I hate to be meeting you all under these circumstances. I've been lurking since I found out last Tuesday that I was no longer pregnant. I was 5 1/2 weeks and I am just devastated. We knew before doing the IUI that my tubes were more narrow in some places but we were hoping that the baby would make it through. When they found the baby in my tubes I felt (and still do) that my body betrayed me, that I trapped my own baby. I know rationally that there's nothing I could have done to prevent this but this pain is almost unbearable. I am inconsolable and I can't bear to speak about it with anyone out loud. The nights have become the worst for me, I can't go to bed unless I've exhausted myself because if I lay there in the dark, before where I would talk to my baby, I now feel haunted and empty. Like I said, I hate to be meeting under these circumstances but I know I need to be here with people who have gone through this.
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