I had an epiphany about a day before our ultrasound about this. And despite the fact that this pregnancy has been completely different (aka uber pukey still at 23 weeks) AND going against both the scientifically proven "string test" AND the Chinese Gender Chart, Baby Tres is a BOY!
Holy good gracious I'm going to be way outnumbered.
Re: My 11th hour Mommy intuition kicked in
BFP 8/23/11 natural m/c 9/7/11 @ 6w BFP 1/16/2012 C-section 9/16/2012 Health baby boy!
Big Kid Jan 2010
Littlest Man Sept 2012
Emma Rose - 9.14.05 Beckett - 5.26.07 Sawyer - 9.22.12 Lennon Mae - 9.26.14
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
The past few months I was confident that this baby was a girl. Like we had two boys, now we'll have a girl to complete our family. All the sickness and just my wanting the boys to have a sister was powerful enough to convince myself. I literally never, ever thought I wouldn't have a daughter. But as we got closer to the ultrasound, the "it's a boy. I just know it" feelings took over. Deep down I was letting the thoughts of a having daughter slowly fade. Every time I thought about it, it was almost like my head was now convincing my heart to let the idea of a girl go. And if it happened to BE a girl, then I would be surprised.
At the ultrasound, I was very calm and told the tech we wanted her to write it down so we could open it at home. I was worried if we found out there that I wouldn't take it well. It ended up I had to have a dr come in to do a transvaginal ultrasound in additional to the regular A/S. He was checking on my placenta which is anterior and my csection scar. It's something they are going to keep checking on throughout the rest of this pregnancy. With that being said, my emotions about the sex were pushed aside with the nervousness that something was wrong with me. I thought I saw "something" on the screen but couldn't be sure.
When we for home and after the boys went to sleep, I still wasn't ready. The following night we opened the envelope. I'm not going to lie, I cried. A lot. The ugly cry. I cried over things I'll never get to experience (bows, pigtails, ballet shoes, mother-daughter bonding, watching DH walk down the aisle). At that point, it was letting go of 30-some years of being a Mom to a little girl.
It's taken a few weeks to get used to it. And telling people has proven difficult. I could tell my mom was disappointed just by her voice and that was hard to hear. My MIL was over-the-top-excited which was not where I was at the time and that made me uncomfortable. It's hard to explain. My BFF "got it" as she is a mom of 2 boys who has sisters and nieces.
I know I love him so much and this sadness and will be a something that passes and will be just a blip from this pregnancy. Now we just have to figure out a name.
Kid #1 - 09/03/12
Hysteroscopy #10 - scar tissue grew back reblocking my right tube
#11 or IVF with scarring still inside?
1 lone embryo from September 2016 retreival, dx with Trisomy 16, starting fresh