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TTC After a Loss
FutureMrsWright2012
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***siggy warning***
Another intro :(
FutureMrsWright2012
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I was going to wait until next week's "TTCAL Newbie Check-In" to intro, but I'm having a rough day so here I am... I apologize in advance for this being so long. My H and I are now both 34 and married since 4/2012. We started TTC just prior to our wedding, but I have been off BC since July 2010 after it was discovered that I had a hepatic adenoma, felt to be caused by prolonged use of BC. Thankfully, we found it before TTC because pregnancy and hepatic adenomas don't mix.
After a year of TTC with no luck, DH and I started seeing an RE. I was diagnosed with DOR (AMH 0.76 in 4/2013) but all the rest of our testing at that time was normal. Two tries with Clomid and IUI were unsuccessful. A year later, we moved on to a new RE. There, we learned that my TNF and IGF were low and my AMH had dropped to 0.55. RE worked with me on getting the TNF and IGF normalized, and we moved on to IVF. Luckily, our first (and only so far) IVF cycle was a success. We were in shock and nervous about getting too excited... Until the 1st trimester ended. Then, we felt like this really was going to happen.
At 18 weeks 5 days, I had my routine OB check-up... worst. day. of. my. life. I found out that our precious baby boy's HB had stopped sometime in the days before. We decided to move forward with induction and delivery, so that we would at least have a chance to briefly hold our little guy, Lincoln Alexander. I delivered him when I should have been 19 weeks pregnant... 2 weeks ago today.
These past two weeks have almost been unbearable... and Fridays are the worst. He was conceived on a Friday and delivered on a Friday... Every Friday morning, we would read about how big he was getting and what he was doing hanging out in my womb. I know that we want to keep trying, but I am scared to death of this ever happening again... I don't know how I would survive.
I have been lurking on here the past week or so, and I am so amazed by the strength of so many of you ladies. I truly hope it can rub off on me. I felt so sorry for myself just dealing with IF and now to have a loss on top of it feels impossible to move on.
I look forward to getting to know you amazing women and supporting each other on this journey. Thank you for reading if you made it to the end.
TTCAL December Siggy Challenge: Autocorrect Fails
TTC since 3/2012
DH - 34; nml swimmers; Me - 34; sinking AMH (now 0.55), low AFC, nml FSH/LH
Clomid + IUI #1 (6/2013) - BFN; #2 (7/2013) - BFFN
Bonus info: me - low TNF, low vitamin D, borderline low IGF (all improving)
IVF (May/June2014) 5R/5F/2T (ET 6/11) - no frosties.
+ HPT 8dp5dt. Beta #1 - 71(6/20). Beta #2 381 (6/24)
U/S 7/11 (one perfect little bean, HB 150's). EDD 3/1/2015
Baby boy Lincoln Alexander's HB stopped at 18w and was delivered at 19w (10/3/2014)
All testing normal/negative including normal chromosomes - no answers... D&C 11/20/2014
IVF#2 coming in Spring 2015
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Re: Another intro :(
DD 15.07.2012
BFP #2 01.18.2014, MMC 04.10.2014 15w5d
BFP #3 07.18.2014, MC 07.31.2014 5w6d
DX: RPL due to submucosal uterine fibroid. Hysteroscopy 12/16. All clear!
Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
Naked push-up foreplay pioneer
DH & I are both 28 Together: 12 years Married: 09/24/2011
BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012
Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12
BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20
BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15
TTC since 2012
BFP#1~ EDD: 06/21/2014 ~ TFMR --Holoprosencephaly
Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
My Chart
***Siggy Warning - loss mentioned***
*S15 Siggy January Siggy Challenge - Happy Dance*
ME: 32 DH: 38
BFP#1 - 7/18/14; EDD 3/23/14; MMC 8/11/14 (passed naturally on 8/17/14)
BFP#2 - 12/29/14; EDD 9/10/15 *PLEASE BE OUR RAINBOW!*
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
Welcome
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
me = 32 DH = 33
TFAS
BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Me (34); DH (35)
BFP 11/25/13; Heard strong heartbeats for 3 weeks; Natural MC (1/15/14)
BFP 11/11/14 EDD 07/21/15 hoping for our rainbow!