I think @pegacorn posted something similar recently, and I am going to bring it up with my therapist, but lately have been feeling the most overwhelming sense of anxiety in regards to thinking my loved ones are going to die in terrible accidents.
I know it's farfetched, but I can't stop thinking about it-- I'm worried something's going to happen to Josie in her crib at night (even though I have a video monitor with the sound turned way up AND her room is right accross the hall from me). I think something's going to happen to my new SO-- I am pretty sure I am making him nuts by asking him to text or call after he arrives someplace safely. I am even terrified that something terrible will happen to STBXH-- and I think of how sad I would be for Josie should he be in an accident.
I have had mild episodes of this before, but lately, it's been almost unbearable-- the really dark, obsessive thoughts, the racing pulse and the panic is making me think I am going crazy.
So, friends, am I going crazy? Not sure what I am looking for here? Maybe just to vent a bit, confide, see if anyone can relate?
Thanks for listening.
BFP 1- EDD 2/09/11 Missed MC DX @11 weeks D&C- 7/25/10 BFP 2- EDD 12/22/11 Natural MC @ 5w 2d BFP 3- EDD 1/25/12 DD Josephine born 1/16/12