I just wanted to introduce myself and I guess say what I am going through as I find I might actually post/use this board.
I was due March 13th, 15 but had a d&c this past Monday. We found out the Friday before (our 15 week appt) that our baby died at 7 weeks, a partial molar.
We had an appt in August where we did the bloodwork for the panorama (at 11 weeks) that ended up coming back blank. He couldn't find the hb on the doppler but chalked it up to being too early. At last Friday's appointment he tried the doppler, couldn't find anything, did an abdominal ultrasound, found nothing, did the vaginal and determined it was what it was.
I find myself bouncing back and forth through these emotions about what happened.
I am trying to not be angry at the dr, that will do nothing for me, I know. Yet, I can't help but be angry. We announced to the world at 12 weeks when we thought we were safe. We saw a heartbeat in July.
My son was so excited, he has been an only child for 8 and a half years. He seems to be handling it ok. I just wish we hadn't even told him. I teach at his school so I was able to keep tabs on how he did this week at school, which was ok, but my sorrow is extending now only for my other but for him.
I just wish I was able to figure out how to get through this and accept that we won't be having that baby and make life normal again for us all.
I welcome all input/commentary with an open mind.
(I was on the Mar 15 board but only intro'd never really posted, didn't feel comfortable yet)