TTA check in 10/16

skategirl128

Welcome to the TTA Check in!! This is for anyone who is TTA (trying to avoid), no matter for how long. The check in will be weekly. If you are new, we are sorry you're here and we hope that your stay is short. We have a variety of wait times so please feel free to join. Post an intro and tell us why you are TTA and for how long. It can be waiting on the 1st AF, waiting months, waiting on labs, recovering from surgery, personal reasons, etc. You are more than welcome to join for any reason why you are TTA. Please let me know if you would like to be added or if your information below is incorrect. As the months come to an end, members will be removed. If your TTA has been extended, please let me know. When you are burning the bench unexpectedly, let me know too! *****************************************************
If I removed you in error, please let me know!
★☆★ TTA List ★☆★ @AggieBeth06 Indefinitely
@this+gamer+chick April 2015 @skategirl128 indefinitely for personal reasons
@Soulbyte‌ April 2015
@amybunny30
@rmpar29 until nov
@cheesypeas
@jms627 December 2014
@ctk181
@lauraneedscoffee nov 2014
@lauraO11
@forevermyfenix
@petitchou1019
@swmcfarland 3 months
@mrskelly731 3 months

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Any updates from the week?

What was the high/low of the week?

Any TTA related frustrations?

Anything that you're looking forward to this week?

QOTW: post anything positive

Big hugs ladies! I'm here if you need me anytime

skategirl128

Any updates from the week?
Nothing really. I got my porch and house decorated for Halloween. This basically means I have a couple pumpkins out and we put a flying witch on our ceiling fan. I also made a huge batch of pumpkin cookies.

What was the high/low of the week?
High- I met @rmpar29‌ she is lovely!
Low- I got stung by a bee and had an anaphalaxic reaction yesterday to make it worse that bee stung me on my neck

Any TTA related frustrations?
No Migraines this week

Anything that you're looking forward to this week?
Just enjoying the last little bit of decent weather.

QOTW- I continue to try to find the good in all of my days. Despite the sting yesterday I am so glad I got to see views like these!

rmpar29

@skategirl128 - a bee sting, anaphalaxic shock?  OMG, are you OK?

Any updates from the week? DH finally got in to see a doc, which I've been trying to get him to do for years for a particular issue (not TTCAL-related).  He has a diagnosis and is starting meds today.  I just hope that the meds don't have a negative impact on other areas needed for TTC.  We shall see.

What was the high/low of the week? High - meeting @skategirl128!  We had so much to talk about and I think we could've sat there all day.  Low - Had a really hard time yesterday.  Was constantly on the verge of tears from hearing others struggling and recalling my struggles.  Just a raw, emotional day. 

Any TTA related frustrations? None

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? My birthday on Sat.  DH has some plans for us and I can't wait!

QOTW: post anything positive  Something positive...although my company is not doing well and my boss got laid off last week, I still have a job. 

ctk181

@skategirl128 - Sorry about your bee sting and allergic reaction! That sounds horrible. I'm jealous that you got your house decorated for Halloween. I keep saying I'm going to do it and never get around to it! Maybe this weekend...

@rmpar29 - Glad your H got into the doc and is on meds! Men can be so stubborn about getting to the doctor. I've been trying to get my H in to see one for about a year! I agree, yesterday was a rough day, it was so heartbreaking reading others' stories and thinking of my own. But I think the awareness is a great thing. Happy early bday! Hope it is great!

AFM,

Any updates from the week? Today is CD1 for me, so this will be my last TTA check in, we are officially burning the bench and TTC this cycle. I'm excited and so, so scared.

 

What was the high/low of the week? High - finding a new OB who I really like and making a plan for the future if I get a BFP. Low - Just work in general. Also, this whole getting dark at 6pm thing is bringing me down.

Any TTA related frustrations? None.

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? Carving pumpkins this weekend with DH and maybe finally putting up some Halloween decos!

QOTW: The weather last night was perfect and it was beautiful taking a walk through the leaves with my pups!

rmpar29

@ctk181 - Congrats on burning that bench.  Good luck to you hon and I hope to be joining you soon. 

ImJessesGirl

Guess I can sit at y'alls table for a little while longer. One more month of TTA!!

Any updates from the week? just started temping again since AF came back. Finally! That bitch took forever to get back from vacay!

What was the high/low of the week?  ummmm I am still reeling from receiving the sample diaper in the mail with the super-sentimental packaging. That stung really bad. The high would be my job. I really do love what I do!!

Any TTA related frustrations? I guess just impatience... I am so ready for this time to fly by.

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? It's Homecoming week at my school, and the parade is tonight, and I'll be riding with my cheerleaders. Then the pep rally is tomorrow, as is the game. Fun times!

QOTW: post anything positive

"Do not get upset with people or situations, both are powerless without your reaction."

purplehaze11

Thank you for the check in. I'm on my iPad, so my formatting is probably wonky. Update: I met with my OB who recommends that I go on medication to shrink the fibroid for 3 months then ttc again. I'm pretty uneasy with this plan, as the fibroid will start growing as soon as I stop the meds, so I'm getting a second opinion in a couple of weeks to look at removal. Going on medication in the meantime to shrink or at least stop the fibroid from growing. No sign of leaving the bench anytime soon

forevermyfenix

Hi ladies! Just letting you know I'll be on in a few hours to respond. Thinking of you all today! At least for me, this post Oct 15th day feels like an emotional hangover. Be back later on today to see how everyone is doing!

mrskelly731

Any updates from the week? Not really - emotionally I feel like I'm doing much better - yesterday was a bit rough with it being 10/15 and reading different posts, but I'm doing good.

What was the high/low of the week? High of the week is my boss has been out of town...she's a piece of work.  Low has been I have been getting BabyCenter emails for a long time now.  I never have even signed up.  I'd get them every few weeks - even throughout my 2 years TTC.  I've gone in every once in a while (I think I've tried 3 times) to unsubscribe and it tells me I'm not a member.  So frustrating.  It's like on a loop for the babies 1st year and feels like a punch in the gut every time I see it....got another one yesterday...

Any TTA related frustrations? Not really - We didn't tell many people about this pregnancy/miscarriage so we get a lot of "When are you having a baby!?" Especially from my Dad's side of the family - they remind us that they are not getting any younger...

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? Taking family pictures on Sunday and going to the pumpkin patch. 

skategirl128

@rmpar29‌ I think we could've sat there all day! So much fun! Have fun on your birthday!

@ctk181‌ yay for burning the bench!

@ImJessesGirl‌ I'm sorry to hear you'll be here longer but at least you have us ladies. Big hugs though!

@LauraO11‌ I would be getting a second opinion too. I hope you can find another solution! Big hugs! I'm here if you need me!

@mrskelly731‌ I hate those babycenter emails! Glad to hear your doing better emotionally.

jms627

@skategirl128 - thanks for the check in!

Any updates from the week? - Nah.  Boring, haha.

What was the high/low of the week? - Finally started feeling a little better mentally.  In the last few weeks my anxiety has sky rocketed.  I've sort of stepped back from the forums and facebook, and the internet in general a little, to help clear my head.  I've still been lurking though

Any TTA related frustrations? - Nope!

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? - Having a nice low key weekend with the SO

QOTW - Loving this fall weather so much!

Sorry this a quick post and run - hope all you ladies are doing well.

forevermyfenix

Hi girls, sorry for not getting back yesterday. It was sorta emotional and I was exhausted by the time I finally got settled down. Yesterday when I got home, I found that my weighted Heart to Hold that weighs the same as Fenix. It's beautiful and I love it, and just feeling the weight in my arms - I can't describe it. Bittersweet I guess. Fenix's urn also arrived, but it shipped to my in-laws house so had to go there to get it and we all cried over his pictures and the urn. The urn is beautiful and perfectly fitting. It's a statue of a mom and dad holding their baby, so it looks more like those Willow Tree statues than an urn. Once we got home from the in-laws DH and I had a long talk about Fenix and whether we'd be ready to TTC in Jan/Feb. It was nice that we were both able to openly share with each other. We're still thinking Jan/Feb is going to be the timeframe for us, pending how soon I can knock out these internship hours.  What was the high/low of the week? The low - Oct 15th was pretty rough on me. I did share, and I didn't get any bad feedback aside from a few people saying "God has a plan" but I tried to look at their intentions rather than the possible implications of what they said. I didn't expect it to be so rough on me, but I had a mini-breakdown at my internship site. Thankfully I've got an understanding supervisor.
The high - yesterday, being able to talk to DH openly and him being able to share as well. We've been consciously trying to allow each other to grieve in our own ways, and for DH that means not probing him to share unless he decides to talk about the subject. It was refreshing to hear his thoughts and see where he's at. I was beginning to worry that he wouldn't be ready in Jan/Feb, but he did express genuine desire. I get so nervous that I'm pushing him towards it sometimes, but I know now that he wants this just as much as I do.
Any TTA related frustrations?
Well, before our talk yesterday, I was getting nervous as to whether DH would be ready or not. But thankfully we're on the same page. Can't say I have any particular frustrations at this point, other than maybe really wanting this internship to fly by so I can finish my hours.
Anything that you're looking forward to this week?
On the 19th, the organization that provided us with pictures of Fenix is holding a fundraising event called Make a Memory day. I might attend, I might not. Right now I'm most looking forward to soaking in a hot bath with a glass of wine when I get home.
QOTW: post anything positive
I've been so fortunate to have so many resources - with you ladies here and the HALO organization. Fall feels like a settling of this new reality and a fresh start for the future.

Any updates from the week? 

What was the high/low of the week? 

Any TTA related frustrations? 

Anything that you're looking forward to this week? 

QOTW: post anything positive 

brittanylee618

New here. Just suffered our first loss with our first pregnancy.

We are TTA until probably February or March, we don't want to be due around our son's due date. Plus I want to have at least one or two cycles before I put my body through another pregnancy.

High from this week was meeting with my doctor, 2 weeks PP, and being reassured that the blood condition they found in me will be easily manageable and that another pregnancy can be and most likely will be successful.

Low would probably be that everything is still so fresh. Trying to stay positive but some people in our lives don't understand how to handle our situation and aren't thinking before they speak. (Example:: we have a few pictures of our son and have decided that when we are ready we will show them to some family and close friends.. My grandmother made the comment that "that's ok for now but you can't be selfish...") so that's been a task to deal with.

No frustrations TTA just yet.. But we can't be active yet so that's probably why.

This week I'm looking forward to another week gone, another week of healing, and getting closer to being able to try again to be a mommy to not just an angel but also to a healthy baby.