I was dreading this week for months and even though we had a new little hope, I was still in fear that something would go wrong, imagining the extra hurt of a second loss at the same time my first pregnancy due date.
My husband and I took some time Monday to remember our loss and shared tears. He remembered which was so touching.
Wednesday, Oct 8, that dreaded day, we had dinner with a couple who's been thru more losses than I could ever survive. She brought her home Doppler and at 10 weeks we heard its precious heart beat. I was so elated. We could tell it was moving and heard the heart rate speed up as I got excited.
Oct 8 has so much meaning to me now. I can only think its a date I will hold on to. To remember a loss of life and my first sounds from the one I hope to hold.
Re: my EDD for loss and first Doppler-oct 8
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby