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I guess it is time for me to introduce myself

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I have bee lurking on here for the last few weeks, so I suppose I should make my introduction

DH and I are coming off of our second pregnancy and 2nd loss in just over a year. Went in for a u/s 3 weeks ago (7wk5day) and only saw and empty, sac, with very little change on a f/u u/s 1 week later. Thankfully my body took care of things naturally, and we are hoping to get back in the game as soon as AF shows up. 

I have taken this loss much harder than the first, I find myself resenting other pregnancies ( I feel like a horrible person). I work in an ER and tonight I found myself crying in the bathroom after seeing a 17 y.o who was pregnant. I resent the fact my unemployed SIL had a successful pregnancy while smoking pot and drinking the whole 9 months, yet I lost 2 while trying to do everything right. 
To make matters worse a friend I work with, who started TTC at the same time, announced her pregnancy to everyone at work the same day I started to mc. 

I appreciate you listening to my rant, I just needed to get it off my chest. I feel like people do not really understand unless they have (unfortunately) experienced a loss. 


        
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Married 5/23/2011
BFP 6/16/2013 EDD 2/25/2014 MC 7/2/2013
BFP 8/30/2014 EDD: 5/10/2015- MC 10/2/2014
BFP 3/16/2015 EDD: 11/22/2015
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  • uromysuromys member
    I so sorry for your losses. Creepy internet stranger hugs! I too had a very hard time dealing with other pregnant woman. Especially those who aren't taking care of their bodies or complain about being pregnant constantly. Good news is the resentment has finally started to fade, and now that we have been cleared to TTC I feel like their is hope again. Take time to heal and make sure to get the green light from your doctor before jumping back in the game. Best wishes and healing thoughts.

    DH & I are both 28    Together: 12 years    Married: 09/24/2011

    BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012

    Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12

    BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20

    BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15

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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    I'm so sorry for your losses. Welcome to the board.
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • ctk181ctk181 member
    Welcome. I'm so sorry for your losses.
    Married: 4/28/12
    BFP: 7/2/14 ;  1st US 7/21/14 Baby measuring 7w5d, HB of 138;  Discovered MMC 8/18/14 at 11w2d, baby measuring 8w5d, no hb ; 8/19/14 D&C
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  • aenelsonaenelson member
    Welcome. I am sorry for your losses. I just joined recently and have had a similar experience. I know how you feel when you can't be happy for someone else. It feels terrible. Thanks for joining and sharing your story. Hope you find both strength and comfort here--I know I have.
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  • ellebelle2384ellebelle2384 member
    I'm so sorry for your losses.  I think your feelings are completely understandable given what you've been through.  (hugs)  Welcome to the board.
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
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    TTC #2 since 12/13
    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
    FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
    Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!
    Beta 9dp5dt = 92

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  • PinkCaminoPinkCamino member
    Welcome. I'm so sorry for your losses.
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  • jjbmstincojjbmstinco member
    Welcome. I am sorry for your loss!

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    Married-1/2012
    TTC-8/2013   BFP-4/18/14  EDD: 12/29/12 MC-5/17/14 @ 7w4d
    BFP #2-11/13/14  EDD: 7/26/14  Beta #1: 11/14/13 (135 progesterone: 19.5)   Beta #2" 11/17/14 (733 ) 
    Hoping for good news!

    Everyone Welcome

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  • Km380Km380 member
    I'm sorry for your losses. What you are feeling is common, don't be hard on yourself about it. (((Hugs))) welcome

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

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  • kittymeowbarkkittymeowbark member
    Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss. It is super hard and emotional to see women pregnant and babies, but know your feelings are not wrong or something you should feel ashamed about. This is a very hard situation to be in. Hugs!
    Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
    TTC since 2012
    BFP#1~  EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
    Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    Welcome.  I am so sorry for your losses.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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