Anyone else have a less than perfect relationship with their H? Gosh, mine is such a roller coaster and it's so hard. It's half the reason we are TTA for the foreseeable future. We went through 2 losses this year which affected me a lot but h literally barely reacted besides telling me I'm dramatic. I wouldn't even post on this board the things he said to me about a 1st tri baby. DS is going to be 2 in dec and is a handful (good and bad), and I'm feeling like I do everything. If I don't cook/clean/grocery shop/do laundry/take care of DS/etc, it literally just doesn't get done. I put T down for naps, during the week drop him off and pick him up from school, do dinner, bath, bed. On top of it my H is just so mean/rude to me and still treats me like I do nothing and I'm just a b*tch when I bring anything up. Btw, I also work 40-50 hours per week (so does H, I work from home though for a major tech company) Sorry, guess I just needed to vent! Thanks ladies.
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BFP #1: 05/2012 DS born 12/30/12
BFP #2: 02/2014 Natural M/C 03/2014 @ 7 weeks
BFP #3: 06/2014 EDD: 02/17/2015 M/C @ 7w2d, D&E 7/15/14
Re: Trouble in Paradise
DD#1 born June '09
DD#2 born April '11
TTC #3 as of July '14
I am very sorry for your losses. I think men handle things differently, I know my DH internalized it and didn't say too much probably because he thought it would make it harder on me but in reality I wanted someone to cry with. (though maybe he didn't feel the same connection I did since I was the one carrying the baby? I don't know).
People are shocked when couples split after they've been TTC - but I don't think it's a shock at all. I think the stress of it seems to just highlight any issues that might have already been there, that and your emotions and hormones are totally out of control at times. I think it is very important to work through those issues, and decide what the real problems are. If he's downright rude to you then that's a concern and not something that's going to get better unless addressed. Obviously none of use know the details of your relationship.
This might not be the perfect book but I did find it helpful when we went through a rough patch while ttc the first time: https://www.amazon.com/Improve-Marriage-Without-Talking-About/dp/0767923189
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About me 2007: Started TTC. 2008: OB prescribed clomid, went to RE and was Dx with PCOS. 2009: IUI #1 w/follitsim and trigger = BFP. B/G Twins born at 33 weeks. 2012: TTC #3, Round 2 of Letrozole w/TI = BFP, missed m/c at 8 1/2 wks. Currently on the bench as we make plans for a new home. Anxious to start TTC #3 within the next year!
BFP #1: 05/2012 DS born 12/30/12
BFP #2: 02/2014 Natural M/C 03/2014 @ 7 weeks
BFP #3: 06/2014 EDD: 02/17/2015 M/C @ 7w2d, D&E 7/15/14
DD 15.07.2012
BFP #2 01.18.2014, MMC 04.10.2014 15w5d
BFP #3 07.18.2014, MC 07.31.2014 5w6d
DX: RPL due to submucosal uterine fibroid. Hysteroscopy 12/16. All clear!
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I'm so sorry for your losses. Marriage is work. And sometimes it's challenging. Having a toddler is even more work. Dealing with infertility and pregnancy loss on top of all that? I hope you have a stocked wine cellar!
I think everyone needs to vent from time to time about their spouse. Housework. The struggle is real. We've found a balance that kind of sort of maybe works a little. Ish. I agree with PPs who suggested telling him exactly what you want done.
And, I think it's typical for men to deal with pregnancy loss in a less personal way. BUT, the fact that he called you dramatic raises a huge red flag for me. It would be very difficult for me to get past that. That single word in that particular scenario would be enough for me to demand counseling. Consider raising the possibility with him.
Me: 28, DH: 33
Conceived DD in <1yr w/o assistance
TTC#2 since 11/2013
DX: PCOS
Benched pending conf of Rubella immunity
Next Cycle: CLOMID round 1
When we first got married, we had a chore chart. No stickers, though haha. We listed what needs done weekly, and we each picked chores we would do. It helped a lot!
I now stay home with the twins so I do most of the child care and housework. I do get super frustrated sometimes, and that is when I need a break. He will watch the kids while I run to get groceries so I have some time away. I get stuff done but also have a sort of break.
Your husband may assume (incorrectly) that since you work at home, you have more time to do housework. I would sit down and tell him what you need. Not "you don't do xyz," but "I can't do it all in my own, and I'm feeling unappreciated" and make a new game plan. Saying "I feel" is the key to talking to my husband. He doesn't feel attacked, but I get my point across.
I'm sorry about your losses. I had an early loss and took it very hard. My husband didn't seem phased, but he was being strong for me. He handles things differently. I was sad and was really angry and frustrated. As women we physically experience it and the baby was a part of us, so when something happens we actually lose a part of us. Perhaps his saying those things was his way of handling the loss and the stress?
I would also suggest counseling, as others have stated. TTC, parenting, and loss is hard. Some people don't know how to handle it all, and they need a little help figuring out how to release their emotions.
Good luck!
BFP #1: 05/2012 DS born 12/30/12
BFP #2: 02/2014 Natural M/C 03/2014 @ 7 weeks
BFP #3: 06/2014 EDD: 02/17/2015 M/C @ 7w2d, D&E 7/15/14
When I am feeling really frustrated about something I have to remember to not just say to MH you don't do xyz or I\m always doing xzy why aren't you helping more because then he will shut down and feel attacked. Learning to phrase things with I feel or I think helps get the message across without the angry or blame.
I\m not in the U.S right now but when I did live there I am pretty sure I either called my clinic and asked for a referral or called my insurance company and asked who and what would be covered under my insurance plan.
I also know some places offer reduced rated base on income or if you are out of pocket.