I'm taking my time with it. Since my contract ended--thus sending us back to the States--a few weeks before my EDD, I had planned on being a SAHM for a bit. I had a really difficult time letting go of this. I feel fine with it now, but I am definitely behind. I had a promising conversation with a former employer last week, so we'll see.

ETA- QOTW: I'd rather walk through a graveyard at midnight--no question about it.

megrae12

Thanks for the check, Ras. How are you? 

AFM: This 2ww is already killing me. I think it may be because I am crazy cause of MIL. I dunno. But the trigger is really effecting me this time around and I am not happy about it. I am hoping MIL will be out after next week. 

[-O<

On a crappier note, mom got put back in the hospital yesterday. I am not happy and already feel a tear in the one thread holding me together. 

QOTW: Walk through a graveyard, no contest. 

@eliida Good luck with the new doc. I hope you find a new job. I know how are hard it is. I have been looking for something new for almost a year. 

MyFirstRaspberry

eliida said:

Hi @MyFirstRaspberry, thanks for the check-in. Hope everyone is doing well this week.

I'm actually getting pretty excited to see the new doctor. My list hasn't gotten too obnoxious yet, but I have plenty of time.

As far as the job hunt goes, I'm taking my time with it. Since my contract ended--thus sending us back to the States--a few weeks before my EDD, I had planned on being a SAHM for a bit. I had a really difficult time letting go of this. I feel fine with it now, but I am definitely behind. I had a promising conversation with a former employer last week, so we'll see.

ETA- QOTW: I'd rather walk through a graveyard at midnight--no question about it.

@eliida

I am glad to hear you are looking forward to your upcoming doctor appt. I totally understand what what you mean about having to change what you had planned. It is a really difficult thing to do - to change your mind and come to grips with that. Sending you some extra ((hugs)) to help lift you spirits.

MyFirstRaspberry

megrae12 said:

Thanks for the check, Ras. How are you? 

AFM: This 2ww is already killing me. I think it may be because I am crazy cause of MIL. I dunno. But the trigger is really effecting me this time around and I am not happy about it. I am hoping MIL will be out after next week. 

[-O<

On a crappier note, mom got put back in the hospital yesterday. I am not happy and already feel a tear in the one thread holding me together. 

QOTW: Walk through a graveyard, no contest. 

@eliida Good luck with the new doc. I hope you find a new job. I know how are hard it is. I have been looking for something new for almost a year. 

@megrae12 I am so very sorry to hear the trigger if giving you a hard time. Such a MF!  I'm sending you ((hugs)) for your mom. I really hope the doctors can help her. I can feel how stressed out you are (via creepy internet vibes) so I am sending you some calming vibes in return. If you need to chat/vent/scream about anything at all, PM me.

CallaLily30

Hi Sapphires!  I'm sorry I've been so MIA lately but life has been crazy hectic.  In the midst of recovering from my OHSS from my latest egg retrieval last week, DH and I both got offered awesome job opportunties.  However, it would mean temporary relocation.  So we are scrambling to see if we can make arrangements for a living situation that would be able to accomodate us and our puppy (because I can't leave her for a few months), a schedule that is flexible enough to accomodate RE appts and semi frequent trips home to stay with the same practice, dealing with our house that is currently in a state of renovation, etc.  We have to make a decision soon too!  Very stressful but exciting also!

In other good news, we wound up with 20 penguins from our last ER.  We won't get the PGD results for another week and a half but hopefully there are a few good ones in there.  We are assuming this was our last retrieval now unless something crazy happens like all the embryos are abnormal.  The OHSS was definitely worth it for the results we got.  I'm finally back and work and feeling much better.  Now we are back to waiting for PGD results and my cycle to return!

QOTW:  I think walk through a spooky graveyard but that's a tough one.  I don't like the thought of being confined in a creepy house.  At least, there is open space to run away in a graveyard!

MyFirstRaspberry

CallaLily30 said:

Hi Sapphires!  I'm sorry I've been so MIA lately but life has been crazy hectic.  In the midst of recovering from my OHSS from my latest egg retrieval last week, DH and I both got offered awesome job opportunties.  However, it would mean temporary relocation.  So we are scrambling to see if we can make arrangements for a living situation that would be able to accomodate us and our puppy (because I can't leave her for a few months), a schedule that is flexible enough to accomodate RE appts and semi frequent trips home to stay with the same practice, dealing with our house that is currently in a state of renovation, etc.  We have to make a decision soon too!  Very stressful but exciting also!

In other good news, we wound up with 20 penguins from our last ER.  We won't get the PGD results for another week and a half but hopefully there are a few good ones in there.  We are assuming this was our last retrieval now unless something crazy happens like all the embryos are abnormal.  The OHSS was definitely worth it for the results we got.  I'm finally back and work and feeling much better.  Now we are back to waiting for PGD results and my cycle to return!

QOTW:  I think walk through a spooky graveyard but that's a tough one.  I don't like the thought of being confined in a creepy house.  At least, there is open space to run away in a graveyard!

@CallaLily30 - as I mentioned in the ML check-in, I'm so sorry about OHSS. I'm glad to hear you are feeling better.  How exciting about the new job opportunities!  Would you be relocating far from where you are today? My FX that your 20 penguins stay safe and sound for your FET.

ashlee113085

Hey thanks for the check-in @MyFirstRaspberry! How's it going for you?

I have actually not been overanalyzing the 2ww this cycle, but now I'm pretty sure that this cycle was a bust anyway. I had my u/s this morning, and the good news is that she found a few fibroids but all of them were so small she almost didn't even want to measure them. She also looked around, saw that I did indeed ovulate this cycle. She was even able to see a bunch of follicles that are just waiting to mature and be released so that was kind of fun. However, she noticed that my uterine lining is pretty thin. She said that it was at about 6.7mm, then she said it should be much thicker for someone about to start her period. So...even though I'm ovulating, I'm timing dtd, I'm taking care of myself, etc my lining is a concern. I keep thinking that it's because I probably have some scarring from the d&e that I had in May because the thin lining paired with the bad O cramps I feel like it has to be the issue. It's also difficult when the u/s tech says things like "at least you know you can get pregnant," and "you really haven't been trying that long." To which I said, "yeah but having a loss is not exactly making this a situation where I am taking comfort in those two things." *Sigh* I am grateful that things look okay for the most part, but I'm pissed at my body just in general. Pissed at people that try to find a "silver lining" in my loss. Pissed at myself for not being able to move past these feelings and not being able to be positive. My doctor wasn't in the office today, so she wasn't able to come and see me, but I expect she will call on Monday. DH is taking me on an impromptu trip to Memphis just to get away this weekend, so hopefully that can take my mind off things as I wait for AF to show, probably on Wednesday. 

QOTW: I would love to spend the night in a spooky, abandoned house! 

ashlee113085

@eliida good luck with the job hunt! I hope that you get some leads from your  meeting with your former employer!

@megrae12 So sorry to hear that your mom is back in the hospital. Thinking of your family and sending ((hugs)). 

@CallaLily30 FX for you!

MyFirstRaspberry

ashlee113085 said:

Hey thanks for the check-in @MyFirstRaspberry! How's it going for you?

I have actually not been overanalyzing the 2ww this cycle, but now I'm pretty sure that this cycle was a bust anyway. I had my u/s this morning, and the good news is that she found a few fibroids but all of them were so small she almost didn't even want to measure them. She also looked around, saw that I did indeed ovulate this cycle. She was even able to see a bunch of follicles that are just waiting to mature and be released so that was kind of fun. However, she noticed that my uterine lining is pretty thin. She said that it was at about 6.7mm, then she said it should be much thicker for someone about to start her period. So...even though I'm ovulating, I'm timing dtd, I'm taking care of myself, etc my lining is a concern. I keep thinking that it's because I probably have some scarring from the d&e that I had in May because the thin lining paired with the bad O cramps I feel like it has to be the issue. It's also difficult when the u/s tech says things like "at least you know you can get pregnant," and "you really haven't been trying that long." To which I said, "yeah but having a loss is not exactly making this a situation where I am taking comfort in those two things." *Sigh* I am grateful that things look okay for the most part, but I'm pissed at my body just in general. Pissed at people that try to find a "silver lining" in my loss. Pissed at myself for not being able to move past these feelings and not being able to be positive. My doctor wasn't in the office today, so she wasn't able to come and see me, but I expect she will call on Monday. DH is taking me on an impromptu trip to Memphis just to get away this weekend, so hopefully that can take my mind off things as I wait for AF to show, probably on Wednesday. 

QOTW: I would love to spend the night in a spooky, abandoned house! 

@ashlee113085

Sorry to hear that your lining is not adequate this cycle. Some times I think about the things that have to be just right for a pregnancy to happen. Its hard to believe conceiving is easy for the vast majority of the population!

Total TP to the nurse for the attempt to make you feel better with "silver lining" comments. Those are not helpful at all.

I too am a bachelorette this weekend. MH is out of town as well.

eliida

@megrae12 I'm so sorry that your mother is back in the hospital. Thinking of you. ((HUGS))

@CallaLily30 Congratulations on the new opportunity! I hope you and YH are able to work all the details out. Glad to hear that you are starting to feel better after the OHSS. I'm sorry that you had to go through that. FX for your penguins.

@ashlee113085 How's Memphis? Hope you're having a wonderful (and distracting) time. TP to that nurse. I know what you mean about feeling upset about being upset. I struggle with that, too. ((HUGS))

@MyFirstRaspberry Any big plans having the place to yourself this weekend?