Tuesday Crazy Train

buggirl72

This is a thread posted daily for any of us who need to get out our frustrations about waiting to O, the 2WW, or vent about our cycles. If you find yourself checking FF obsessively, MF is getting the best of you, or you just want to pee on all things, let it out here!

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The CT is not the place to post a BFP. If you have a "squinter" or if you have a line that appeared after the time frame, please do not post about it here. Take a step back from the board, test again with FMU, and good luck!

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Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO:

Can I just ______ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms:

Explain your Crazy here:

PinkCamino

Hi Bug!!!!!!!!

buggirl72

PinkCamino said:

Hi Bug!!!!!!!!

Good morning!

O2girl

I think this is my ride...

Crazy level from 1-10: 15?

CD/DPO: I'm 4dp5dt so I'm not sure other than I'm about 3 days shy of being able to actually do an HPT

Can I ____ already?! ::know so I can move on?

Signs/symptoms: nothing.nada.

Explain your crazy here:

I know I'm not supposed to test this early, but I have not had a good feeling about this embryo transfer since before it was done. I definitely got a bad feeling the day of the transfer for several reasons, first being that my bladder was so full that I couldn't lay more than the 15 mins after the transfer because I needed to pee so badly I was in major pain.
So why did I test this morning? I know that it is still super early and we only transferred 1 embryo so HCG won't even start being made until tomorrow. And of course the test was negative....so why am I frustrated? ::::bangs head against wall:::: I am so ridiculous for testing and even more for being slightly hopeful that this might work. Ugh

buggirl72

O2girl said:

I think this is my ride... Crazy level from 1-10: 15? CD/DPO: I'm 4dp5dt so I'm not sure other than I'm about 3 days shy of being able to actually do an HPT Can I ____ already?! ::know so I can move on? Signs/symptoms: nothing.nada. Explain your crazy here: I know I'm not supposed to test this early, but I have not had a good feeling about this embryo transfer since before it was done. I definitely got a bad feeling the day of the transfer for several reasons, first being that my bladder was so full that I couldn't lay more than the 15 mins after the transfer because I needed to pee so badly I was in major pain. So why did I test this morning? I know that it is still super early and we only transferred 1 embryo so HCG won't even start being made until tomorrow. And of course the test was negative....so why am I frustrated? ::::bangs head against wall:::: I am so ridiculous for testing and even more for being slightly hopeful that this might work. Ugh

(((Hugs)))

You are not ridiculous for testing. Hope is a tricky bitch and makes TTCAL that much harder. I try to worse case scenario in these circumstances that way I'm prepared for whatever may be thrown at me.

It was early and you know it was early. FX that you get a different result in a couple more days.

uromys

O2girl That crazy is completely justifiable. Hoping you can hold on a few more days before testing again. Good Luck!!! FX for you!

BookishMomma

@O2Girl I have everything crossed for you that it's just too early. ((Hugs))

O2girl

buggirl72 said:

O2girl said:

I think this is my ride...

Crazy level from 1-10: 15?

CD/DPO: I'm 4dp5dt so I'm not sure other than I'm about 3 days shy of being able to actually do an HPT

Can I ____ already?! ::know so I can move on?

Signs/symptoms: nothing.nada.

Explain your crazy here:

I know I'm not supposed to test this early, but I have not had a good feeling about this embryo transfer since before it was done. I definitely got a bad feeling the day of the transfer for several reasons, first being that my bladder was so full that I couldn't lay more than the 15 mins after the transfer because I needed to pee so badly I was in major pain.
So why did I test this morning? I know that it is still super early and we only transferred 1 embryo so HCG won't even start being made until tomorrow. And of course the test was negative....so why am I frustrated? ::::bangs head against wall:::: I am so ridiculous for testing and even more for being slightly hopeful that this might work. Ugh

(((Hugs)))

You are not ridiculous for testing. Hope is a tricky bitch and makes TTCAL that much harder. I try to worse case scenario in these circumstances that way I'm prepared for whatever may be thrown at me.

It was early and you know it was early. FX that you get a different result in a couple more days.


@buggirl72‌
Thank you. I also try to prepare myself for the "worst case scenario".I don't see it as pessimistic in nature; more self preservation in nature. I just wish I would have fought the urge to POAS this morning. I have no clue why I did this to myself today.

buggirl72

Greeneyes842 said:

The crazy is beginning to set in!

Crazy level from 1-10: 7

CD/DPO: 22/8DPO

Can I just ______ already?!: Can I just test already?!

Signs/Symptoms: Sore boobs, daily mild cramp twinges (but I have those every cycle), weird temp drop today

Explain your Crazy here: I saw the stash of my FRERs yesterday and they were calling my name, but I resisted.  I also had a temp drop today that I can only hope will be a good sign.  I just want time to go by quickly so I can test!  I plan on testing with a FRER at 10 DPO on Thursday.  I know that's early but we are going out of town and staying with friends for a wedding, so just thought it would be a good idea since it will be a booze heavy weekend.  I'll be able to test again on Saturday,  just hate waiting.

Yes! 7dpo would be a waste of a very good FRER. Now, if you had some wondfos . . .

Good luck and remember that 10dpo is still pretty early. Enjoy your weekend!

buggirl72

O2girl said:

O2girl said:

I think this is my ride... Crazy level from 1-10: 15? CD/DPO: I'm 4dp5dt so I'm not sure other than I'm about 3 days shy of being able to actually do an HPT Can I ____ already?! ::know so I can move on? Signs/symptoms: nothing.nada. Explain your crazy here: I know I'm not supposed to test this early, but I have not had a good feeling about this embryo transfer since before it was done. I definitely got a bad feeling the day of the transfer for several reasons, first being that my bladder was so full that I couldn't lay more than the 15 mins after the transfer because I needed to pee so badly I was in major pain. So why did I test this morning? I know that it is still super early and we only transferred 1 embryo so HCG won't even start being made until tomorrow. And of course the test was negative....so why am I frustrated? ::::bangs head against wall:::: I am so ridiculous for testing and even more for being slightly hopeful that this might work. Ugh

(((Hugs)))

You are not ridiculous for testing. Hope is a tricky bitch and makes TTCAL that much harder. I try to worse case scenario in these circumstances that way I'm prepared for whatever may be thrown at me.

It was early and you know it was early. FX that you get a different result in a couple more days.

@buggirl72‌ Thank you. I also try to prepare myself for the "worst case scenario".I don't see it as pessimistic in nature; more self preservation in nature. I just wish I would have fought the urge to POAS this morning. I have no clue why I did this to myself today.

That is exactly how I feel about it too! ((((Hugs))) and try to go easy on yourself today.

rslh10

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Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: 25/13dpo

Can I just ______ already?!: know.

Signs/Symptoms: sore boobs, some twinges, and super exhaustion yesterday afternoon (I feel it again today). I also have slowly developed a really awful headache tosay I've the course of 3 hours. One pepsi, a hot shower and 3 Motrin later it's better.

Explain your Crazy here: I tested this am with a FRER and it was bfn. I don't know why I expected to see 2 lines? I was feeling confident with our timing, new meds, the whole thing. Temps are high (thanks, progesterone...) and I have one FRER left. I don't even want to test anymore. If I see another 1 line test, I might just go off the deep end. I was really hoping this was it. I don't want to take a break until January, but that's what I think is best for us as a couple. I'm just so frustrated.

Also, my OB seems to believe I O'ed cd 13, not 12. So I guess there is a possibility I'm only 12dpo. No my O is not confirmed by her. I know it should be. After our TTA break, I will be seeing an actual RE.

buggirl72

rslh10 said:

------------------------------------------------- Crazy level from 1-10: 9 CD/DPO: 25/13dpo Can I just ______ already?!: know. Signs/Symptoms: sore boobs, some twinges, and super exhaustion yesterday afternoon (I feel it again today). I also have slowly developed a really awful headache tosay I've the course of 3 hours. One pepsi, a hot shower and 3 Motrin later it's better. Explain your Crazy here: I tested this am with a FRER and it was bfn. I don't know why I expected to see 2 lines? I was feeling confident with our timing, new meds, the whole thing. Temps are high (thanks, progesterone...) and I have one FRER left. I don't even want to test anymore. If I see another 1 line test, I might just go off the deep end. I was really hoping this was it. I don't want to take a break until January, but that's what I think is best for us as a couple. I'm just so frustrated. Also, my OB seems to believe I O'ed cd 13, not 12. So I guess there is a possibility I'm only 12dpo. No my O is not confirmed by her. I know it should be. After our TTA break, I will be seeing an actual RE.

(((Hugs)))

I was looking at your chart and trying to figure and saw that this was a medicated cycle with trigger. It's tough to say when you O'd by your chart because your spike did not happen until you started taking progesterone. It is possible that you are only 12dpo instead of 13 like your OB thinks. 

If your OB did not confirm ovulation, did she at least do an u/s prior to having you trigger?

buggirl72

LDubHawksFan said:

I'm jumping on again today. Choo choo! Crazy level from 1-10: 8 CD/DPO: 20 Can I just ______ already?!: ovulate!! Signs/Symptoms: darkest OPK this afternoon yet!! And I've got watery and EWCM the last two days. Hopefully I didn't jinx it and my surge will continue through... Explain your Crazy here: I'm just so ready!! Ready to try. Ready to jump my hubby (we haven't been EOD because our dr wants us to try to focus more on once we get a positive OPK). Ready to contact my dr to tell them I know when I actually ovulated since he is insisting on still doing cd 21 BW. READY!!!!!! Good luck @rslh10‌!! It's still a little early!!

Good luck and I would make sure to HIO!

rslh10

buggirl72 said:

rslh10 said:

------------------------------------------------- Crazy level from 1-10: 9 CD/DPO: 25/13dpo Can I just ______ already?!: know. Signs/Symptoms: sore boobs, some twinges, and super exhaustion yesterday afternoon (I feel it again today). I also have slowly developed a really awful headache tosay I've the course of 3 hours. One pepsi, a hot shower and 3 Motrin later it's better. Explain your Crazy here: I tested this am with a FRER and it was bfn. I don't know why I expected to see 2 lines? I was feeling confident with our timing, new meds, the whole thing. Temps are high (thanks, progesterone...) and I have one FRER left. I don't even want to test anymore. If I see another 1 line test, I might just go off the deep end. I was really hoping this was it. I don't want to take a break until January, but that's what I think is best for us as a couple. I'm just so frustrated. Also, my OB seems to believe I O'ed cd 13, not 12. So I guess there is a possibility I'm only 12dpo. No my O is not confirmed by her. I know it should be. After our TTA break, I will be seeing an actual RE.

(((Hugs)))

I was looking at your chart and trying to figure and saw that this was a medicated cycle with trigger. It's tough to say when you O'd by your chart because your spike did not happen until you started taking progesterone. It is possible that you are only 12dpo instead of 13 like your OB thinks. 

If your OB did not confirm ovulation, did she at least do an u/s prior to having you trigger?

yes, we had an u/s on Monday cd 10. I had three follies- 16, 17 and 17. I came back on Tuesday and triggered at 3:30pm. 

purplehaze11

Crazy level from 1-10: 10 CD/DPO: CD18 Can I just ______ already?!: stop bleeding! Signs/Symptoms: this is the period from hell. I am on day 18 of light flow. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. I'm exhausted and weak, sigh. Explain your Crazy here: I found out last week I've got a fibroid that is probably the cause for my losses. But I've never bled like this, so it seems to be growing rather quickly. I'm just so emotionally drained. Ive decided to go to a private clinic (I'm in Canada) to get this dealt with, since I'm not sure how much more I can take