Having a hard time

lovemybellag

Ladies, I'm sorry to post but I can't talk about this with anyone on RL. I don't have that many friends anymore and those that I do I don't feel comfortable talking about this with them. After my m/c last month I am undergoing root canal which may need extraction anyway, my husband is still dealing with an infection in his sperm and we have had a few issues with medical bills. This month has been hard and I have not been sleeping well so have not been able to temp every morning. We will find out more about my root canal and DHs infection next week - hopefully good news! We had sex this weekend even though we did not have results of DHs sperm culture yet to see if infection cleared. We have infertility (see siggy) and we are concerned about how long it may take to get pregnant again. I cried after sex on Sunday. I was overwhelmed with emotions after the mc and as well emotional over trying again. I am ready and want nothing more than to be pregnant again as I'm sure we all do. Last night we tried again but I had no cervical fluid and it hurt so we had to stop. My opks were positive the last two days. Since I have missing temps not sure if I o'd yet or not. I am upset that I am lacking cm after having it so well the last few months. I had it especially well the month we conceived. I'm not sure what is going on and there are so many things happening that I just wish TTC could be easier. I'm sorry this is so long....I'm just nervous that I missed my ovulation or that now it's going to be dry cm each month which will be bad for our TTC. I had little CM for years and was so happy to have good cm as of late. I wish I could know if I did ovulate already. Hopefully things will be ok and we will get good news soon. I think all of this as well as lack of sleep is getting me emotional and overwhelmed. Thank you for reading.

lovemybellag

We do have pressed. It helps but last time we put it on and it was still dry and uncomfortable for me. Maybe too much stress. Hopefully will be better soon.

mflowers929

I'm sorry you're having so much stress. I know how frustrating it can be to have people say "just relax", so I'll just offer big squishy internet hugs. We're here to support each other no matter what, so don't ever worry about off loading on us

ctk181

I'm so sorry for all that you are going through. This whole process can be so stressful. I think @jj32 gave you great advice on using Preseed and also making sure to stay hydrated. I sometimes have issues with CM if I'm not drinking enough water throughout the day. Big hugs to you. I hope you get good news from your husband's doctor and your dentist next week.  

ellebelle2384

I'm sorry. That's a lot to deal with at once. I hope things calm down soon and I think PPs have given some good suggestions on preseed and staying hydrated.

lovemybellag

Thank you to all of you. It helps hearing your advice. It's hard when you don't have anyone to talk to this about IRL. DH helps but he believes that it will happen if it's meant to happen. I am more if a worrier! Hugs to you all. I've never been on such a supportive board. You are are truly appreciated!

lovemybellag

To make matters worse I now have the worst migraine and head cold. Haha....this too shall pass. In the grand scheme of things this is the last of my worries

Nikolie93

Sounds like a really bad time all around for you. It's good that you're sharing. I do agree with what someone above mentioned regarding counseling. It may be something to look into.

MH is very supportive but I find myself holding back on talking to him about things every single time something bothers me. He's like most guys, he wants to fix things and I hate adding stress to him.

Good luck and I hope you find the support you're looking for here!

lovemybellag

I hear what you are all saying. Thank you. I was told by my OBGYN to try again after one period which I had. I was told by the RE to wait until we see their urologist and get results of culture before they will do any medicated cycles. We are seeing their RE urologist next week. New saw another urologist from a different group for an emergency visit and he told us the infection was nothing to worry about whereas the re clinic said it was. Will out more next week. Thank you ladies.